🐉 Doragon Heiress 🐉

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[hallowleylines]

It wasn’t hard to hear. What sounded like her choking up on her own words as the barrier holding back her emotions shattered. So she didn’t want him to leave, but she keeps talking the marriage being in void, or telling him to leave. Ahh, kaida’s emotions were fickle. One minute it’s stay, the next minute it’s leave.

  “Just pick one already Kaida. I’m trying to make you happy but it’s getting difficult…”

He let out a slight huff and rolled his eyes. He couldn’t help but let a smile creep along the corner of his lips. How innocently ignorant they were of each others claims and arguments. It had been a muddled thinking and plenty of accusations more than any attempt to sit down and actually understand what the other was saying. Maybe words didn’t actually accomplish much in the end. At least not nearly as much as actions did.

He swiveled  around on his heel in order to face the heiress once more. Step by step he made his way back to her. As he approached Natsu wouldn’t utter a word since she seemed to despise how frail words could be. How they never expressed things exactly the way you wanted them to. Instead, he’d grab the doragons wrist, pulling her into his embrace. Perhaps this should suffice to explain things. He would reach his hand up and slowly let his fingers trail through her hair, murmuring all the while.

  “Quit crying. You act like I’m going somewhere.”

[kaidasama-blog]

‘Pick one already’

If only she could, because, if it was up to her, the choice was obvious, Natsu would stay there, in the land of Demons, in the Doragon village, but not when they fought like that, not when he seemed so ready to leave their marriage because it was one sided, it was loveless, if he couldn’t grow to love her the way she loved him

When he hugged her, though, her eyes went wide, not expecting the embrace at all, and the wall she spent years building, the one that he seemed to crack every damn day with each smile, each laugh, each joke, the countless hours that felt like minutes passing of the two of them together, the meals they shared, their training, endless discussions about dragons; it finally completely crumbled to dust

She was completely vulnerable, but, she was also too tired to care anymore

She brought her own arms up, before fisting blue fingers into the back of his top, clinging as she did exactly what he told her to stop

She cried

“I know you’re not happy... I know you don’t love me... but please... just... just pretend you do..” she all but begged, her eyes squeezing shut tight

[hallowleylines]

She was yelling once more at him. It wasn’t going so hot but he was trying to fix the situation but it just kept shattering beyond his ability to repair it. Maybe it was time to just fold em while he could. Kaida seemed plenty of tired of him now so what was the point in staying?

     “Geez, I get it. I get it. If you want me out of your hair so bad then I’ll just leave. I’ll be somewhere doing something if you need me.”

He wasn’t really going to go back and forth with this again. He had a limit in how long he would stay in a verbal dispute and she made her wishes pretty clear. Usually he would throw a punch in a situation but to just hit her now? It would feel pretty wrong. Maybe a neighboring village or something might pick him up if he traveled long enough? 

Well he started heading out the door once more, only this time he didn’t have the idea of returning. Maybe he’d come back with some time, or just stop to visit without making his presence known. Those worries would be for a later date. For now the slayer would attempt to scale down these mountains the village resided in.

 Well that was a shitty way to lose a friend.

[kaidasama-blog]

Panic, her eyes widened as, once again, he seemed to misunderstand what she was trying to say, taking her words the wrong way, twisting it so it was like she was the one that wanted him gone, and not the other way around like she originally thought

But... doesn’t he..

"W-Wait! That's not what.. I'm not..." Kaida started as he started to leave, feeling a painful gnawing in her chest at the idea of him leaving, of him truly being gone

Even if she told herself she’d let him go, even if she said she would be happy as long as he was happy even if it wasn’t with her, even though she promised herself she wouldn’t hold him back, she couldn’t watch him leave, she couldn’t go back to how things were before they met

Without permission, her eyes began to water, and, no matter how hard she tried to keep it in, the tears rolled down her cheeks once more

I’m selfish...

"Don't leave..!" She pleaded

[hallowleylines]

He was already sick of riding this roller coaster of inner turmoil.  Acting like love was this when it’s actually that. Hell Natsu couldn’t even remember who said what anymore, albeit that information was beyond useless now. Still he had to find a way to approach the current situation at hand which was hard considering he didn’t understand why she wanted to take it back as well.

     “’I’m not… I didn’t… ‘ What’s up with not wanting to admit it? An idiot I maybe but at least I’m honest with myself. If you love someone then you do.”

Honesty was the easiest way to avoid everything. She didn’t have to wear her heart on his shoulders like he did. Just owning up to something was enough. Regardless if she said it inadvertently, trying to take the moment back didn’t exactly make him feel all too great about himself either.

[kaidasama-blog]

“Because“ Kaida started, frowning as her anger boiled over, not liking the feeling of being at a disadvantage, and her slipped confession putting her at just that

“What good would words do anyways? You made it pretty damn obvious how you feel about me, why the hell should I admit anything to you?!” she yelled, flustered

“Dammit, Natsu, I already said I’d void the marriage, so just up and leave already so I can go back to being the way I was before all this mess!”

Emotions were not her strong area, uncontrolled and affecting her judgement, she wanted nothing more than to just forget everything, shove them in a little box, behind a door with a lock and key, away from her so she’d never feel like she did at that very moment

[metal-up-your-ass-bitch]

[wtfzodiacsigns]

[munipulationofthemind]

Suoh gripped onto one of the fingers Sai had in the boys hair. The artist seemed confused at the behavior, but found it very cute. “He is a little heavy, but nothing I can’t handle.”

The artist smiled at the Doragon, “I would be happy to learn more. Although I did read that our roles are different in his life. I’m not sure what the book meant by that. Considering some people can raise a child all on their own and the child would end up fine.”

He allowed what thoughts he had on the subject flow. He wanted her to know of what he thought about parenting and how even though books are almost his bible on how to do anything, he still felt doubtful about the information he received. Books can always be outdated and the information he tends to learn never comes out the same in daily practice. Mainly because every interaction is different and all people are different.

“I would like to know more about your cultures…”

Sai looked at the plate of food that he had brought for them, it was a few pork dumplings he picked up at the market. “Eat one… they’re good.”

[kaidasama-blog]

“He’s only going to get bigger from here on out" Kaida said, “but he should start walking soon, which would be a big relief” she laughed, looking at Suoh who just grabbed at his father’s finger, looking curious and full of wonder, as he often did

“Your role as his father would be just like mine, to protect and teach him, to guide him so he can grow into a great man”

In reality, Kaida had grown up without either parent once her mother had passed, but she was raised by the maids of her homeland, who treated her with kindness, if not a bit too much respect to give a child. She knew she would never neglect Suoh the way her father neglected her, and she also knew Sai wasn’t the kind of man to deny his role as the baby’s father, at least, now she knew, the doubt she had no longer there

At his next comment about her culture, she paused in her thoughts, realizing that Sai only knew the very limited knowledge about her clan that she had shared with him, the legend revolving how they came to be, and that was all. None of their customs, their traditions, their ninjutsu or fighting styles, even their biology, all things she’d have to teach him

“Well, I can tell you anything you want to know, think of me as your own personal book” Kaida commented, before realizing what she said, and smirked as she added  “So, just open me up whenever you’d like~” she teased

Pulling out one of the dumplings then, still smirking, she tested just how soft it was, before ripping off a small piece, leaning towards Suoh, hovering it by his mouth 

“Say ‘Ahh’ Suoh-chan” she said, the baby happily latching onto the treat, chewing it sloppily with the five teeth he had

[musesgonnamuse]

it’s not a 

    competition’

 but I'm 

          winnin’

[munipulationofthemind]

A small chortle came from pale lips as he was unsure of how to respond to her. The artist had never been called beautiful, not by anyone.

“T-Thank you…”

Sai could find himself mesmerized by their happy little child and brushed his fingers through the purple black mix. “He’s very excited.” He pointed out the obvious. “I wonder…did your arms get very tired always having to hold him?” He asked before hearing her serious question about him educating himself.

“I read only part of a book before going to sleep last night…There is still a lot for me to learn.” The artist got some of the major things down. Such as giving the mother a break, changing a diaper, and the basics. However, he hadn’t yet read up on actual physical and mental development and how he should treat or discipline his child. He did know he wanted to be present in the child’s life unlike his own parents…He didn’t even know them.

[kaidasama-blog]

“Well, not really, I’m used to carrying him, though it was a lot easier when he was a new born, he’s gotten pretty chubby” Kaida commented, before letting out a chuckle, and adding “he’s grown a lot since he was born, he weighs more than twice his birth weight right now” 

She wishes she had thought to bring the paintings that were done and hung in the main hall of her home back at her village, just so Sai could see himself what their son looked like a few months ago, but she was glad he was willing to see him grow even more as time progressed, the next few months would mark milestones like his first steps and his first words, things Sai could experience with her

“Well, I guess I’ll have to show you the rest” She said then, smirking and looking at their son

“Any questions you have, I can answer, but the Doragon may have different customs than what you would read in a book, so I guess it depends on who you want to listen to”

[zodiac--signs]

Scorpio: basic info.

[bpdzoro]

サイ | Artist: Oz | Posted with Permission

[hallowleylines]

He wasn’t sure the reaction he was suppose to give for her to stop lashing out. Honestly this was bound to happen with their mishaps. He hadn’t actually thought that deeply into how she could have possibly felt, but Kaida assumed he’d known something he didn’t.

The heiress was lucky she had caught him off guard. If she tried being rational he might have been the one to burst out upon hearing her questions. Natsu was not particularly fond of thinking that girls were in love with him. Not after the incident with Lisanna Biting his tongue  he held his temper back knowing if they both shouted up a storm it would only cause more trouble.

It made him curious though. Is it his ignorance what it actually took to get her to confess such a thing. She had been denying love left and right earlier and now she was putting it out there, even if it might be intentionally. 

     “Hmmmmm…. Well alright then. Now that you’ve got your confession out there…. I think I need a breather…”

[kaidasama-blog]

'Your confession'

Kaida froze, eyes wide as she stared at him, the words having slipped out without her meaning to, revealing more than she planned, more than she ever expected to tell him

Slowly, a blush touched her cheeks, before it over took her face, flushing it bright red

“I’m not... I didn’t...” she couldn’t finish, but still, she tried, grasping at anything to just fix it, take back what was said in a reckless moment

“I just... I mean..” she hunched her head then, bangs covering her face

“You really are an idiot...” she settled for, though the words came out in almost a whisper, fists still clenching and unclenching at her sides

[wtfzodiacsigns]

[hallowleylines]

The argument was quickly refuted back to Natsu. Still her voice shook barely. Well that was a sign of some sort of emotion at least. Though it was weird. He didn’t remember asking for her to confess anything to him. Was this were the whole problem was? He could’ve gladly lived on without hearing it if that was the case.

     “Well there seems to be a misunderstanding but it does clear things up a little bit more. I said you just needed to love. I didn’t say you needed to be in love. Besides, I never said a peep about admitting it either. That was all you there.”

Did she not know the difference between the two? Natsu loved just about everyone of his friends, but he wasn’t in love with them. Granted, it was her father she had lived with over the years so that concept might have been useless to Ryu. He sighed and scratched the back on his neck, deciding that former leader was to blame.

[kaidasama-blog]

“Is that what you meant?” Now, Kaida was confused, beyond so, because it seemed like Natsu had it in his mind that Kaida didn’t feel anything for him, that she didn’t even care about him as a friend, when that was so far from the truth, she hadn’t the slightest how he even got that impression when she treated him so differently than everyone else

He was the only person she truly cared for

“Do you... do you honestly think I don’t care about you? That I don’t... I don’t have feelings for you...?” She asked, before, her anger spiked once again, frustrated, at him, at the situation, at how clueless he seemed to be, to be so blind to what she thought was so obvious, even her own father had picked up on it the second she brought Natsu to meet her clan, everyone in the village seemed to know, but not him 

“You... you idiot!” she all but shouted, fists balling up at her sides, her more hot headed temper showing through

“Jeez, just how blind are you?! Did the women back in your land deal with this too? You probably had tons of women in love with you and you’re too damn clueless to even realize what’s staring you right in the face!”

[kaidasama-blog]

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[norapotwora]

My first attempt in Clip Studio Paint. To be honest it’s mixed work between Clip and Photoshop, but most of work were done in Clip. And I need to say this software is just awesome!

[hausofhaxan-deactivated20170121]

NEED

[hallowleylines]

He scratched the back of his head as he attempted to sort out his thoughts. He was her teacher after all so maybe he could try to give a lesson on that. She pointed out the fact he had mentioned people being something akin to fires which wasn’t all to far off either. Maybe he would work around that topic and hope she understood what he was trying to get across.

     “Well yeah. Everyone is a ‘fire’. They need to taken care of and nurtured because they’ll either consume everything or wither into nothing. This applies to me as well I suppose. I can’t have a wife who refuses to love Kaida. It’s the fact that you weren’t willing to try which led me to those thoughts.”

Hopefully this didn’t end up to confusing for her. He was trying his best to explain, but giving a straight forward answer wasn’t a cake walk either. She had plans to form an alliance with that leaf village right? Well she would at least have to attempt to see eye to eye if they didn’t come to terms on something. This wasn’t any different either.

[kaidasama-blog]

“Why is this so focused on my feelings? Why is it I’m at fault for not saying I love you, but when have you said anything about it to me...?” Kaida asked, her voice faltering slightly, tone losing it’s usual confidence 

“You proposed to me by mistake, we got married without your consent, we only started dating because you had nothing better to do... so why is it that I’m the one that needs to admit feelings when you haven’t given me any proof you actually care about me more than just a friend you live with?”

She hoped she wasn’t giving too much away, that she wasn’t admitting her own insecurities, but still, she couldn’t give him what he wanted, not with the crippling doubt she still had in the back of her mind