One of the hardest things to accept was not being able to breastfeed my baby until she was one. I had a rough pregnancy, and delivery. Coming home wasn’t the best either, I didn’t have the proper support I needed so badly. I had a spouse who couldn’t take over with the baby for 15-30 minutes, so that I could pump every 2.5-3 hours. It was the most stressful and aggravating experience, and I ended up with post-partum depression. I wish I had the support I needed, and was able to breastfeed my baby beyond 4-5 months. I wish I would’ve gone to lactation specialists, and tried harder to breastfeed. My supply kept decreasing and it just stressed me out even more and made my PPD worse. Having to give my baby formula instead of breast milk was the hardest decision to make. I regret not trying a lot harder and enforcing my time to pump and feed my baby. There are a lot of things I wish I could’ve done differently, and the people around me could’ve done to be more supportive. Instead of pressuring me to use formula, or speaking negatively all the time. This is a lesson to me, and I know in the future I only have myself to rely on for positive support and care.