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∙ ∙ ∙ “ you smiled & i became obsessed with how good it looked on you ”
i’ll start it off with how much i look up to you and not because you’re an agent or a tree or a milkshake dispenser— not because of your height either. so maybe i have to literally look up to you because you’re nineteen centimeters taller than me but stop distracting me! you’re not even here and i’m already getting distracted. bad number four, bad, bad. as i was saying, you’re someone i look up to alot. i get so mesmerized by your stage presence each time i watch you perform and i’m moved each time i hear your voice singing to the crowd. it’s so obvious you’re having so much fun doing what you love on stage and it just makes me want to work harder to achieve my dreams too.
going on to a more casual note… oh, you, you, you. four is my favorite person to go to at the end of the day, my blueberry lollipop, my tsunpup, my home. it’s been a while since i’ve done something like this for you but i’m suddenly reminded of how words don’t suffice to describe how much you mean to me— yet i somehow end up rambling and i won’t be surprised if i do it again this time around (i’m going to try not to make it too long though). the past five months have been so wonderful because of you. thank you for bearing through the highs and lows with me and thank you for effortlessly making each and every passing day memorable. you’re the only cure i need after a long day of training and as cliche as this sounds, i can’t imagine my life without you. i want the both of us to be together for as long as we can, until we’re old enough to have that apartment we talked about, until we’re old enough to have more than just plants, until infinity runs out (which is never). in dark times and light times, i’ll be here for you always, to listen to you, to offer you my arms whenever you need to be held— it’s true that i’m needy for every ounce of you and if i sound selfish for you, it’s because i am. sorry not sorry, it’s just what you do to me.
you don’t know how tempted i am to scream out your name on top of my lungs! i’m so in love with you, four. today, tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after that, i’ll always be in love with you. thank you for bringing so much happiness to my life.
