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Journey to Self

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Being What Feels Good

Being What Feels Good

Today, in the wake of the moon and her ever-changing face, I’m determined To not be drained Even in the face of the rain Reigning over all the ideas I’ve ever had of being Though it’s freeing, Mystifying Really Really I say so So it’s so Just one more fact, a part of the truth I’m holding on Too To and fro In my own head Heart and Root Lead me to The Throne I’ve built a tomb for…

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Not Every One Is Your Assignment

Maybe just a reminder or a nudge beyond what you know about yourself. If you’ve gotten to this point of these musings, you know what that dark night of the soul feels like. And if you’re really fam, you can recognize it anywhere. That fight for what was and, will stay in the fabrics of the past. Old You and, all the stock it’s carried, pulling and twisting on your good sense- calling you to…

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Let The Wall Hug You

Let The Wall Hug You

I lay last night on the floor looking for some grace on this plane. It was a heavy night, feeling isolated and invisible. A vessel of life, I am. I think. Feelings are fleeting- at least the good ones. All I could do was cry. Reliving it, all I can do is allow the stream of tears to roll down my face. In the middle of the dark night, I grabbed onto my shoulders and held for dear life. I…

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| Alpha

I come from the spirit of two young hearts, new to the concept of life

What all that meant

What it all could mean

  There is no place strange to a soul conceived on the shore

In her first car

Her first time

Their last moment of strange

  Unfamiliar lands inviting them to themselves

Together

For then

Forever

The fire that bore me

From the air

  Signs

Pointing in so many directions

The…

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Affirmation.oxygen

Today,

I honor the breath in my body

Invite in

More OXYGEN

I honor my mind, body and spirit

As

A unit

And the

individual

parts

Within it.

Her

She deserves the world,

better yet,

Earth.

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Affirmation.oneday

I will not be consumed by

my disappointments

I will reinvent myself

As many times

As I see fit

One Day

At a Time

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Affirmation.good

Thoughts travel faster than

the speed of light

I send what sits in my heart

Out

To guide the steps ahead.

True Love

By design.

Think good thoughts 

Think good thoughts

Think good thoughts

Good Thoughts

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Affirmation .be

When I allow myself to be free,

my dreams, and the best of all,

for all,

can live.

When I am free,

my dreams, and the best of all,

for all,

can live.

When I am free,

my dreams, and the best of all,

for all,

live.

And it is in this

Moment

that I

remember

who I am

whom I love

and to truly

Be.

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Kamilian @ Kaffa Crossing

Kamilian @ Kaffa Crossing

This is the beginning of my heart’s memory.

I’ve done what I was charged to do with it and giving it to the world.

This is my thesis, my “why”.

It’s through the love I’ve found and was blessed to know and give that I gathered the vision to trust my heart and share.

The Beginning is the first of a series of issues dedicated to real life events I’ve experienced over the 30 years I’ve roamed this…

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Cover Letter: A Collection

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The following letters give you a glimpse of close to a decade of my life. The good, bad and ugly wrapped up in a delicate delivery  of facts and events like a first-person obituary. All in the name of a cover letter. What goes into one? This isn’t a manual, but a testimony of the life and works of a young, black woman, mother, educator, student(-of -life) and healer in Philadelphia. I’m still deciding if I’ll make a book including the doodles, freewrites and poetry I wrote in between drafts. But for now, here are four of my most recent cover letters. All of which I got callbacks and offers for (I may include letters that got me no responses in the book) and all of which are spaced out with WordPress’s formatting…. just keep scrolling after the first letter… and so forth

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Cover Letter: A Collection 

​I prefer sitting in the park when it’s raining. Watching the trees dance, I Surrender my breath to the river of Whispers between their trunks. They breathe for me and through me. Teach me how to breathe again. 

A break in the clouds gives the signal for the bumblebees to emerge from the low grass of the park. They know the time they have is short. They roam the pastors in tandems, burying…

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Contention

What’s it mean to be alone? 

I said to myself 

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Alpha : This is 16

Your mother has been charged with aiding and abetting Osama Bin Laden.

This is 16… 

I have the power to change whatever is in my hands 1999

I’m becoming an emotional time-bomb. My nurse practitioner diagnosed me with manic depression and suggested I see a psychiatrist for anti-depressants.

This is 12. 

The thoughts of impending death and doom sit at the perimeter of my mind as I try to cover them…

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Alpha : Sweet 16

Your mother has been charged with aiding and abetting Osama Bin Laden.

This is 16… 

I have the power to change whatever is in my hands 1999

I’m becoming an emotional time-bomb. My nurse practitioner diagnosed me with manic depression and suggested I see a psychiatrist for anti-depressants.

This is 12. 

The thoughts of impending death and doom sit at the perimeter of my mind as I try to cover them…

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Alpha 

1987

My mother is weeping in her car. Covered in an oversized flannel and work pants, the warehouse uniform she’s become accustomed to wearing, she’s got her head to her chest to talk to me as I lay in her belly.

She’s working at a packing plant and afraid to lose her job, so she’s hiding her pregnancy. She’s just returned from going AWOL in the previous year to live on the beach in Florida with…

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The Universe had me lose both parents in different ways. I use my last breath of the day to ask my babies what’s up.

Today, I reaped the greatest gift, “Mommy, I love you. Thank you for everything”. Thank You for everything. Momma, still a strong bond even beyond the depths of realms. Papa, though you be an occasional friend, you are a reminder and a reflection. Thank you for being a lesson. Thank…

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