[TRANS]150112 Busan Fansign Fanaccount
Honestly I’m being cautious so I’m not sure where to start but if I don’t say anything, it’s not right for those who coaxed the male (me) who cried at the Busan fansign, so here I am sitting in front of the computer.
Everyone has a dream that they want to accomplish and in thinking about that dream, of course they do the best they can every single day. But when there’s a huge wall called reality in front of your dream, it slowly starts to disappear, becoming smaller, and you give up..
I was like that. After entering high school, I found a dream while studying. I didn’t do well on the college entrance exam so I studied another year and even after getting accepted into college, I went here and there to stack up on experience, studied English, did volunteer work, etc.; it was a busy time. Unfortunately maybe my dream was too big, my friends around would advise me to hurry and give up and to find a job. After seeing me live like this, the friends who had dreamed with me, studied with me, not one of them is left.
Finding VIXX became a huge strength to the me in 2012. There were two of them the same age as me, and as I was watching MyDol, those friends took on the long process as trainees for the sake of their goals, debuted awesomely, and carried out promotions. They became my biggest role models, I gathered courage to write letters, and also got to go to fansigns.
Honestly I didn’t think that celebrities would read their fans’ letters, but on the nth fansign I went to, Leo-gun (he’s the same age as me, from now on I’ll refer to him as Taekwoon) he told me he read my letter and to study hard and do well on my test. Hearing that, that’s how I came to think, “Ah, he’s a really good guy,” and how I came to support him all the way until now. Every time I go to a fansign, Taekwoon always asks me first, ‘Are there any good news, is studying going well, how have you been doing’. Although it’s just a short 30 seconds of a meeting, I was thankful to even just have one friend who thought of me like this and pat me on the back.
In 2013, I took a test for my dream and didn’t achieve good results, but I came to a fansign to tell my friend what happened. I told him truthfully that it didn’t go well and Taekwoonie said, “It’s okay, nothing ever goes well the first time, I was also a trainee for how many years,” and generously gave me advice. It was a really short time, but those words became my driving force to gain strength until now to study and achieve my dream like VIXX, and in my free time I’d go to fansigns and watch them perform..
At the end of 2014 I heard the good news that I had passed. And as soon as I heard that there will be fansigns in Busan and Daejeon, I got to go and tell my friend about the news. As I was on the KTX traveling down from Seoul in the early morning, I thought about the difficulties I had studying over these years, the first time I saw VIXX when they were rookies, when he told me it will all turn out well. The thought that I could finally tell my friend who truly supported me that it all went well, it was hard to control my emotions in the moment before I got my album signed.
If you say you like idols, these days the world thinks you’re pathetic, that you can’t do your work properly and receiving the lowest class of treatment. Above all else, a man liking male idols gets told that they’re crazy so nobody around me knows that I like VIXX, but I wanted to say that one of the reasons I was able to fulfill the dream I dreamed of for 10 years is the existence of a group called VIXX and their short words.
I’m really gathering a lot of courage to write this.. so I would hope that others would not say anything bad in other communities. Thank you to those who told me good things at the Busan fansign when I was crying like a child. Happy New Year to those who are reading this post!
Lastly, for the encouragment VIXX gave me when PS’s were allowed at fansigns, I think it will encourage all fans the same, and become a huge strength for you to fulfill your dream so I am uploading it here.
I’m lacking in expressing “fighting” for VIXX but I support you more than anyone, always. Thank you.
