Howl Pendragon

A side blog bc I need to scream abt how perfect Yuri!!! On Ice and Howl’s Moving Castle is. Occasionally 18+ and may post triggering content so block “#kihyun rants” if you don’t want to see Find my writings at Howlsmovingiceskateson ao3!! Main tumblr is @howlnikiforov and my rp blog is @viktor-katsuki-nikiforov

[acrinyx]

Obligatory badge :D

It's actually so crazy to see this historic moment in ao3 history and that she's no longer in beta like wdym ao3 is now a fully fledged site now I feel old

[finnslay]

opening tumblr in march and it's just like "huh. knife weather we're having."

[changgkyun]

SHOWNU IN 'DO WHAT I WANT' M/V.

[eeunwoo]

kpop songs turning 10 years old in 2025 — bg edition !

[mingisnova]

is this not insane why is no one talking about this

[master-tonberry]

@kpopcreators jan&feb bingo ╚ favorite choreo

Monsta X ★ Do What I Want

[theleeminhyuk]

I love my family

[showkis]

monsta x's first time with fake nails 💅

[aintgonnatellyouwhy]

Wonho (원호)

[dailykyun]

[260219] Kihyun 🫧 Update

[justhereforthe-animals]

In light of the Winter Olympics happening, I decided I'd finally find the password to this account again lol. Just to reminisce on my time with Yuri On Ice and all the stories I found and made with them. In doing so too, I realized it's time to delete a lot of things. Coming back to this Tumblr made me realize how much it all weighed on me. For the longest time I dreaded logging on here, and so I avoided it. Even tried creating a whole separate new account, but found that even then, that dread and anxiety continued to fill me.

I guess I write this post as a final way of saying good bye, and to hopefully move on. There were good and bad times, and I hate that the bad outweighed the good. I'm still undecided if I will really start to come back to this place. I can create a new space while saying goodbye to the old and finding the new again. Then again, I might just say goodbye forever to this site. If only because this place is where I hit rock bottom.

I am sad to see some of my memories go. Unfortunately I did have to say goodbye to them so that I could get rid of the ones I don't want to keep. For that, I'm glad one of my friends made me help transfer all of our messages onto another platform. I am also terribly embarrassed because while I was going through things, I accidentally sent a random character to someone who I absolutely did not want to interact with. I guess that's what I get for originally doing it on my phone and not on my laptop.

Anyways

Writing this, I realize I feel like I can return to this place. I want to. I think of all the things I've done on here every so often, from friendships to fan fiction I've written and posted on here, and feel nostalgic. There are so many terrible things in life, and I'd like to start enjoying the things I want to.

It's why I'm going back to school, and why I'm going to study abroad. It's time for me to stop letting anxiety take hold of me and control what I do or don't do with my life.

Maybe this is a post I'm writing for my therapist lol. She's starting her own practice but won't be ready to accept clients for another couple months or so. She always did say writing would be good for me to do. Maybe that's what I'll do. I'll turn this page to a rambling of things so I can document what I'll need to catch my therapist up on. Typing would be better than actually writing anyways

[quadsuki]

if you've been here since december 2016 waiting for new yuri on ice you may be entitled to financial compensation

[dq9]

what an unceremonious end... i wish we had gotten any sort of closure. for such a well known and loved show, it sucks to see it get shelved like this

[ok-dingo]

I worked very hard on this

[ok-dingo]

hey uh what exactly is possessing you people to reblog a nearly 10 year old shrek meme that I made in high school

[neshatriumphs]

Your hard work isn’t going unnoticed

[seikishiyuuki]

[anxietyproblem]

[beggars-opera]

The millennial litmus test for sexuality was 100% Pirates of the Caribbean. I was 13 when the first movie came out. Literally everyone walked into that movie having been lured there by the attractiveness of Orlando Bloom in LOTR. The truly straight girls had been drawn in by his entry-level attractiveness and walked out lusting over the significantly older and manlier Jack Sparrow. The others had been unconsciously drawn in by Legolas's femininity and walked out with their eyes opened and lusting over Keira Knightley.

[beggars-opera]

Important missed categories that have been pointed out to me:

People who were mature/bisexual enough to be into Norrington from the start

Bisexuals who wanted to be part of a main character quadrouple

People who found nontraditional love in side characters/Barbossa

People who caught gender envy from Captain Jack

Asexuals who just really like ships, like actual boats ok

Not yet mentioned:

People whose sexuality and/or very specific fetishes was not fully awakened until Davy Jones came on the scene

[beggars-opera]

Ok a lot of you have been pointing out that Jack Sparrow is not what we would generally call manly, what with the flailing and the quips and the guyliner and such, but I do not know how to explain to you what it does to a tween to have the pretty boy point a sword at the goofball and for the goofball to suddenly get deadly serious and say “put it down, son” and that goofball is also pre-fall-from-grace Johnny Depp