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[thepersonalquotes]

[rogueteddy101-deactivated202502]

Crying in your bathroom on your birthday so no one will disturb you 🎉

[usuallydelightfultaco]

depression

Wow, it’s my birthday today and I’m sitting here crying my eyes out…

[skulllflower]

I turn 25 today and I don’t know how to feel. I don’t feel like I’m in my twenties, I don’t feel like an adult even though I do adult things now. I also don’t look like I’m in my twenties as I’m always confused for an 18 year old. But I’m 25 today and I’m feeling neutral towards things right now. (Idk if that’s the right word to describe it, as I’m neither happy nor upset rn, but I do wish things could be better.)

The older I get the more I realize that birthdays were only special as a kid and now it’s lost its shine. Which is sad to me because birthdays should always be a special occasion and should be celebrated in the best way possible. But I guess growing up with less money and less people around will do that to you.

Anyways, here’s to another year older.

[hasvieee-deactivated20210610]

Kapag wala ka ng facebook or any trace sa social media makakalimutan ka na ng tao. Medyo na sad ako kasi nung birthday ko damn apat lang na friend ko yung bumati sakin. Yung hs friends ko di ako binati. Nakaka sad lang. Wala man lang din nag tanong sakin kung okay ako since nag deac ako ng mga accounts ko. Kilala mo lang talaga true friends mo pag nasa lowest point ka ng life mo.

[madchoices]

I don’t feel anything. I’m to a point where i live only for a goal that i know i will reach in YEARS, if i will ever reach it. It’s the only desire i have, there is only another very little spark of life that i have and that it’s connected to my life goal too. There isn’t anything else.

I’m empty. Now even the sadness and the pain are fading, so there is nothing but a strong desire for something that i don’t know if i will ever reach but that i NEED to reach, because if i don’t i will be less than nothing. And i NEED to be somenthing, to be someone even if it’s a normal person. Of course I’m greed so this is not enougth for me, but if i will be this, be somenthing, than at least i would have finished something.

I really hope that the my sacrifice will be worth something.

[thecoldwarlock]

It's my birthday today. I got depressed, had a mental breakdown, cried whole day, started smoking again and had a really long panic attack. I've never felt this lonely in my life. So I thought "Maybe It's time, maybe 19's enough?" But I don't have the courage to do something like that.

[thegoodvybe]

[juanderinglife]

I don’t know what to od with life anymore! I kust want to end it.

[juanderinglife]

I have messed up my life big time, and I regret many decisions and am unable to make up for it

[juanderinglife]

I've done so many bad things; I've done a lot of damage to people. I'm not proud of that'

[juanderinglife]

I've done terrible things in my life. Things for which I can never be forgiven. I betrayed friends, turned my back on the ones closest to me. I've always known that my sins would eventually catch up to me. No sin goes unpunished in this life. Your life doesn't flash before your eyes when you are dying. That's bullshit. It's your regrets that haunt you in your final moments. Everything you've failed to be. Everyone you let down. Everything you'd go back and change, if only you had more time.

[juanderinglife]

I've done awful things, I can't live with myself anymore

Today was a very dark day for me, and when I was done, I wanted to kill myself. I literally hit rock bottom and I couldn't control myself. I felt as if my life was over because of the hours I spent in a VERY dark world.

I've thrown up once out of nervousness, and disgust out of myself. I done nothing but cried the past few hours and I want to die. I feel like God will never forgive me, I feel like I am so sick that I don't deserve to be alive.

I'm scared that the things I've done with come back to haunt me, I'm scared that one day people will see what I've done in the dark and hate my guts for it. People would actually want me dead. I'm scared that I will get in big trouble, I don't to! I just want to go back to living life! I have so much going for me, I'm a 26 yr old guy I spend my time traveling, and I have great friends. I feel like this one mistake is going to ruin all of that.

I'm so nervous and scared that my records will never disappear and that someone in the world knows what I've done, I'm terrified and have considered suicide over this. I'm truly sorry for what I've done, I can't seem to help think that anyone will ever forgive me, I really need someones assuring words right now. I need someone to help me and tell me its okay.

Sorry if my grammar or spelling is messed up, I'm really scared, nervous, and sad.

[celestialflair]

The 20-year-old me didnt even imagine that 4yrs later she will be working on drafting contracts, meeting with different nationalities, learning rules/laws/etc and most definitely she didnt know that she will be forecasting a company’s revenue.

But this 24-year-old me is scared. She’s clueless if she’s playing the game right and using her cards well. Everyday, she’s doubting herself.

[subwaysandstilettos]

Best time to post on Instagram?

Does anyone know any good apps/websites that tells you when the best time to post is? I’ve read articles but I want the best time for my account. 

[shopstyleness]

I’ve been struggling with this forever. A friend just sent me this Instagram tool that automatically posts for you at the best time. I’ve seen a huge boost in engagement over the past week. I’m pretty sure it posts when the majority of your followers are online.

Sorry forgot to link it. iPhone app here

[hplyrikz]

“Life is too short for shitty sex and bad relationships. So go find someone who fucks you right and treats you how you deserve to be treated.”

— (via hplyrikz)

[ellangster]

I think relationship ends the time one stops to exert effort on making it work. It doesn’t end only in the time they stopped talking or going out, it fleets slowly when you become passive— when you ceased to care and worry about it. Maybe because the time you stopped is the time you already accept it is doomed to an end.