TW: talk of self harm (Trinity Santos)
NOTE: this is just a ramble, i am very dyslexic and in no way a writer, I hope my thoughts come across as intended.
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I have personally never seen such an accurate representation of someone who struggles with self harm in any media until Trinity Santos. Someone who has a successful career, has friends and some kind of stability.
I think there's a big misinterpretation that one day you just get better and it just goes away. When that's really not the case, you can be functional and still sh, you can be 'recovered' and still have urges and relapses. It's not so black and white, and it's definitely NOT simple.
I love and hate how personally her character hits me. Often people who do sh come across guarded and cold because they're holding something so deep and so personal. The fear of being really seen, being so extremely vulnerable. That causes a lot of negative emotions, puts up a lot of walls.
What if people see you different?
What if they're disgusted?
What if they change how they act around you?
Which personally i HATE, you're not fragile because of your past coping mechanisms, you're not soft because you've handled your feelings and trauma in a unconventional way.
On another note I hate how discarded Trinitys sh storyline was towards the last episode of the pitt season 2, she took the scalpel then what? It felt like a lot of questions with regards to other characters were left unfinished and I get leaving things unanswered for the season 3 but this just felt like things were forgotten or pushed to the side so Robby could get his light, his screen time and his character arc told.
There was supposed to be some kind of scene between Dennis and Trinity with regards to this storyline and it was cut so Robby could have his pitty party and it INFURIATES me!!
I was so impressed by Trinity's character, her backstory and her struggles. It was all written really well, her character was mapped out flawlessly. Everything made so much sense in the way she is, her reactions and her relationships with the people around her. UGH UGH UGH. I really hope they don't fuck this up moving forward, Trinity Santos you deserve all the love in the world, you're perfect and so very seen.
thoughts? Thank you for taking the time to read this!! 🫂