This is where I hide

just beneath the surface

[starlightxraven]

[wetheurban]

The bravest thing you can do is loosen your grip on how it was "supposed" to happen and open your heart to what still can.

[wetheurban]

You are easy to love and anyone would be lucky to experience your heart.

[justbeneath-thesurface2]

I am stuck AF. So overwhelmed. Done looking for meaning. At least for now. I hope it's not always this way. Life isn't very fair.

I have to figure out a way to get to the Mayo Clinic. Soon.

I had an endoscopy last week. Trouble swallowing, choking, hoarse voice. A week prior I choked on food. I was downstairs by myself and my airway was completely blocked. I told myself I could either stand here and die or I can get help upstairs. By some miracle, I did make it up the stairs and started beating on the refrigerator door. My daughter came running out and hit me on the back until the food came up. It was the most terrifying event in both of our lives.

Anyway, the gastro thinks it's an oropharyngeal dysphagia. From what??? Who knows. I get to have MORE testing and treatments. And hope it's not neurological.

I am weary of being sick.

[achillesinhighheels]

Do you think protein wants to be in all these things ?

[justbeneath-thesurface2]

Good fucking question.

[ivyandbranch]

Get a Library Card even if you never use it

[nobeerreviews]

Do not let free access to information slip away

[ghostofmads]

oh a lil cellulite? some stretch marks, birthmarks, freckles or scars? fuck you, that’s called seasoning 😚👌

[justbeneath-thesurface2]

Because I'm totally going to trust RFK and Drumph on childhood vaccine policy. *hard eye roll*

[justbeneath-thesurface2]

I have poison ivy or something right now. IDK....In 54 years I have never had it and I'm wondering if I have it now because of my broken immune system. I'm also having a psoriasis outbreak and THAT has been in remission for probably 10 years. I wonder if my body (more specifically my skin) is trying to tell me something.

[iamwizzzzz]

[raudur]

[averagefairy]

I still love this website so much because it feels like the last connection we have to an internet that doesn’t exist anymore like I can come on here and scroll through posts that are literally just funny or beautiful or interesting with no intention to sell me something or influence me we are all just here for a laugh. Nothing is just for laughs anymore EXCEPT tumblr dot com

[sugarforsalt]

Sure enough.

[thememedaddy]

[mia-down-under]

[phillytransfemme]

The mass surveillance of private and public spaces needs to be stopped. Cover the camera in your appliance, cut the cord to Big Brother.

[wetheurban]

Don’t overlook yourself. Don't downplay your effort. You’ve been trying. You’ve been showing up. That matters.

[justbeneath-thesurface2]

A few of my favorite things because I am too tired to write.

[justbeneath-thesurface2]

Hello, friends!

I've been putting off posting because really....I am afraid of breaking wide open. Life has been hard, especially since my sister was sick. Thank God at least she recovered.

And let me tell you. I've told you this before. Psoriatic arthritis is a brutally painful disease. Absolutely relentless. If you ever meet or you know someone with psoriatic disease, believe them when they tell you this and do whatever you can for them.

I'm also breaking out with psoriasis and I haven't had any of that for at least 10 years. All of those little red dots are going to turn into larger plaques. *sigh*

And now I have lung involvement and a whole host of other issues making me a very unwell human being.

Things have not gotten better with my mom. She is a hateful, angry, desperately unhappy person. She's got to be. I can't imagine how someone could treat her own children so horribly. And she claims to be a Christian. My ass.

Anyway, I'm still around and kicking. I've mostly been hanging out on Instagram. It's been a quick and easy way to stay in touch with the world and not be bombarded as much with all the ugly realities.

I have missed you, though!! 🥰