I already hate this..... What is anxiety? Anxiety is an emotion characterized by an unpleasant state of inner turmoil, often accompanied by nervous behavior, such as pacing back and forth, and somatic complaints.It is the unpleasant feelings of dread over anticipated events, such as the feeling of death. Anxiety is not the same as fear, which is a response to a real or perceived immediate threat, whereas anxiety is the expectation of future threat. Anxiety is a feeling of fear, uneasiness, and worry, usually generalized and unfocused as an overreaction to a situation. It is often accompanied by muscular tension, restlessness, fatigue and problems in concentration. Anxiety can be appropriate, but when experienced regularly the individual may suffer from an anxiety disorder. I started having these feelings almost immediately while moving although I had my mother helping me move and she was right there by my side the whole first day and night, I still had this uncontrollable sadness spreading over me. Don't get me wrong, I was super excited about moving out and still am, I am not scared to leave my mom I have always been really a by myself kind of person. But it is almost like this unseen pressure and extreme sadness that I can't control no matter how hard I try. I feel this overwhelming scared feeling, I find myself stressing and over thinking about the fact that I am not in Wisconsin right now and about the fact that even though I am living with my best friends right now and everything's going great I can't find myself happy. I also am feeling pressure with not having a job out here yet, and wanting to just go and do something to work to get my mind off of things and not be left in the apartment with my thoughts. Yet this city scares me..... I don't know what about it scares me its smaller than my home town. Maybe it's the fact that I don't know anything about where I am or how to get around here. Anxiety is a very serious thing for me, I want nothing more than to be excited right now but all I can think about is how scared and sad I feel. How alone and unfamiliar everything is. Scared that I just moved to a new state 3 hours from home to a town my friends have already been living and going to school in for a year. Scared because I know nothing about the "real" college life, and frankly I really don't want to. I can already tell this will be a reoccurring feeling but the real question is for how long? To anyone reading understand this. Anxiety is a serious problem, no matter what anyone says I understand you. It's not something you can just turn off, it's not something you can just open up about to people in "the real world". Trust me! Here I am midnight on my 2nd night in my new apartment scared to sleep, mind racing. I know people will say "well just talk to your roommates, have them show you around, get out and explore!" Well ... It's not that easy this is what this is all about. This is why I am writing this to hopefully help out anyone out there who just needs someone who gets it. And also to document my anxiety process for myself, if no one ever reads this then at least I know I tried, I existed, I struggled and wanted to get better even if it means one day at a time.
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