Bucky ‘What the hell’ Barnes

• Cam's the name, and writing about Marvel's ‘The Winter Solider/White Wolf’, ‘Captain America/Nomad’, and ‘Loki’ is my game • • Will essentially turn into a NSFW/18+ blog. •

[justyouraverage-outcast-blog]

a (depressing) self update

So, I realized in the mist of my terrible year that I haven't once posted anything on here in a while. Whether about me or a story, I haven't posted, and I'd like to apologize for that.

As I've stated, this year as been all kinds of fucked up. Not just in general, but mentally as well. I've over worked myself to the point of exhaustion. And with me overworking myself, I haven't been eating properly or been as open as I have been.

I'm not gonna go into much detail, but this year started of the worst way as possible for me. My grandfather passed and I felt like I lost a small piece of myself. A lot of things— such as a nickname of mine, my love for Marvel, and my love for coloring in adult coloring books—that I have and love that came from him, it's weird now looking at them. And it's made my depression worst and I try to write to distract myself, but its just been getting worse.

Since the beginning of October, I've been trying to do better. I'm focusing on myself a bit more, and I'm not rushing with anything. So, unfortunately, I don't know when the next part of ‘The Forgotten Maximoff’ will be posted or when a one shot will be posted, but please note that it will be soon.

I'm sorry for the inconvenience. And if you read this entire depressing update, I appreciate it.

-cam

[bidi-toche]

[221bshrlocked]

i see you reblogged a post about how readers should reblog more fanfiction instead of writing and honestly, you don't interact enough with anyone so why do you think we'll reblog your shit? not even your mutuals! their doing better because they go out of their way and answer asks. dont even start with the closed requests.

What in tarnation? Where did this even come from? Like, let me enjoy my Friday homeboy god damn. Imma break this down to you and I hope you don’t message again cause I’ll just block you.

1. That post was concerning all readers and writers, not just me. It makes us feel better that what we’re spending a shitton of time on is getting out there. Yes, I know smut is the most reblogged but it’d be nice to see the other fluff and angst. Even leave a comment just so we know we’re doing something right and everyone’s enjoying this so-called shit you’re talking about.

2. That should have nothing to do with interactions. Some people have more time than others. Some have anxiety and feel bad for interacting with others. Some just are not in the mood to interact with others. Some wish they could but they can’t. You don’t know what’s happening with everyone bruh so back the fuck off.

3. I reply to as many as I can and I hate to say this but there are some I don’t get back to simply because they’ve said the same exact thing as someone else before them and I get panicky because I cannot come with another different answer. Sometimes I forget and I feel bad and I scroll down and reply.

4. I love my mutuals and they know I appreciate them because I always REBLOG THEIR FUCKING FICS CAUSE I CARE ABOUT THEM. I DON’T INTERACT WITH THEM ON A REGULAR BASIS BUT THEY KNOW I CARE BECAUSE I COMMENT AND LIKE AND REBLOG.

5. Thank fuck they have time to interact with each other because that’s how friends are made. Like good for them I am cheering them on and I fangirl when I see them pop up on my dash and it’s just cute.

6. Asks are closed because I am behind on them because I thought I can get back to the long series I have but I have 0 fucking motivation. I thought I could get back to them but then shit happened and now all I think about is my dad. You may be a new or old follower or just someone passing by but believe me when I tell you, if you were told your dad only has 9 months left, you’d be fucking depressed. This is my therapy and it helps me when I do it on my time when I’m free and when I just need to forget what’s going on.

In conclusion, kindly fuck off. Please and Thank You. Enjoy your life. And don’t read my ‘shit’ again.

[justyouraverage-outcast-blog]

COULD I BE TAGGED IN THE FORGOTTEN MAXIMOFF I LOVE IT SO MUCH

I will gladly add you to the taglist, doll! I'm trying to have the new part out really soon, so look out for that!

[justyouraverage-outcast-blog]

Could I please be tagged in the forgotten maximoff?!? It was really good!

Of course you can be! The next part should - hopefully - be up in less than a week, so look out for the notification!

[justyouraverage-outcast-blog]

Can i please be tagged in everything. You are so amazing

Thank you for the support! Of course you can be!

[justyouraverage-outcast-blog]

hey, would you look at that. im not dead.

sorry about the lack of posting.

[bidiotka]

the people who asked seb about his shitty outfit and yelled ‘drag him sis’ need to know what the word ‘boundaries’ means

[capwilsons]

tbh i think a lot of seb’s fans need to learn what the word ‘boundaries’ means

[lovelynemesis-deactivated201903]

[this-kitty-has-claws-deactivate]

Girl, unless your ass is sporting the latest fucking Gucci and you don’t own sweatpants, shut your trap and let him wear whatever the hell he wants, like the grown ass man he is.

Triple yup on his fans needing boundaries, if I see one more uncomfortable pic of a fan groping Seb, I’m flying to America and bitch slapping everyone.

@lovelynemesis good post 👌

As an added thought, don’t pretend y'all don’t walk into the grocery store at 2am wearing holey tracksuit pants and that cheeto stained shirt. Hating on people because of something as arbitrary as clothing is why society needs a reboot. This man over here giving us quality content,and some absolute asshole makes him feel bad for CLOTHING.

No.

[denialanderror]

I can’t with this fandom sometimes…

[thevibraniumvoid]

Leave my mans alone

[erisjade-deactivated20180523]

Couldn’t agree more. He’s a grown ass man and ain’t none of these people out here feeding him, fucking him, or financing him but wanna comment on his haircut and clothing choices. But let him do something legitimately problematic (I’m not gonna get into it) and they wanna defend him like they gave birth to him.

Wanna be mad when women are criticized and objectified about their looks and clothing choices but the first to be disgusted by a haircut and a jacket or turtleneck.

Do these people really think they have some control or say so in what he wears or how he does his hair???

Let that man be. Let him be happy. He gets paid to entertain, not get dragged cuz y'all wanna think he’s your personal play thing to do with as you see fit. And if y'all love him so much, defend him in all aspects as much as y'all defend him when he does/says something wild.

😒😒😒😒

[persephone-is-here-omg]

Like, sure, I drag him for his questionable fashion choices on my blog all the time. But I ain’t gonna go into a convention and have the chance to ask him anything and waste it on that.

I get it. It was a terrible, horrible, outfit. I made fun of it. But people need to let it go. That was a week ago. You could have asked him about future projects and decided to drag him for an outfit he wore when he was jetlagged and tired?

[thortunes]

The only Loki death I will accept

3rd act. Wakanda battle. Good guys are losing. 99% of hope is lost.

Loki leaps into frame like Lafayette in “Guns and Ships” from Hamilton. He does a heroic thing that I haven’t made up my mind about but as long as it’s powerful and mischief-y and maybe a little bit sexy but not too much because this is war, I’ll allow it.

The audience cheers and I burst into tears because I’m so proud but also because I’m pre-grieving, which is a thing you do before a sadgasm.

Thanos does what Thanos is gonna do. THOR IS THERE AND HAS FEELINGS ABOUT IT AND WE SEE AND HEAR THOSE FEELINGS BECAUSE THEY BOTH DESERVE THIS, WE ALL DESERVE THIS.

The audience joins me in weeping. We hold each other. We learn something about ourselves. We apply that knowledge to our respective higher callings. The world becomes a better place.

[dawnquafam]

but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear

I have emotions about all the tears and screams we’ve already seen I won’t survive this movie

[starfleetavenger-blog]

incorrect marvel quotes source; bones

[bury-me-in-the-ocean]

Me as I read Infinity War theories on Steve having the soul stone

[avengertonys-moved-deactivated2]

[2ndperiod]

Thanos: So you’re the one smashin my daughter?

Quill:

[luxury-loki]

Infinity War end credit scene...

We’re met with a desperate Tony, surrounded by the utter destruction caused by Thanos, his phone held to his ear by his trembling hand:         “…We need you.”

*(Through the phone) a long sigh, followed by the sound of a television being switched off *

Hawkeye: “HONEY! I’m off to save The Avengers, don’t wait up.”

*Film ends*

[jurassicbarnes-archives]

Steve Dramatic Rogers literally ripped a log of wood with his bare hands. What makes y'all think that he won’t try the same with Thanos???

[luxury-loki]

Infinity War scene...

Tony: Peter!

Quill & Parker: Yes?!

*civil war: part 2*