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[justanerd1234]

FIC UPDATE!!!!

Got a rough draft mostly put together of Chapter 7 of DBSLCOTF, hopefully gonna have it out somewhat soon. This chapter has been kicking my ass, since it and chapter 8 are basically the climax of the whole thing, and are by far the most complicated to write and put together, but I'm so so excited to share it with y'all once I get it completed!

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Guys this is so weird usually my writing process goes like this:

ideas

outline

rough draft/outline

draft

edit

And now I'm working on chapter 7/8 of Dont be Scared bc they're connected heavily and they're like two really BIG chapters (big as in a lot goes down not necessarily length lmao) and I'm already on draft 3 of like one scene and its still practically just an outline and it STILL doesn't feel right (granted it might be one of the most crucial scenes in the whole fic but still)

Maybe I should just stick to action and angst scenes I can't do this mind melting psychological shit my head fucking hurts trying to piece this all together.

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Just found a short little fic where the water in Hawkins gets shut off bc the Ai used to generate super soaker took all of it so Mike and Will have to shower together to conserve water 😭😭😭 guys I love this fandom so much help-

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Welp I wasn’t going to read either of the other two “big three” byler fics (dmi;tmi and ttmd: ttms) but now that the whole super soaker thing is out I might have to just in order to cope with the one crazy popular byler fic I actually read being ai 🫩

Guys I’m so tired of this shit

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How to Disappear Completely by PeachStatic (peak fic go read it btw) referenced Stand By Me too many times so I finally decided to watch it and now I'm crying wtf.

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Chapter 6 of Don't Be Scared is officially here!

https://archiveofourown.org/series/5589236

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Cleradin fans I am absolutely BEGGING you to go read The Wolf and His King by Finn Longman trust me here you won't regret it (and honestly just read this book in general I'm so serious it might be one of the best things I've ever read)

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Finally finished the rough (and I do mean ROUGH) draft of the next chapter of Don't be Scared, Little Child. This chapter, along with work, dealing with my family (let's go mommy issues lmao), and my mental health are all kicking my ass in so many ways rn, BUT usually when I finish the rough draft it means I'm within a week or so of finishing the chapter.

Sorry I can't be one of those fanfic authors that update like crazy I unfortunately am not a overly motivated 14 year old anymore without regard for sleep (trust me, I wish I was) but thank you for those who like to stick it out I promise it will be worth it and I will not abandon this fic like ones I have in the past it just takes time because life gets in the way a lot.

Also side note but GUESS WHO finally got over a stupid crush she's had for multiple years now bc she realized that she can do so much better bc said crush lowkirkenuinely sucks (insert that kung fu panda gif where he's pointing to himself). Like any of you care but I need to tell someone and being a college kid home for the summer in my fuckass small town means all my friends live four hours away :(

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“Gee the back half of Olivia’s new album has been a little angsty but that last song was pretty up beat and now I only have one left so it should be too bad-“ *gunshot*

Also holy Byler guys this is ridiculous it’s pushing 1am and I’m here crying to a breakup song about two fictional boys who weren’t canon 6 months ago 😭😭😭

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The over masculinization of Mike wheeler and the over feminization of Will Byers just stems from the fact that a lot of people can’t stand that both are relatively gender-non conforming/androgynous in their own ways and these same people can’t stand their ship not having defined gender roles even when it’s queer but y’all aren’t ready for that conversation.

[kneelb4kesha]

Brandon Sanderson is interesting because in the majority of his body of work (especially his main cosmere universe) he kind of sits down across from you and says,

"Listen, even if an omniscient God or a godlike being is real, most religions are built on only a bit of truth and mostly upon myths designed to keep order among the populace. This order creates, designs, and enforces rigid roles for racism, classism, sexism, and homophobia. It excuses and handwaves, if not outright encourages, colonialism and oppression."

and you're like "Mr. Sanderson, aren't you a card carrying member of the Church of Jesus Christ and the Latter Day Saints?"

and he's like "don't worry about that"

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An Incomplete list of songs I will never be able to listen to again without thinking first and foremost about Byler:

Heroes

Me and Michael

Literally Anything by Conan Gray

The Cure

Silver Spring

Smalltown Boy

Should I Stay or should I go

Here comes the rain again

Purple rain

Winner takes it all

The night we met

Take me to church

Seven minutes in heaven

Cardigan

Placing the blame

Enchanted

Back to December

Sign of the times

Too little too late

You’re still the one

Glimpse of us

Earrings

Never be the same

There is a light that never goes out

Chasing cars

The one that got away

Just like heaven

Drop dead

And probably a lot more but this was all I could think of rn

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Question to you comformitygaters out there was there any significance of the number 5 to the show and specifically will???

Bc I put a post here a few days ago about the McDonald’s toys about how Mike was blue and number 7 and Will was yellow and number 5 and I saw this image of the s4 uno cards (which are very real I looked them up) and Mike was a blue 7 and Will yellow 5 and I just think that’s very interesting. (wasn’t there something like a theory or whatever with the numbers 57 or am I tripping???)

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Gang I just saw a TikTok about how the st fandom sucks or whatever and a top comment was “for how shallow the characters were the shippers sure did go wild and overboard” and then a bunch of people agreeing and saying byler and how much it sucks and how people who ship it are stupid and like?? You can make the argument about whether or not they were actually going to ever consider making byler canon or if it was queerbait or if they deadass didn’t realize they were doing it, but who fucking cares if the fans take a crappy show and make something fun and beautiful out of it?? Like…is that not the point of fanon?? Have we not seen the marauders fandom? You know, a HUGE community with the most liked fic on ao3 ever that’s entire “canon” is fanmade??? Are people not allowed to have fun anymore???

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Chat should I bring back the s5 fic I started then discontinued in like October bc I lost interest and then s5 came out and I decided to write a continuation/conformitygate fix it instead?

Anyway literally be doing anything but writing the next chapter of Don’t Be Scared rn guys I rewatched Agatha all along this weekend it was so peak and now I’m playing hogwarts legacy (obligatory fuck Jkr right here) bc I started it like four years ago and never finished it.

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Happy pride bitches can’t wait to call every minor inconvenience a homophobic hate crime for the next 30 days

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“I wish you could know me, and I wish I could know you much more sometimes.” But it’s about how I’m not out to my parents bc I know they won’t like it 🫩