raised by wolves.

▲▼ kim jongin. kai. jack of all trades. sixth. gryffindor. 17 years young. all of this was you.. the reason why the road before me is so beautiful.

[jongingryf]

[ standalone kai-hp rper now~ not assosciated with alohomora/aih

bc i wanna rp with other ex-exo members ~ unfollow if you wish c: ] 

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` lips tugs down into a frown ) I’m not a tsundere.. (` whispers, bringing his hand up from the back of jongin’s neck to his cheek, thumb caressing his cheeks ) .. you’ve gotten thinner. (` says softly, worry creasing his forehead )

[jongingryf]

( `/ he only chuckles at his retort and chooses not to say anything else -- at kyungsoo's next words, jongin shrugs his shoulder lightly ) have I? i've been practicing so hard for performances ive barely had time to eat on time.. ( `/ leans his head on kyungsoo's shoulder ) I didn't know chasing something i've been wanting since I was a kid could be that hard..

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` purses his lips, his own face heating up at the insinuation. his hands come down to rest on jongin’s shoulders, fingers playing with the hair on the younger’s nape ) oh… then um.. aren’t you going to take me home..? (` 

[jongingryf]

( `/ he relaxes evidently at kyungsoo's touch. jongin narrows his eyes at kyungsoo ) you know there's a perfect definition for you in the japanese language.. what was it again.. ( `/ he bites his lower lip as he thinks and makes an 'ah' sound when he finally remembers ) you're such a tsundere. 

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` looks down, fitting himself between jongin’s thighs and blinking ) .. i have to go back.. (` catches his bottom lip between his teeth and looks down guiltily ) luhan must be looking for me…

[jongingryf]

( `/ he spreads his thighs further as his hands automatically wrap themselves around kyungsoo's small body -- he shrugs ) i'm pretty sure sehun and luhan were up to something. sehun just texted me, ( `/ grabs his phone by his back pocket and shows kyungsoo the text message from his best friend that read 'you guys dont have to come back to the party' ) 

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` bats the other’s arm, huffing his cheeks out ) you’re drunk… that was figuratively speaking.. (` sighs, tilting his head to the side ) .. are we going to stand here forever?

[jongingryf]

( `/ raises his index finger in a 'nu uh' wave as he shakes his head ) i'm actually not. just a little bit. and i'm disappointed - ( `/ he pauses, grinning at him. jongin shrugs and sits himself on his bed ) i want to sleep beside you tonight. 

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

yah! (` pulls back, a pout on his lips ) don’t laugh„ i’m being serious here.. (` sniffs, closing his eyes again ) i’m baring myself out naked in front of you.. don’t laugh at me..

[jongingryf]

( `/ he stops the laugh that was threatening to erupt from his lips successfully and he just smiles at kyungsoo -- at his latter words, jongin tilts his head ) baring .. naked? ( `/ looks down at the clothes covering kyungsoo ) but.. you're not naked.. 

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` makes a humming nose, pressing his lips against jongin’s cheek, then trailing butterfly ones to the corner of his lips ) you can break anything.. just don’t break me..

[jongingryf]

( `/ he couldn't help the chuckle that escapes past his lips when he hears what kyungsoo said. it's funny. especially when it came out of kyungsoo's lips ) i promise. i'll be careful with your heart. or you in general.

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` he finds himself unable to look away, heartbeat so fast as he cups jongin’s cheek with shaky fingers ) you— (` sighs, chuckling nervously ) .. don’t say things like that.. (` whispers, nosing jongin’s other cheek ) i might just hold on to that.,

[jongingryf]

( `/ he raises a hand and pets the back of kyungsoo's head ) it's okay. i know better now than to make the same mistakes that i did before.. i've seen my life without you and i never want to go back to that state again. so you can hope for forever.. and i promise, i'll do my best not to break anything.. 

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` finds himself still blushing when he should’ve gotten over the butterflies jongin seem to give to him every time he says those words ) i hope you didn’t replace me.. (` mumbles weakly, tightening his hold on the younger male ) .. there are a lot of hot guys and girls in new york..

[jongingryf]

( `/ he laughs a little ) i tried to think of other people but i couldn't... it seems so soon but i've never felt like this for anyone else before and it scares me.. but   ( `/ pulls away slightly, looking straight into kyungsoo's eyes as he smiles a gentle smile ) I think.. think i'll stay in love with you forever.

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` finds himself laughing genuinely after a long time. he curls his arms around jongin’s neck, pulling himself flush against the other and sighing softly as he hides his face on the younger’s neck ) merlin… i missed you so much.. i love you so much…

[jongingryf]

( `/ jongin wraps his arms slowly around kyungsoo's waist and pulls their body together --  and now he's so certain that it's not just the alcohol talking but all of him to when he mutters the three words he's been dying to say to the older male ) I love you.. so much.

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` opens his eyes, his breath taken away when he sees himself reflected on jongin’s eyes. he misses him so bad ) .. i always cook for you though. (` retorts just as softly, his nose touching jongin’s ) .. your breath smells disgusting by the way..

[jongingryf]

( `/ jongin pulls away abruptly and covers his mouth with both of his hands - he stares in feign horror at kyungsoo before he talks ( words a bit muffled because of his hands ) ... but i brushed my teeth and had sprayed some minty breath spray!

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` chuckles softly, playing with jongin’s fingers ) .. are you studying dance? i’m… trying to be a patisserie.. or a singer. i’m not quite sure.. (` sighs, closing his eyes and bringing their joined hands to rest on his own cheek ) … don’t leave, okay?  don’t ever leave again..

[jongingryf]

( `/ he finds the strength to smile -- a genuine one this time, when he hears kyungsoo's words. he nods his head in assurance before leaning his forehead to kyungsoo's gently, the smile still on his face ; his eyes closes as he says ; ) i remember having a day dream once.. back in our 7th year together.. i remember dreaming about you making me a sweet dessert and i don't know.. it just makes me happy. I study dance.. sehun and I's dreams as  kids were to study dance in New york.. so we did it. 

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` tilts his head back, closing his eyes and breathing in deeply ) … is it enough for you to stay? (` whispers softly, looking back down and staring at him ) .. will you stay? (` closes the distance between them, hesitantly hooking his fingers on jongin’s lightly ) … will you?

[jongingryf]

( `/ jongin tightens his fingers around kyungsoo's own in immediate response. he meets his eyes after one deep breath and nods slowly ) I never wanted to leave.. ( `/ he whispers quietly ) life was so.. different without you.. life was so.. useless.. i don't know.. all the negative words combined is such an understatement.. 

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` there’s a rush of panic that fills him when the familiar fuzziness of apparating surrounds him. he frantically looks around, lost at the unfamiliar place he’s in before his eyes settles back on jongin’s frame. it breaks him too see the other like this and he reaches out to caress jongin’s cheek before he could stop himself ) .. why.. why are you doing this..?

[jongingryf]

( `/ jongin stays quiet at the question and he keeps hold of his gaze to kyungsoo but soon he drops it, his hand limp on his sides ) because i like you. ( `/ he said, eyes closing as he takes a sigh to relax his self ) because i love you. Because i'd rather spend my whole life with you than someone else. ( `/ he speaks in a convincing tone and he sure does hope he's convincing enough for the older male ) 

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` a small gasp escapes his lips when he feels hands on his neck and he just wants to melt in jongin’s touch. he closes his eyes, willing himself to not give in but his resolve was nonexistence, courage absent from the amount of alcohol he drank ) i-.. (` exhales ) i’m scared jongin.. (` whispers, clenching his jaw ) .. i’m scared you’ll l-leave me again… 

[jongingryf]

( `/ by this time jongin doesn't care about anyone else anymore. he tightens his hold around kyungsoo's neck ; just enough for him to properly hold on to him but not too much to choke him - before he apparates them to his own apartment in Seoul. The apparition didn't take a minute ; as his surrounding starts to come into focus once again Jongin removes his hand from Kyungsoo's neck ) I. . I won't.  I never.. ever want us to end.. Not now, not ever.. please.. ( `/ looks at kyungsoo ) just.. take this risk one more time..

[jongingryf]

[jongingryf]

▼△▼ then let it be beautiful。// KAI&SOO

[kyungdors]

(` if possible, his heartbeat goes even faster, the need to hold jongin slowly breaking down his defenses. he hates the younger male for having him reduced to this ) .. you don’t need to do that. (` answers, blinking a few times to let his focus vision ) .. go home, yeah? (` a lie. he didn’t want to go home. didn’t want to move because at least right now he gets jongin to himself ) what would your friends say if they see you kneeling at someone else. (` jokes, wanting to ease the atmosphere even if his heart was screaming at him )

[jongingryf]

( `/ shakes his head viciously at what the boy says )  friends .. i don't care what they'd say.. i'll prove to this whole place just how much I want you.. I know you don't want me to leave. you haven't said it at all -- ( `/ his hands move up to wrap around each side of kyungsoo's neck as he looks straight into his eyes ) you haven't told me you didn't love me anymore. that's why i'm not giving up. i'm not giving you up. i'm not .. ( `/ pauses when his voice breaks and tears once again fall from his eyes ) i'm not giving up on us yet.