𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒏

seize the day!

[justeveren]

no i didn’t handle it, i survived it. bleeding, weeping, whaling. it almost killed me, but i was still breathing after all.

[justeveren]

this trend of people making their pictures studio ghibli art style using AI is so dehumanising and so disrespectful, imagine spending years of your life specialising and art style and pouring your heart into it and watch AI easily steal it and people say it’s just a fun little trend for the average?😆

“you’re overreacting” It’s not overreacting to care about the integrity of human creativity!!!!! AI-generated art is built on the work of real artists without consent, and it devalues the effort and skill that goes into making art. If you don’t see why that’s a problem, maybe you’ve never had something you love get undermined by automation.

[justeveren]

kitchen by 2pm, footsteps and eyes on everything. trying to make the perfect meal. while fasting and not having anything in my mouth for almost 24 hours. doing the best i can. making a desert and a side dish. all alone. and all you cared about was having everything in place after i finished. not a single appreciation word. i’m sorry mom if none of what i’ve made was enough, i’ve tried. i really did. i hope you enjoyed the meal.

[justeveren]

“Fable of truth”

i can’t be who they want me to

and i can’t let go of the person i want to be

i’m dreaming of a home, with a calming view

of a life where i’m not scared to be me

putting a show for everyone

to see i’m sacred

to see i’m pure and undone

hallucinations and nightmares

of not becoming able

when all i wanted is

for my dreams to not be a fable

to eat an orange cake

and drink my tea in serenity

to forget all the heartache

and to embrace my truth for eternity

yearning for the life i deserve

for them to stop throwing stones

years will pass by as i observe

waiting till i rot in the soils of my bones.

[justeveren]

“mother’s daughter”

She reaches with hands

you once taught how to hold,

but yours stay so distant,

so vacant, so cold.

She gathers the love

that you left on the floor,

pieces of childhood

she wanted for more.

Yet no matter how much

she tries to stay near,

you love from a distance

too far to hear.

a daughter who waits,

though you still forget her.

she’ll be the best you ever had

if you let her.

[justeveren]

future is terrifying to think about, having it all on your own, what if you didn’t get the job you’ve always dreamed of? what if i can’t make it to this place? what if the hardships are too hard to face? it’s a dark scary journey that you have no clue about or how to get there. any minor choice can make a lot of changes in your upcoming life. what if one little thing makes it all doesn’t work?

but have you considered, what if it does?

[justeveren]

you can’t heal in the same place that made you sick, you can’t keep asking for medicine that’s filled with poison.

leave.

[justeveren]

who am i without nostalgia and melancholy?

[justeveren]

“what a privilege it is to live and capture.” i said looking at the sky after taking a picture

“what a privilege it is to have you.” he said looking at me

[justeveren]

a place where i belong

somewhere where i feel steady

a place where love is strong

to be held with divine

with no need to roam

a place i call mine

a place i call my home .

[weltenwellen]

Natalie Díaz, from "American Arithmetic", Postcolonial Love Poem

[metamorphesque]

― Margaret Atwood, You are Happy

[justeveren]

to endure and still be kind

[justeveren]

if it’s meant to be then it will be

for where the river must go

and when the birds shall be free

the leaves may fall

the seasons change

what’s out of reach

will rearrange

no matter how much your heart

may catch fire

if it’s meant to be

it won’t need justifier.

so let the waves go higher

let your mind see

therefore you won’t desire

to change what’s meant to be.

[justeveren]

how can i ever endure the fact that my best will always be someone’s average

[anamariaslibrary]

Amy March's Monologue

"Well. I'm not a poet, I'm a woman. And as a woman, I have no way to make money, not enough to earn a living and support my family. And even if I had my own money, which I don't, it would belong to my husband the minute we were married. if we had children they would belong to him, not me. they would be his property. So don't sit there and tell me that marriage isn't an economic proposition because it is. It may not be for you, but it most certainly is for me"

— Amy March, Little Women (2019)

[justeveren]

there’s not an ounce in my body that ever felt belonged here. i was born to leave.