just some bs with thoughts

https://foxett.tumblr.com/?source=share this blog is for vents, rants, personal stuff and reblog replies. check post dates and ignore everything.

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PLEASE READ.

This blog is FULL of vents, personal things, rambles and straight up bullshit. Ok? Ok. Turn away if you don't wanna be looking through that crap. Warning straight off there's mentions of sexual topics, self harm, suicide, yada-yada. Everything is tagged so it should filter properly.

If you're a CASUAL foxett follower I advise you not to go here. There's not much regarding my art here. Maybe a shitty doodle I didn't wanna put on main due to embarrassment or just the topic. But is it worth it to sift through waste to find something mediocre? No. With that said feel free to scroll. Check dates and stuff. Seeya.

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Heatwave so bad it got me projecting onto my chud oc

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Hello. It's me Crewmate. I am the good guy on this spaceship

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IT'S GONNA BE 37°C OUTSIDE AND IM BEING FORCED TO GO TO THE GARDEN. IM GONNA. FUCKING. MELT. GRANDPA FUCK YOU AND YOUR NEW BLUETOOTH HEADPHONES I DONT WANT TO GET OUT INTO THE SCORCHING SUN?

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Im like incredibly lucky for a transgender dude because my boobs are small, my periods are not very painful or long, my voice and face are already androgynous, I pass most of the time without binding or trying too hard... The only thing that's ruining it is my FAT ASS and WIDE ASS HIPS

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I feel really empty and alone and devoid of love and it's really reminding me of 2024-5 in the worst way i may have to inch away again

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How I felt earlier today because life is really Turmeric as of late

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You glance over at your teacher and they deadass wearing some straight up bullshit

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Idk what to draw because if I try to draw anything but Turmeric my hands stop cooperating and draw that jaundice hued fucker instead im SICK make it STOP

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PLEASE SOMEBODY TALK TO ME ABOUT LUXOR 3 PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEEEE

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Pssst still relevant hmu if you fw luxor 3

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Among us show is the best thing that's happened to me in the past few months

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awwww look at the qpr buddies so cute and also why did I actually like the among us show

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Twin keeps ending me this

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Among us show made me feel not miserable

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This is the most suicidal I've felt in a while. Not even cause of my ex (happy 1 year being single to me btw never been happier) but just cause of my age. I don't wanna be 16. I feel like I'm mentally 12. I don't even have friends irl. It's over. It's basically already over. I've failed. I've genuinely failed at life. What do I even do at this point? I have no hopes of actually doing the job Ive been thinking about. It's expensive and hard in terms of education. Ai is gonna take over my only hobbies. My family wastes money on me. I don't mean anything. The fact some people like me online isn't enough anymore. What do I even do anymore. I wanna die. I genuinely don't wanna be alive right now. Why am I still here? I haven't had friends in years. I don't know. What do I even unpack with my therapist first? The fact i was addicted to weird ai shit when I was 13-14 and it made me hate myself? Whatever was going on with that unhealthy relationship and exposure to weird shit?? The fact I value myself so little that sometimes I think my only worth is likes on Tumblr or Twitter??? The fact I hate people spending money on me because I feel as though it'll be a waste when I eventually do die? The fact I feel as though transitioning won't make me happier and it scares me because it's currently the only thing I want?

I don't know. I'm a worthless person. I'm scared of everything around me. How does one even recover from this? I don't get it. Thank god birthdays are only once in a year this is horrible I hate getting older I hate this. I wanna stay still for some time. I just wanna. Die. But not die. I wanna freeze. Please.

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I need standalone fakevery content. I need it desperately. I'm like. Fuck. Can we get more content. Somebody make content. It doesn't hit as hard when you make it yourself.

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And it'll all be over soon

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Im literally gonna fistfight all my organs oh my god