Just Egg Thoughts

A catalogue of thoughts by trans people from back in the closet. Submissions from trans people anywhere on the gender spectrum are welcome! Also just a warning this blog mentions a LOT of internalized transphobia.

[hawaiian-punch-glam]

Bowsette’s probably giving a lot of trans girl eggs funny feelings, huh?

[zeldaoflegend-deactivated201804]

reblog this and tag which dad from dream daddy you would romance

[starlingsongs-deactivated201608]

When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

[starlingsongs-deactivated201608]

I know this is a really heavy post but if you read it and you appreciated it, I’d appreciate it in return if you reblogged it. This is really important to me and I want people to read it and understand it. Thank you.

[dreamofhircine]

The first step to realizing you’re a trans girl is to realize you’re more comfortable playing as a girl character model in a game but not knowing why

[angremlin-deactivated20250312]

This is literally true. If you’ve opened character creation, looked at the default guy and been like “that’s not me”, then changed to a girl and went “huh, that’s better…” congrats you’re probably trans

[bitchstew-deactivated20240821]

Transwomen going through life coming to terms with their identity see absolutely fucking everything that you men do, and we are fucking disgusted.

[livlove54]

I’ve thought about this so often

[spiroandthelacktones]

Some of my earliest gender issues was being so disgusted at how boys and men talk about women when they’re not around, like for real, when there’s no women in the room, y'all have no idea how fast guys turn

[adhighdefinition]

adhd depression™ is feeling down most of the time unless u r doing something highly stimulating and relevant to your interests in which case LIFE IS GREAT! DEPRESSED??? ME?! but then your brain goes back to that blank state and 

[bigendering]

Fun dysphoria fact

It’s pretty common for people to feel an increase in dysphoria after realizing they’re trans. Once you realize who you are and what you want, it becomes harder to deal with obstacles to that being recognized/realized.

[kiriamaya]

You know, sometimes it strikes me that transition is really, really cool.

[unnomjuste-blog]

see-reverse-side:

kiriamaya:

‘Cause like. I was told growing up that nature had stuck me with this body and with testosterone and there was nothing I could do about it. But I am doing something about it! And my hormonal composition feels right, and my body becomes more and more right every day, and it’s just… so cool :D

Damn Alyssa! This is great. I was having a bad day this morning, but this is something important to remember, especially when I feel like I’ll never fit in and feel “normal”.

It is a wonderful point of view. I’ll have to keep it in mind in those darker moments. :)

[transensation]

I came across this again recently. I really have to print this and keep it close to me.

[kiriamaya]

Me too, honestly!

[annunakitty]

It’s hella empowering, and I think that’s what scares people tbh

[justeggthoughts]

“Hmm maybe I’ll look to see what the results of a sex change operation looks like” *30 seconds of googling later* *2/3 of images are bloody and mid-op* “OH GOD NO NEVER NEVER NEVER WHY WOULD ANYONE WANT THAT??? 🤢🤢🤢”

[justeggthoughts]

"Well I'll never have a REAL [genitals of choice] so might as well keep what I have and all that entails 😕"

[justeggthoughts]

"Hmm maybe I'll look to see what the results of a sex change operation looks like" *30 seconds of googling later* *2/3 of images are bloody and mid-op* "OH GOD NO NEVER NEVER NEVER WHY WOULD ANYONE WANT THAT??? 🤢🤢🤢"

[cermetk]

Have you ever crossed something off your bucket list without knowing it was on there?  Sooooo… today my boobs started lactating

[cermetk]

Update: squeezing them is kind of fun and gross at the same time…

[justeggthoughts]

Is it clear and salty? Mine did that at first too; that will stop after like a few weeks. Don't do it too much because I did and eventually squirted blood 😨

[hawaiian-punch-glam]

Dealing with dysphoria and bigotry like

[justeggthoughts]

“I can’t express any femininity but at least I can dress like a butch lesbian and wear lots of plaid”

—K during her "plaid phase"

[justeggthoughts]

*sits with knees together* "Why does this feel...'right'?"

[justeggthoughts]

Thoughts of yore

"Why are you wearing your shirt like that?" (Sleeve over one shoulder) "Oh I just like it ... I have no idea why" (Puts sleeve on normally)

[justeggthoughts]

“I’m think I'm just trying to run away from the fact that I’m a failure as a man.”

[justeggthoughts]

"I want a career and a family! I'll just wait to transition until I have those things."