[justoverwhelmingmidnightthoughts]

i feel like such a failure. like i am not getting anywhere when it comes to finding a job. im so fortunate to be able to live at home with my parents but fuck i feel like such a failure not having a job. i know im rushing things, i finished my masters in july and moved home but fuck it feels scary.

i just want a job. a foot in the door. it feels so hopeless tho.

[darling-little-edgeslut]

When they find out you have a Tumblr and what you use it for so they make you lie in bed next to them while they go through all your dirty posts and likes. Of course, you won’t be allowed to justify or explain yourself so they gag you and tie your hands behind your back. All you can do is lie there completely humiliated as they make sure you can’t see exactly what they’re looking at and say things like “Oh that’s the sort of thing you’re into?” “Fuck you’re such a disgusting little slut” and “Maybe I’ll have to give that one a try later” Every once in a while reaching over with one hand to play with your chest to keep themself entertained with your little muffled moans and gasps.

[justoverwhelmingmidnightthoughts]

you know what sucks?

knowing that you have so much love and care to give to someone but is constantly viewed as only being good enough for a quick shag or some snapchat sexting.

being pretty enough to be seen as someone to have sex with but not enough to have someone random hold the door open for you.

seeing eveyone else get hit on in public but you know that people are only attracted to you online. so you spend the nights out fantasising in your head about things that could be. not fully living in the moment.

lots of caveats to all these thoughts but the feeling of not being enough underpins them all.

it all kinda sucks :(