I won't die alone and unknown

she/it • please no conflicts in my blog • exist plurally

[justletmemakeapage]

Introducing!

WARNING: my English is awful and practicing it is one of the reasons why I registered. Sorry :_. Please don't criticize me for this or anything else.

Hi. I am Bridgett/Bridge(or Vess for headmates), she/it, 16 y.o(25.05), UTC+7. Host of system, in front 90% of the time. I registered because I liked plural community here. This is my personal blog, but it is possible if others will write here. I will post my thoughts, about plurality or not, and resources like userboxes. Requests are open

DNI (thin ice)

Anti endos(!), any radical opinion, support any discrimination, very religious. You still can interact and use my works(if they exist), but if you want to conflict, it would be more comfortable for all of us if you leave now.

I need TW on religion and caffeine. I also can get triggered by better artists than me. And I don't want to talk about politics.

About system

Name - Sick Fantasy, no collective pronounse but statistically more she/her. Paragenic, neurotraumagenic, sepagenic, misaconscious, co-con flux. I DIDN'T CHOOSE TO BE PLURAL. Languages - russian(native), ±English, learning Japanese. Simply plural work in progress

5 headmates front regularly, somehow appear about 15, I won’t headcount all. I mostly use “we” to the entire system, but not always. I can call headmates headmates, alters, characters, or just fools and assholes. I am in an in-system relationship. We are only trying to self-accept

About me

INFP, 4w5 so946, melancholic, chaotic good, sociophobic extravert. Neutralship. Pro- to many things if it's doesn't involve harming and conflicts. I have chronic depression, get therapy, promote support and research for MADD, was practically diagnosed with ADHD as a child. Omni, demiromantic, bellussexual, gendercura, genderfloret, ambiamorous.

I live to create an animated series based on daydreaming, and the alters came from it. I'm a member in many fandoms. Very many. I can't list them, but these are mainly popular or completely unknown games and cartoons. Now I have hyperfix on genshin and "jellyfish can't swim in the night". Listen any music, genre and language don't matter.

Blurred kinnlist(I have problems with self-awareness, sorry): Mahiru [Jellyfish...], Kanade and Ena [PJSekai], Mr Jewel Box [THHK songs], Ame [NSO], Pomni and Gangle [TADC], Moxxie and Fizz [HB(yes...)]; Noelle, Fischl, Chiori, Kachina and Citlali [Genshin]; Huohuo and Firefly [HSR]; Fluttershy, Scootaloo and Luna [MLP]; Corin, Seth and Caesar [ZZZ]; Horuda [Yansim], Abby [FNAF movie], Sybilla [Spyroom], Fuuko [UDUL], Darwin [TAWOG], Jack [Beastars](I haven’t read it yet, but my friend says so)

And a lot of songs, but I won't put them all here :_. Ok, take this (twcw, in short listen carefully) ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♪ ☆ ☆ ☆

Some about headmates...

🧿 Wallery/Var/Валера/ワレル (he/don't care) - co-host, janusian, psychodemon, japanese, queerphob, aggressive beast but protects me. 7000+ y.o(11.10). Associations - red, green, hallucinations, betrayal; Tail from HSR, Princess from THHK songs, two-faced chaotic villains(Bill Cipher, Discord, Alastor, Kinito, Yellow's Flowey ect) and song あきらめよう by tsumikusa.

🎆 NNico (it/its > neo) - socializor, procomship, radqueer, radincluse, cute overtolerant ect but really cool person, puts its own comfort high, but someone else’s even higher. In dreams plays the role of a butler(?). 17 y.o. Associations - purple, night, internet; KAngel from NSO, Charlie from HH and Hai Yorokonde by Kocchi No Kento

🌫️ Exy/S.A. (he/him) - protector, anxiety holder, poor boy who always screams and catches panic attacks if something doesn’t happen according to his plan :_. 14 y.o. Associations - scary derealization pictures, investigation board from movies, anchan; Tweek from South Park, I haven't watched yet but maybe Anxiety from Inside Out

🍫 Choco(-retta Firsot) (she/her) - little, innocence holder, silly childish child who loves the whole world. Don't hurt her, others defend her. 8 y.o. Represents inspiration. Associations - sweets, sun, plushies, bright accessories; Olya from Tiny Bunny, Hook from HSR, a lot of cartoon songs

These were the main ones, now let’s quickly talk about the rest important

🎧 Kari (she/any) - Choco's babysitter and janusmate, music holder, chill teenager(13 y.o.) who doesn't care about anything. Kinns Ellen from ZZZ

🔏 Marya/Meirine Firsot (she/her) - gate keeper, order keeper, Choco's sister, strict, rude, constantly watches everyone and is tired of it.

🩸 Director (she/her, на Вы on russian--) - berserk, inadequate theater owner, performs gore on stage, if she will front, we will be imprisoned. Signature song

❤️‍🔥 Javello (she/he) - arsonist, cartoon's main antihero who wants save(???) the world, in system we have crazy pyromaniac, but good companion. Choco's evolution lol, 16 y.o. Signature Songs

🕳️ Aice (he/him) - shock absorber, owner of cats collection, blind aggressive guy who will swear on you

👄 Okufano (she/her) - oikeian, hypersexual mommy who will flirt with you

💡 Uni (she/her) - antidepressant, comforter, my girlfriend, romantic, humanization of aristocratic floor lamp, speaks pre-revolutionary russian--. Signature Songs

Well, i think, that's all. I’ll add more later x). I always have trouble with goodbyes, so I'll just give you this and go, ok?

Pfp made in this maker. I use dividers by @cafekitsune, @saradika-graphics and @thecutestgrotto. IT'S VERY CRINGE FOR ME TO POST THIS, PLEASE SORRY THOSE WHO HAVE READ.

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I am writing through a translatior. Twcw vent?

I should have done this like a sidblog. I feel like I have no right to like, comment and write something I'd want to, because I have a system shit in the profile of a half-year ago. We are still a system, yes, but again I am in an long(really long) frontstuck and this topic fucked me up. Urgh

[zetathedraconequus]

Ever just see somebody talking to themselves in public?

Wonder what's going on in there?

Mumbling? Tics? Reciting lines? Thinking of a memory?

Or on the other side.

Talking to headmates? Alters? Imaginary friends?

You'll never know.

I like to call this phenomenon

Schrödinger's Chat

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I often in madd while walking, and singing along with my headphones or just whispering the dialogues. I'm sure everyone passing by thinks I'm crazy

[we-the-vessel-deactivated202411]

HEADSPACE ASK GAME❔

A for fun ask game meant to hopefully help you visual your headspace more and to also just get to know what other's own look like

🧠 - What's the setting of your headspace?

⛰️ - Are there any plants there? If so, what are they like?

🌍 -Is your headspace based on an existing location? Fictional or otherwise?

💭 - Where do your headmates sleep in headspace?

🎭- is there anyplace for headmates to have fun?

🚪- is there a way to "fast travel" around headspace?

🐣 - Do your headmates have their own personal spaces?

❤️ - Favorite part of headspace

🤕 - Scariest part of headapace

🌈 - How colorful is your headspace?

👍 - do all of your headmates like the headspace?

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(I have no desire to make this post beautiful, but)

The second "ask - don't ask, I'll answer anyway" game that I'll do someday--

[justletmemakeapage]

Sepagenic coining!

Origin term for systems or headmates which were formed due to separation and transfer of conditions to others. Transfer conditions, not responsibility for actions, it's different!

For example:

I'm being sadistic. This is not typical for me. My brain identifies these feelings as foreign and creates a headmate who holds them.

I feel bad. I don't want to endure pain. My brain forms an absorber.

I'm inspired. I want to be able to evoke this feeling whenever I need. My maladaptive brain creates a character that personifies inspiration, which over time turns into a headmate.

These are just examples from my experience. I can't imagine what like similar situations might exist in other systems. I would be glad if you share yours. I decided to try introducing a new term because it perfectly describes our experience.

[ID(first time writing this, sorry): Flag of six stripes of equal width. Colors from bottom to top - turquoise, dark purple, light purple, white, light yellow, pinkish red]

Colors meaning:

Turquoise - endogenic and traumagenic. I think such situations can happen in both cases.

Dark purple - hard things, that you want to get away from.

Light purple - good things, which can also be separated.

White - just a connecting color

Yellow - foreignness, extraness of states and moods.

Pinkish red - love and acceptance

Alternative variations:

[ID: Same flag, but with logo in the center. The logo features a minimalist yellow smiling face, a green sad face, a red neutral face and a purple magnifying glass, all icons form a square.]. Icon from here.

[ID: Almost the same flag, but brighter. Pinkish red one became bright red, turquoise one became dark green.]

Use rules:

Don't pretend to be the author

Credit is not required, but is encouraged. Provide a link to this post

If there is already a similar one, consider this one as an alternative or clarification.

You can redesign or make an alternative, but in this case credit is required.

There are no DNI if the term itself suits you.

I support(am) endo systems, but anti-endos can also use this term if they want.

This is my first coin, so forgive me if I did something wrong _:). And I still don’t feel very well, but I’ll try to revive.

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I love our interactions with Var--

(The screenshots have been translated, as shitty as everything else)

I'm still at the bottom, but I have to show you this.

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Sorry, the last few days have been bad so I haven't posted. I hope I'll be alive tomorrow

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Let's goooo.

As I wrote, paragenic. Plus I can mention charagenic and maybe traumaendo(I'm not sure)

I already said that too. I can't count them, but somewhere around 15-30

Introjects appear only in the strongest hyperfixations on fandoms and disappear soon after its end. Now there are none at all :_

What does control mean? Availability? Almost maximum. Impact on its? Almost zero

I think that's enough for today x)

[blooming-skeleton]

so… I don’t know how to start this thing or whatever.

5 notes: I’ll drink some water

15 notes: I’ll remember to eat breakfast tomorrow

25 notes: I’ll work on sleeping better

50 notes: I’ll clean my room

100 notes: I’ll do some animating

250 notes: I’ll tell my mom about my health concerns

500: I’ll ask my mom to let me have glasses

1000 notes: I’ll come out to my mom as bigender

the reason my dad isn’t mentioned is because he’s an asshole

2000 notes: I will draw something for the first five people to put suggestions in my ask box

3000 notes: I’ll finish my OC design

4000 notes: I’ll make an Undertale AU

5000 notes: I’ll start writing irl instead of on Quotev

6000 notes: I’ll stop making myself bleed just to drink it (I’m serious)

7000 notes: I’ll make a dnd campaign

10000 notes: I’ll start taking art requests

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Long system ask game!

Because it's been ages since we made one and we felt like it.

What type of system are you?

How many people are there in your system?

Do you have more introjects or non-introjects?

How much control do you have over your headspace (if you have one)?

Do you have any subsystems?

Do you have any in-system couples?

How did you discover your systemhood? Or did you become one on purpose?

How do you feel about system roles, and do you use them?

What are your thoughts on Pluralpedia?

Do you use anything to keep track of switching?

Have you ever had a change in hosts?

Do you have a system name? How did you pick it?

Do you have any nonhuman members? Feel free to list their species!

Do you have any headspace pets?

Current fronter/fronters, share some random info about you!

Do you have a partner system? How did you meet?

Have you ever mistaken a character of yours for a headmate? What about the other way around?

Does anyone have any skills that the others don't?

What's something y'all tend to agree on?

What about something you tend to disagree on?

Do symptoms of neurodivergencies/mental illness tend to manifest the same way or differently among headmates?

Do you have any syskids?

Share an in-system joke!

Has how you view your plurality changed?

If you have fictives, do they participate in their source fandom? If yes, are they open about who they are in fandom spaces?

How do you handle headmates having different spiritual beliefs?

How do you decide on major life decisions (where to live, what to study, what work to have, etc)?

Do you have any system traditons?

Current fronter, do you have your own playlist? Feel free to share it!

Do you have any art of anyone in the system? Feel free to show it off!

How do you handle it when people in the system don't get along?

Current fronter, is there anything that makes it obvious you're the one fronting? (Voice, accent, body language, typing style, etc)

If you have syskids, how do they feel about stereotypical "babby tawk"?

Share something about your newest member!

Do you tend to have collective or separate interests and hobbies?

If you have introjects, what source do you have the most from?

Are you out as plural to anyone irl?

Do you know any systems irl?

Which headmate was the biggest surprise?

Do you have a singletsona?

Do you have any collective labels?

What's the most common gender in your system?

What's the most common sexuality in your system?

What's your favorite app/website/etc for plural stuff?

Do you tend to have the same taste in food or not?

Is it hard or easy for you to switch?

Do you experience system-related amnesia?

Share something weird a headmate has done!

Current fronter, what's your favorite ice cream flavor?

Share a silly fear someone in the system has!

Current fronter, describe your aesthetic!

If you have outworld pets, do they tend to act differently around different headmates?

Has anyone ever figured out you were a system without you telling them?

When it comes to syskids, is there anyone in particular that takes care of them?

Does anyone in the system identify as otherkin, therian, or fictionkin?

Have you ever switched in an awkward moment? What happened?

Do you ever switch without realizing it?

Are you ever blurry? How do you handle it?

Has anyone ever treated an introject badly because of who their source is?

Current fronter, share a pic of your "face claim!"

[justletmemakeapage]

I love talking about myself and us :D! I will answer few questions a day until they end, starting tomorrow (my time). I won't limit x). Get ready to read this

You can also write me the number, as in regular ask game, if you want to know answer to this specific question or just speed me up :D. But in any case, I will answer everything. You understood me.

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Warning! Some of this system's/collective's [blank] aren't nice userbox. Let me know if I did something wrong and feel free to request if you need :D Icon from here

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Cats userbox! This [blank] has too many cats, this [blank] is a cat person. I did it as a joke on Aice's cats, but something got out of control😵‍💫. They may also be in the mess order, and I won't correct that. Let me know if I did something wrong and feel free to request if you need :D. Icon from here.

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This user is literally too lazy to talk userbox! I made it for Kari, who fronted yesterday and refused to talk x). We also have communication cards for her after this, I can send them too. Let me know if I did something wrong and feel free to request if you need :D

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This system uses terms from daydreaming lore userbox! Let me know if I did something wrong and feel free to request if you need :D

These are with our terms, but get them too.

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This endogenic (didn't) choose to be plural userbox! Once I saw a (now probably deleted) post where this phrase was. It just opened my eyes. I want as many as possible to know it. Let me know if I did something wrong (if these flags are bad to use or something) and feel free to request if you need :D

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あきらめよう userboxes! I made it specially for Var, but maybe it will be useful for somewho. Feel free to request if you need :D

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I was making this banner with DNI(rules?) and got inspired for userboxes. I made about 50. I’ll post them all now. Now you can request, because I have a lot of inspiration, but no ideas x)

I want to warn you that this is my first time doing them and I not satisfied with the result. And, well, my English is still awful.