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I honestly wonder sometimes what someone would say to me if they saw what I've seen. At the age of 23 I've had friends die less than 50 yards from me. I've had friends take their own life. Coping is so difficult because it's not like being sick where it goes away for good. It comes back. I've gotten so good at choking down my own feelings but maybe that's what's really damaging me. One day I'm great and the next day I'm a mental train wreck.
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Truth.
2019 has been rough. From my dog passing away to now my neighbor taking his own life. I donāt know how to feel. Life will move on. Itās unfortunate how people make permanent decisions on temporary issues. We were never that close, we arenāt in the same branch, but we were always on the same team fighting for the greater good. Rest easy CP.Ā
I still believe thereās no such thing as a soulmate. I think there are people who land in amazing situations and people who just fit extremely well together. I look back a few years ago and I wish I could tell myself to keep holding on. How good of a situation it was, but I know one day I will look back and think that I made the right choice.Ā
I hope youāre happy. Thatās what I wanted. I wish we couldāve met later on when I understood more, but sometimes its meant to happen and not meant to be.Ā
*ten minute rant* i aint even mad
Itās fucking crazy how things kind of end. How I put this chapter to an end and start a new one. I literally start a whole new life in 3 months. Starting over again. A new city, a new house, a new section. I could completely change who I am, but who do I want to be this time around? I really have to think of the things I could improve and implement them when I move.
On another note Iām extremely stressed out on all aspects of my life. From work, to relationships, and even my health. It sucks to see my health ever so slowly declining because I canāt figure out my own shit.
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why you so quiet for
Cause these other niggas talk too much
The moment I give any girl a sense of loyalty they just decide to fuck me over. Then I start looking at being a fuckboy as not such a bad idea. It's not because I choose to but it's because I'm tired of being fucking hurt and fucked over. Like I'm so done with this place it's unbelievable. It's like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel but I'm walking so slowly.
Tumblr is so dead, I only get on here when I'm sad. I honestly just want that beautiful ass girl to come into my life that I can't believe that I'm with and then just settle and be happy. It's so much harder than saying it.
Also living two lives is so difficult. It's weird.
Edit: Also I'm calling this now I see redflags in someone's life I really care about but sometimes I feel like they should just learn the hard way and I'll just be there to catch them when they fall.
Got to teach you how to two step and bought you your first legal drink š. Sometimes I think how great we would've been together if I was white, tall, and blonde. Makes me hate being who I am and it's fucking unfortunate. No matter how good I am. How great I become I can never change that aspect of me. It is what it is though. Am I still hurt that's a good question. I'm not hurt but times like this makes me kinda reminisce. When I danced with you life seemed so perfect for a minute. You really don't appreciate the moment until it's gone.
It's so awesome to be able to explain my whole mentality on relationships and be told that I'm really on a whole different level. That it's incredible how far ahead of the game I am in comparison to people who are much older than me.
I basically said it's unfortunate that MC could not understand value I had for her. That I could've at least showed her what a healthy and prosperous relationship could be like. It's an amazing thing that really helps you grow as a person.
I understand toxic relationships are deep down inside more spontaneous and fun because you never know what's gonna happen next. But it's stressful and the older you grow the less fun it becomes when you're trying to settle but you begin to realize that you've been in nothing but bad relationships your whole life.
Damn. I really solved it. She wanted to be with someone she can't have. It was kinda fucked up that I pointed it out right in her face but like it's something you gotta do. The truth hurts but at least someone slammed it on the table. I really hope she thinks about it and I really want nothing but the best for her. She changed my life and now I'm here changing hers.
I guess having good days is important as the bad ones. Surprisingly a Monday has been great. Solved out my relationship life and to be honest I'm enjoying being single. I don't think I've ever laughed so much on a Monday.
It's crazy how life can turn around one day and everything is working itself out. It's crazy how one girl can change your whole life and not be your girlfriend. I was really in love with this girl wanting to give her everything but I realized that love has transformed into a caring love rather a I want to marry you and be with you for the rest of my life type of love.
I hope someday I meet a girl like you that'll blow my standards out of the water but for now you hold the top spot.
