It’s okay if you want to grieve that your body and/or mind aren’t functioning the way you want them to. It’s okay to take time to grieve that. You don’t always have to be positive.
But please remember that your value and worth never decrease, no matter what you cannot do because of your illness, condition or disability.
Nothing slapped my shit back into place like someone pointing out that the "genius gifted child with so much potential who got burnout and mental illness" is just the nerd equivalent to the jock "could have been a pro at sportsball if it wasn't for the injury".
it was during the pandemic that i learned that i wanted a soft love, a love that's calm and quiet like jude. after breaking up for almost a year, i still haven't come to terms with the fact that our love was the kind of love i still need and search for.
after dating many guys, no one has ever compared to what he and i had. it was quiet but powerful. i miss my happy, bubbly self. i miss being taken care of, and taking care of someone. i miss hearing his stories. but i know he deserves to be happy and to be at peace. and i just hope that i will find the same soon.
💌 Lately, getting out of bed has been... a mission-impossible kind of deal (˘・_・˘). So when I saw Chu’s cute, Ghibli-themed challenge, I thought it’d be the perfect way to cheer myself up and get back into the groove of things! Plus, Chu’s tracker fits my current goals, so it’s like a win-win! 🍃
This time, I’m focusing on the gain, not the gap :)) I might not post every single day, but I will do my best to finish all 100 days! I’ll embrace both my energizer bunny mood and my slow-and-steady tortoise vibe! 🐇🐢✨
Questions I want to answer at the end of the challenge: 🍃
Have I developed sustainable, energy-boosting daily routines?
Did I manage my thoughts and emotions well most of the time?
Was I able to let my days flow no matter the challenges and setbacks I faced?
Have I found some nice and joyful things to do to substitute my bad habits?
How was my progress toward my “main goal”? Am I on the right track?
What will be tracked in this challenge (with slight tweaks from the original):
🧹: did I do household chores or clean my house today? (inspired by our #1 cleaning lady Sophie from Howl’s Moving Castle)
🌳: did I have any mindful moments or meaningful spiritual activities today? (inspired by Kusakabe family admiring that giant tree at the forest on My Neighbor Totoro)
🍜: did I cook something with love today? (inspired by Lisa’s ramen on Ponyo)
✍🏻: did I write for fun today? (inspired by Shizuku from Whisper of the Heart)
🍵: did I make myself a tea break? (inspired by Zeniba’s tea party on Spirited Away)
🐈⬛: did I work like I would make jiji proud? (obviously inspired by our #1 employee Kiki from Kiki’s Delivery Service)
🏔️: did I have any adventures today? (inspired by Ashitaka’s journey on Princess Mononoke)
📚: did I study today? (inspired by our official lo-fi girl Shizuku from Whisper of the Heart)
🏃🏻♀️: did I work out or run or did yoga? (inspired by Taeko’s work out at her school on Only Yesterday)
🎈: did I play or have fun with reading books, listening to music or watching something at the tv? (inspired by Kaguya playing with her cat on The Tale of Princess Kaguya)
If I don’t update for a bit, it might be because:
1️⃣ My biggest enemy (me) won the day (and I probably locked myself in my room again)
2️⃣ I got so productive that I forgot to post 🙄
3️⃣ Something unexpected came up.
If it’s reason #1, I’ll pick myself back up and post as soon as I can. For reasons #2 or #3, I’ll share a recap post with updates from a few days all at once 😊
Hopefully, we'll have a joyful, productive, and cozy adventure over the next 100 days! 💫
"you do not owe friends instant responses to every social message, and anxiety over not receiving the same is something for the anxious person to work on, not your responsibility to totally change for"
AND
"you have to put some effort into friendships, which can include open communication with your friends about how to make both of you comfortable re: messaging. expecting other people to do ALL of the work ALL of the time, in terms of getting in touch and carrying on the conversation, may make them feel ignored and/or and leave"