could u write smth for me sam x reader (obvi), where the reader expresses how much she loves sunflowers, and every time heโs out for a run or a walk or whatever, he takes a certain route to make sure he can pick her a sunflower from a field so he can take it home to her?
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โ๏ฝก ห the long way home
summary หห๐ขึดเปึด you mention loving sunflowers once, and sam quietly builds a whole ritual around bringing them back to you
pairing หห๐ขึดเปึด sam winchester x reader ( f )
wordcount หห๐ขึดเปึด 638 genre หห๐ขึดเปึด extra fluff
warnings หห๐ขึดเปึด friends to lovers tension, shy sam, emotional pining
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it starts because you say it once. barely even a confession, really. just a small thing slipped into the middle of a long afternoon, while youโre leaning against the bunkerโs kitchen counter with your hands wrapped around a mug, watching dust float through a stripe of sunlight.
โsunflowers are my favorite,โ you say, mostly to yourself. โthey always look so happy.โ
sam looks up from the newspaper heโs pretending to read. โyeah?โ
โyeah,โ you say, smiling into your coffee. โbig faces. tall stems. theyโre basically the golden retrievers of flowers.โ
he laughs under his breath, soft enough that you almost miss it. โthat makes sense,โ he says.
you narrow your eyes. โwhat does that mean?โ
โnothing,โ he says too quickly, which means something, obviously.
you throw a sugar packet at him. he catches it without looking proud, because heโs sam, and thatโs somehow worse.
you donโt think about it again. sam does.
the first time he brings one home, youโre elbow-deep in laundry, trying to figure out if deanโs socks are cursed or just naturally horrible, when sam walks into the room sweaty from his run, hair damp at his temples, cheeks pink from the cold.
thereโs a sunflower in his hand.
not a bouquet. not anything polished or planned. just one sunflower, bright and uneven, its stem wrapped in a napkin from some gas station.
you stare at it. then at him.
โi saw it,โ he says, rubbing the back of his neck. โon the way back. figured youโd, uhโฆ want it.โ
your chest does this embarrassing little thing. โyou figured right,โ you say, taking it carefully.
his fingers brush yours. barely. still, you feel it.
after that, it becomes a habit he never announces. every couple of days, when he goes out for a run or a walk to clear his head, he comes back with another one. sometimes fresh and huge, sometimes a little crooked, sometimes missing a petal or two because the wind got to it first.
he always acts casual, like he didnโt clearly change his route just to pass that field outside town. you know, because one morning you watch from the garage as he takes the left road instead of the shorter one. the long way. for you.
stupidly, it makes you want to cry. just in the way soft things can sneak up and knock the air out of you.
one evening, he finds you in the library, sliding the newest sunflower into an old glass bottle youโve stolen from the kitchen. there are five now, lined up along the table, gold heads tilted in different directions.
โyouโre keeping all of them?โ he asks, voice gentle.
โof course i am.โ
he looks down, smiling at the floor. shy. too shy for someone so tall. โthey donโt last forever.โ
โneither do most good things,โ you say, then immediately regret how honest it sounds.
samโs smile fades into something quieter.
you look at the flowers instead of him. โbut i still want them.โ
thereโs a pause. then he steps closerโslow and carefulโthe same way he handles everything heโs afraid to break. โi can keep bringing them,โ he says.
your fingers tighten around the bottle. โyeah?โ
โyeah.โ his voice dips. โif you want.โ
you turn toward him, heart doing too much, hands smelling faintly green from the stem. โi do,โ you say.
samโs eyes flick to your mouth for half a second, then back up, and the room feels suddenly too quiet, too full of everything neither of you has been brave enough to touch.
he doesnโt kiss you. not yet. but his hand brushes yours again, warm and nervous and real, and this time neither of you moves away. the sunflower leans between you, bright and ridiculous, while sam looks at you like heโd take the long way home forever for you.
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was wondering maybe a shy reader x Sammy and him just always being so sweet and understanding maybe a little smut too :)
โ๏ฝก ห soft sounds
summary หห๐ขึดเปึด sam coaxes every shy little sound from your lips while he worships you with his mouth
pairing หห๐ขึดเปึด sam winchester x shy!reader ( f )
wordcount หห๐ขึดเปึด 755 genre หห๐ขึดเปึด soft smut
warnings หห๐ขึดเปึด explicit sexual content, oral sex (f!receiving), soft dom/sub dynamics, sound kink, shy reader, worship, mild overstimulation, sam getting off untouched
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youโre spread out on the thin motel mattress, sheets already twisted under your back. the lamp is off; only the neon sign from the parking lot leaks through the curtains, painting samโs shoulders in faint red and blue.
heโs between your legs, big hands gently pinning your thighs open, thumbs stroking soothing circles on your skin like heโs calming a startled animal.
youโre already trembling and he hasnโt even started.
โeasy, baby,โ he murmurs against your inner thigh, voice low and warm. โjust let me hear you. thatโs all i want.โ
your cheeks burn. youโre so shy it hurts sometimes, the way noises try to crawl up your throat and you swallow them back down.
sam knows. he loves it.
the way you bite your lip, the way your hips twitch like you canโt decide whether to push closer or hide.
he presses a slow, open-mouthed kiss right above your clit. you suck in a sharp breath, fingers twisting in the sheets.
โthere you go,โ he whispers, smiling against your skin. โgive me one more.โ
his tongue slides through your folds, flat and warm, tasting you like heโs got all night. a tiny, broken whimper slips out before you can stop it. your thighs try to close on instinct. samโs hands hold them apart.
โdonโt hide from me,โ he says softly. โi love every sound you make. even the quiet ones.โ
he licks again, slower this time, circling your clit with the tip of his tongue before sucking lightly. your back arches off the bed. another whimper, higher, shakier. you press the back of your hand to your mouth, trying to muffle it.
sam groans against you, the vibration shooting straight through your core. โfuck, baby. do that again.โ
he sucks harder, tongue flicking fast and perfect. you canโt help itโa soft, needy moan escapes, then another when he slides one long finger inside you, curling just right. your hips jerk, squirming under his mouth. the wet sounds of his tongue and your slick fill the room, embarrassingly loud to your own ears.
โs-samโฆโ it comes out tiny, almost a whisper.
โlouder,โ he encourages, voice rough with want. he adds a second finger, thrusting slow and deep while his mouth stays on your clit. โlet me hear how good it feels.โ
youโre panting now, chest heaving, trying so hard to stay quiet and failing beautifully.
every lick, every curl of his fingers pulls another whimper, another broken moan from your throat. your legs shake. your free hand fists in his hair.
samโs hips rock against the mattress in time with your sounds. heโs so hard it hurts, cock straining against his jeans, leaking just from the shy little noises youโre giving him.
he doesnโt touch himself. doesnโt need to. your whimpers are enough.
โyouโre so pretty like this,โ he murmurs between licks, voice reverent. โso wet for me. so shy and still letting me hear you. god, i could stay here all night.โ
a particularly loud moan tears from you when he sucks your clit between his lips and hums. your whole body squirms, hips bucking up into his mouth. youโre close, embarrassingly fast, the pressure building tight and hot.
โsamโ pleaseโโ the words come out whiny, needy, nothing like your usual quiet voice.
โthatโs it,โ he praises, fingers moving faster. โcome on, baby. let go. let me hear you come.โ
you do. the orgasm crashes over you in waves, and for once you donโt try to stop the sounds. soft cries and whimpers spill from your lips, growing louder as pleasure rolls through you.
sam moans against your clit, hips grinding harder into the bed, chasing his own release just from the sound of you falling apart.
he works you through it, tongue gentler now, until youโre twitching and oversensitive, little aftershocks making you whimper softly. only then does he pull back, lips shiny, eyes dark with lust and affection.
youโre still breathing hard, face flushed, when he crawls up your body and kisses you slow and deep, letting you taste yourself on his tongue. โbeautiful,โ he whispers against your mouth. โevery single sound.โ
your heart flutters, shy again now that the haze is lifting. but sam just smiles, nuzzling into your neck, his own breathing still ragged. he came untouched, just from listening to you. and the way he holds you after, like youโre something precious, makes the shyness feel a little less heavy.
you tuck your face into his shoulder anyway, hiding the small, satisfied smile that wonโt quite leave your lips.
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summary: who knew sam liked it so much when you were in control?
pairing: sam x angel!reader (gn) | genre: hot smut !! mdni | word count: 7.4k
warnings: older!sam, sub!sam (ft. a lot of whining and other sounds), a lotta edging, unprotected sex (dont do this), grace-play + sam's newly discovered grace kink, marking (giving sammy hickies !!), dean being a pain, dom!reader (?), i think that's it
notes: wow, writing something that's not a request ???? @sorryitsmyfirstdayonearth and @aniresrene made me do it (thank you both !!). i took a bit of inspiration for some of this from a fic by @theedaythatnevercomes and her c'mon baby, get in fic :] as always, mdni with my smut !! and also as always, i'm too asexual for writing smut on the regular, this is not an open invitation to request heavy smut from me :]
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Thereโs something hot under your skin. It doesnโt burn, because it canโt. It doesnโt singe or scorch, because it hasnโt learned how. But it simmers, bubbling gently, a rolling ocean that laps along the shore in soft waves, curved and gentle like crescent moons on the sand. The longer you let it sit, the stronger it gets, coasting toward something like a boil that makes your skin hot and your stomach warm. It drips lower, a slow line of heat that lands heavy when it hits the pit of your core, spreading molten heat in a honey-slow crawl ever downward.
Across the table from you is the reason for your distress. Not that he would notice, of course, because youโve spent too many years taking the time to learn to cover it up. Heโs not in tune with the rhythm of your grace yet, canโt notice when it flares around him, doesnโt seem to realize how it burns stronger on days like these. Sam is many things, and unfortunately, oblivious to the way he makes you feel is one of them. Youโve learned you have to be painfully direct with him, because speaking in wraparound metaphors is never going to get your desires across. He needs facts, statements, full sentences that start and end with Sam, I need you. He needs you to be bold. So tonight, you will.
Currently, Sam is buried in a book with more pages than he has hairs on his head. Theyโre thin, brittle with age and filled with smudged handwriting that you know strains his eyes to read. If you listen close to the silence around him, you can fill it with whatever internal commentary he has on the text; anecdotes to the lines on the page, mental reminders to search for a connection in another book later. You file those notes away too, because two brains are better than one, especially when one belongs to an angel. Your memory is plenty good enough to handle the both of you, but Sam takes pride in how much he knows, and youโre not one to underestimate the power of knowledge.
You watch, fixated, as he raises a thumb to his mouth, wetting it with the tip of his tongue so he can better turn the pages, careful not to damage the ancient paper. Itโs a simple gesture, one youโve seen him do hundreds of times before on case files or poetry anthology pages, but for some reason it makes your face hot. You avert your eyes quickly, instead opting to trace the lines on the tabletop, listening to their stories. It doesnโt tell you much, because it is just a piece of wood turned into a tabletop and carved with initials, but you can pretend thereโs a wise voice telling you itโs tale.
Your eyes follow the lines as far as they go, tracing them until they wind up at Samโs bare forearm. Those stupid bare arms, covering the ends to the forestโs stories, because heโs chosen to roll up the sleeves of his navy button-up to his elbows. Even from this distance you can count every mole on his skin, the freckles faded by age and made bright again by the summer sun. The faint hairs that curl like fern fronds across his skin, connecting his freckles the same way an astronomer might draw lines to connect the constellations in the sky. Thin, soft, etched into where they belong. Sam turns another page, the muscle under his skin rippling as he moves, your eyes tracking it the whole way from rest to motion to rest again.
Everything about Sam is soft in ways youโd expect it to be sharp. The lines and ridges of his bones and muscles under his skin are rounded and soft, somehow managing to be gentle without sacrificing their power. Where Deanโs hands are large, the bones thickening his fingers enough that you can see where one or two have been broken, Samโs hands are bigger yet but timid, a little shaky at times, always asking for permission to be big. The way he manages to round down the expanses of his shoulders both impresses you and makes you sad that he feels the need to take up less space. Even the way heโs just cleared his throat isnโt harsh or cracking like it is for most people. Instead, itโs light, quiet, filling the space like it really is nothing more than just a temporary sound.
โYouโre staring,โ he murmurs softly, barely looking up from his page.
โI am not staring,โ you reply.
Sam huffs a laugh, grinning in that careful way that makes his dimple pop on his cheek. Itโs hard to see it now that heโs growing a bit of a beard, but you donโt think you could forget what it looks like if you tried. Even now the soft divot is visible to you, pockmarking his skin like a little meteor fell into it, rounding it out and giving it meaning until it was something beautiful and kind instead of fiery. His eyes flick up from the page to your face and back again, the same path they make thousands of times a day.
โIf youโre not staring, then what are you doing?โ
โThinking.โ
โAbout what?โ
โYou.โ
Samโs eyes pause their trek across the page, coming up to meet your steady gaze for a second longer than normal. The longer he watches you, the more you see his expression shift from something relaxed into something strung, an animal ready to move. The lamplight flickers off him in waning waves of gold, his eyes shifting from a dark brown to something lighter, the colour of the worn wood on the table youโd been studying earlier, something golden he doesnโt know exists swimming in them too. Sam looks away first, his cheeks dusted a pale pink, unable to hide the ghost of a smile that lands on his face every time he sees you.
โIโm not kidding,โ you say.
โI know.โ
He shifts in his chair, the movement disjointed and awkward, settling himself both deeper into the seat and also closer to the edge. Ready to get up and move at a momentโs notice, but making himself comfortable, like he can melt into it and disappear if you asked him to. One hand drifts under the table, the almost imperceptible sound of fingers rearranging denim reaching your ears. His hand drifts back up, fidgeting momentarily with the collar of his shirt before falling back to rest in his lap, book now forgotten. His legs stretch long under the table, ankles crossed and socked feet tapping a rhythm against the floor, eyes drifting anywhere but you.
โAre you done?โ you ask, gesturing to his book.
Sam nods, clearing his throat a second time. โI can be. Why?โ
You stare, your expression shifting into something deadpan and serious. โI can wait if youโre busy.โ
โNo, no, Iโm not busy.โ
โYouโre halfway through a chapter. You never stop reading halfway through a chapter.โ
Sam shrugs, caught. โFirst time for everything?โ
You absorb the information, standing from your chair in an abrupt motion that makes Samโs brows furrow as he watches you. Itโs not unlike you to move in a space like youโre not used to the space existing, but this is too precise for even that. Youโre moving on a mission, and Samโs starting to understand what it is.
โCome with me,โ you say, holding out your hand and cupping his chin with it.
โWhere are we going?โ
You nod in the direction of the hall. โYou are going to have a first time.โ
Sam swallows, something that looks like uncertainty flickering across his features. You frown, leaning down to look him in the eyes, softening your expression into something you know he understands as gentle. Your eyes flick over him, from his worried expression to the shirt collar he still hasnโt fixed, down his lightly freckled arms, to the lump in his jeans he was adjusting earlier. Perhaps youโve misread something. Maybe whatever fire simmers under your skin doesnโt live under his; maybe youโve overstepped, crossed a line you know you should never cross, hurt the parts of him you promised you would never hurt.
โIโm sorry,โ you say. โIf I was too direct.โ
Sam waves off your apology with a hand, shaking his head slightly. โDonโt apologize.โ
โI made you uncomfortable.โ
โNot uncomfortable. Very much the opposite of uncomfortable.โ
Your face scrunches up, confusion etched into your features. Sam chuckles low, putting one of his hands on the wrist that still holds his chin in your hand. His thumb strokes up and down the back of your hand, drawing you in with the way that every touch of his does, promising everything good and more. When he turns his head slightly, his beard scrapes at your palm, scratching a surface itch and stoking the deeper one.
โBut you lookโฆuncertain.โ
โNot uncertain.โ
โThen what would you call it?โ
Sam thinks, eyes flittering over your features, hesitating on your lips. His tongue darts out to wet his own, fingers tightening momentarily on your wrist.
โAnticipation.โ
You hum, the sound vibrating through your chest to Sam just by how close you are to him. His knees tip open a little as you step forward, legs spreading just enough that you can stand between them. Experimentally, your hand tips low, trailing a faint path along the line of his jaw, down the side of his neck, brushing his adamโs apple that bobs when he swallows. Slowly, your fingertips brush the collar of the shirt heโd been playing with earlier, nails brushing half-moon shapes along what you can see of his collarbone. His breath hitches when you reach the dip at the base of his neck, a shaky inhale and exhale that you know is holding back something fuller.
โOkay,โ you say. โAnticipation is good?โ
Sam nods, the motion slightly detached. โYeah.โ
โDo you like it?โ
Samโs eyes gleam with something hidden that he keeps carefully locked away, slowly brimming to the surface under your heated touch.
โYeah. Yeah, I do.โ
His voice is unsteady, like it was knocked off balance by a punch to the chest. Something about the reverent breathlessness of it stokes the pot from a simmer to a slow boil, foamy sea roiling under your skin, impatient as it waits. You watch Sam for a moment longer, studying the ridge of his brow under the light, the way it normally shades his eyes but now seems to push the darkness back for you to see his pretty hazel eyes watching you just as intently as you watch him. You brush your hand through his hair slow, raking it back from his forehead. He gives a soft, punched-out noise when your fingers catch on a knot and yank harder than youโd intended, his face immediately flushing pink.
โSorry,โ he whispers when you remove your hand.
โDid it hurt?โ
โA little.โ
โBut you-.โ
Sam holds up a hand to stop you. โSomething can hurt and feel good at the same time.โ
You frown. โHow on Earth does that work?โ
Sam chuckles, tipping into your hand with the weight of it. โI wish I knew.โ
โDo you-. Can I do it again?โ
Samโs eyes focus on you. โPlease.โ
You follow the same path again, fingers running along his scalp like a rake as they pull his hair back, finding a spot near the top of his head that looks suitable. Quietly, you wrap two fingers around the roots, pulling just hard enough to draw out a low groan from the base of his throat, one that comes up from his chest and sounds like heaven. You move on to a new spot, repeating the same motion but slightly harder, earning yourself another groan, this one louder.
โWait- wait. Stop,โ Sam pants.
You retract your hand immediately. โToo much?โ
โNo, no. God, no. Just-. Weโre in the library.โ
You nod, slow. โThere is no door.โ
โRight.โ
โAnd Dean could walk past.โ
โRight again.โ
โAnd you would like to be somewhere else.โ
โThree in a row.โ
You hum, grabbing Samโs large hand and pulling him to his feet. He goes a little wobbly, never expecting the strength you have over him, but he stands upright, slamming the book closed and shoving it down the table for Dean to put somewhere else. His hand falls again to the front of his jeans, making an attempt to adjust himself in case you come across Dean. You and Sam both know itโs probably pointless, but itโs the thought that counts.
Your steps on the bunker floor tread so light they barely make a sound, almost like youโre floating over the ground. Maybe you are, in a way, walking light and subtle and with the kind of gentleness that comes from being held up by wings. Sam walks so close behind you it would crowd if he were anyone else; he has a talent for existing shoulder to shoulder with you in your space and never leaving you feeling overwhelming. One hand hovers at the small of your back, his nose nudging at your neck while he lays soft kisses to the skin as you walk, your pace quickening the closer you get to his room.
Sam mutters something impatient when it takes you more than a second to open the door to his room, and you give him a half-hearted glare from the corner of your eye. He apologizes with an open-mouthed kiss to your pulse point, exhaling soft through his nose as he does, the heat of his breath curling against the skin of your neck. He nudges the door closed with his heel, the latch rattling lightly against the frame as it comes to rest, something Dean will no doubt complain about later, but neither of you care. The sound of wood hitting frame doesnโt matter, the sound of socked feet on floor isnโt important; the sound of panted breaths and increasingly heated kisses does.
You spin him around, so his chest is pressed to yours, slinging your arms around his neck and pulling him ever closer. His hands fall to your waist, smoothing up and down your ribcage, cupping them and stroking his thumb along the lower ribs in time with your breaths. Your fingertips find their earlier path to the base of his neck, scooping under his hair and bunching it up in your hands as you trail upward, inching toward the roots and tugging when you get there. The first few times only reward you with a huff of breath against your skin, but after some experimentation, you find the right section of his hair that drags a whine from his chest into the kiss.
Despite his size, itโs devastatingly easy to walk him toward the bed, using just a fraction of your strength to push him onto the mattress. His knees buckle when he reaches the edge, gripping your hips and pulling you down into his lap. Your knees land on either side of his hips, leading you to subtly grind yourself down on his growing hardness under the denim of his jeans. Each circle of your hips on his drags a moan from Sam, spitting it out into the air like heโs ashamed of the pleasure, afraid to let you know what he feels.
Eventually, Sam pulls away from you, gazing up at you with blown pupils and the most beautiful eyes youโve seen. His lashes tangle together as he blinks at you, doe eyes perfectly matching the flush on his cheeks and his kiss-swollen lips. Your hands make a path down his shoulder blades and around to his chest, palm landing flat over his heart. Samโs hands cup your face like angelic statues cup holy water, holding it like itโs rare, precious, something to be closely guarded. Softly, testing the waters, Samโs hips jerk upward, your lips parting for a sound that never comes.
โSam?โ you ask, breathless.
Sam makes a noise in response thatโs airy and light, something you take for agreement but could easily have no meaning attached to it.
โDo you want to try something new?โ
He freezes. โLike what?โ
Your hips shift minutely, Samโs eyes squeezing shut in response.
โMaking you feel what I feel.โ
โYou feel it different?โ
You nod, the motion jerky.
โWhat kind of different?โ he prods.
โMore feeling. More energy. Just-. More. Youโd like it.โ
โOkay,โ Sam whispers. โYeah, angel.โ
One hand cups his chin, holding it between your thumb and fingers. The other hand drifts up in the familiar sort of salute you use when you heal him, fingers brushing Samโs hairline, tracing the creases on his forehead as he watches you. A soft press of weight, a faint pulse of blue, and a sharp inhale from Sam, and you know itโs worked. His eyes flutter open, half-lidded and soft as you drop your fingers away, grace fading out until itโs no brighter than the roomโs shadows. The lamplight fades out too, letting gentle darkness creep in to replace what was once a soft gold, Samโs pupils widening further as he adjusts to the darkness.
โTell me if itโs too much,โ you murmur in his ear, lips brushing the shell of it.
โPromise,โ he whispers back, shivering, goosebumps cropping up along his arms.
Slowly, you move in tandem. Sam crawls on his elbows back until his head hits the pillows, hair spreading around his head all tangled and knotted, like some kind of halo. Your palms, burning warm, trail up his forearms as you lay him back, hovering yourself over his body. Deft fingers pop the buttons on his shirtsleeves, Samโs huge hands helping undo the ones on his chest. You watch, fascinated, as his chest comes into view, bare under the shirt, skin pale from the lack of sunlight, hair dark like the hair on his head a faint brush trail over his pecs. He crunches as he removes the shirt properly, a hand pressed flat to the muscles of his abs feeling the way they ripple and contract through his movements, flattening out again when he lays back down with a sigh.
โOff?โ he asks, his hands tugging at the hem of your shirt.
โNot yetโ you reply, delicately pushing his hands away.
โWant to feel you.โ
โYou will.โ
Sam almost pouts, something so sweet you nearly cave and let him remove your shirt, but you know his limits. With your grace flowing under his skin, electrifying every nerve until they all sing the same chorus, having your chest bare to him to roam his hands over would be too much for him right now when itโs so new. Heโd burn up, skin flushing red and angry, burning out until heโs a shell of himself. Youโre not here to hurt him, after all. Youโre just here to give him a good time, a first experience heโs never had before; itโs not every day Sam gets to mess around with an angel in his bed.
Drifting downward, your mouth returns to his as your hands palm downward, inching closer toward where heโs straining in his jeans. You go slow, giving him time to adjust to this new state of overwhelm, every nerve in his body no doubt firing a thousand times stronger than usual. You reach the happy trail that points down the slim v of his hips, sharp angled hipbones cutting into his skin and disappearing into the denim hem decorating his waist. The moment your fingers brush through the hair, Sam inhales sharp in a poorly concealed whine, back arching and hips jerking upward. You press down to keep him still, cautious with how much feeling you let himself get high on, keeping control over the situation, keeping control over Sam.
And he lets you. And he likes it.
He likes giving you control to do whatever you want with him. He likes letting himself feel everything a hundred times stronger than usual; every valley of your fingerprints, every particle of your breath on his cheek. Everything else he canโt wait to feel waiting for him under your clothes.
The button to his jeans pops open, zipper pulled down slow, the sound of the metal parts unlinking impossibly loud in the space. Rustling denim fills the room, the soft press of your palms on his skin as you drag his jeans down past your legs, lifting your hips to give him enough motion to kick them off, still drunk on the taste of his mint chapstick. Settling into place again, your kisses trail blazing hot down the skin of his neck, his head tipped back to give you access to the striking ropes of muscle on the sides. Cautiously, you nip at one of them, your teeth driving a full-bodied moan from Samโs chest.
The tent in Samโs boxers presses insistently against your inner thigh, warm and full. Slow, painfully slow, you grip the waistband and work them down his legs, fingernails trailing along his skin and leaving faint white lines in their wake, the skin around turning gentle pink like rose petals. Once the fabric is clear of his feet, you make your way back up, equally slow, relishing every sound you can pull from Sam. Holding his legs down while you press a soft kiss to the inside of his knee makes his back arch lightly and makes him breathless, but leaving messy kisses along his thighs makes him squirm a little, almost whimpering with the anticipation. Taking advantage of it, you suck two careful marks on his thighs just near his hipbones, blooming dark pink that will surely fade into reddish purple by the time youโre done.
His dick is resting hard on his lower stomach, coarse hair curling at his base that you run your hand through, teasing. Letting him feel how your fingers catch on every hair, skin goosebumped and hot to the touch. He shivers when your hand ghosts over his length, swollen and pink at the tip, waiting patiently for you to do something. When your hands move back down his thighs instead, trailing along the insides so close to where he needs you yet refusing to touch him there, he exhales shakily, moving on your behalf.
Eyes screwed shut, Sam drifts a cautious hand towards his dick, trembling a little as he goes. You watch, confused, thinking heโs reaching for you. A low noise comes from his throat when his fingers wrap around himself, attempting desperately to alleviate some of the pressure thatโs built up in his abdomen while you were busy. You watch him stroke himself, tracking the way his fingers move over himself, likely something heโs done a hundred times before in cheap motels with too much energy and nowhere to put it. For a brief selfish moment, you wonder how many of those times have been to the thought of you; how many motel showers have heard your name, how many magazines heโs read and replaced the models with you in his head. The number likely isnโt zero, and that makes you painfully hot and bothered about it.
A half-satisfied sigh spills from Samโs lips, thumb smoothing over his tip and coating himself in his arousal. Itโs pretty to you in a strange way, the same kind of iridescence as a pearl. If you look close enough, you swear you can see a faint rainbow sheen to it. Sam seems wildly unaware of the natural beauty of it, and you suspect he just canโt see the same colours you can, canโt see the same prettiness to whatโs not meant to be pretty.
โYou gonna do something?โ Sam asks, wrecked. โOr just stare?โ
Sliding your own pants off, you climb back up his body. Sitting yourself on his stomach, youโre just high enough that he canโt grind against you.
โAsk nicely,โ you comment, frowning a little.
To you, thereโs nothing strange about that comment. Itโs something you say several times a day, usually directed at his brother who seems to have no concept of manners or the word โpleaseโ. To you, this is just an everyday comment that means nothing more than what it asks for; respect.
To Sam, it means that and everything more. To Sam, itโs a command, a request he simply canโt ignore. He turns his eyes on you, filled with something lustful and gorgeous, the kind of sin that draws you in because you know it canโt hurt you. His lips form an โoโ shape, but no words come out; not until he clears his throat, the sound cracking in the space.
โPlease, angel. Do something. I canโt-. I need-. Please.โ
When his voice sounds that airy and high, that close to drifting out of his body and up somewhere far away, you have no choice but to listen to him. You seal his lips in a searing kiss, swiping your tongue along the bottom one, lapping up his taste. His hands come up to hold you, lacing together at the back as he holds your head in them, thumbs near your eyebrows. He kisses you back like youโre oxygen, hands feeling like they completely cover the sides of your head, grabbing at you and holding you close because he needs you there, your skin scraping along his beard and tickling deliciously.
You work your hips backward, shimmying them along his torso and dragging your heat over his stomach, down his happy trail until you reach his dick. Itโs hot and heavy against your ass, still slick from his earlier ministrations in what you now realize were meant to be preparation. Samโs working at the foil on a condom when you look back up, ripping it open with his teeth when his hands shake too much to be useful.
โDonโt need it,โ you say, knocking it from his hands.
โI-.โ
โI am an angel, Sam.โ
โEver heard of a Nephilim?โ
You laugh, melodic. โIt canโt happen.โ
โYouโre sure?โ
You stare. โI would not be saying this if I wasnโt.โ
Sam looks like heโs about to protest again, and thereโs only so much convincing you can do with words before Sam starts getting frustrated. Instead, you move the rest of the way back, grabbing Samโs dick and stroking him softly while you align yourself with him. The moment your fingers close around him, he whimpers high in his throat, stomach muscles jumping in time with your movements. It only takes a few seconds, but to Sam, it feels like it takes an hour; an hour of just feeling the heat of your palm on his sensitive heat, moving too slow and too fast. It takes all he has to keep it together. You hear him make a mental reminder to do this again.
โOf course we can,โ you reply aloud.
โWhat?โ
You nod toward him. โI heard you.โ
Sam blushes furiously red. โSorry.โ
โSam. I told you that you would like this. Stop feeling ashamed for it.โ
Putting an end to the debate, you sink down on his length, slapping a hand over his mouth when he moans loud enough you worry Dean will hear from behind the closed door. Sam whines when he finally bottoms out, hands flying to your waist in an attempt to keep you still and make you move; he canโt decide which would feel better at this point. To fit him fully, you rock your hips slightly back and forth, his tip notching on your walls as he fits where he always has, buried completely inside you. He gives another moan when you settle still again, the sound devolving into a muffled groan when you tighten your hand on his mouth. You can hear Deanโs footsteps outside getting closer, praying that heโll walk past without commenting on anything.
โSammy?โ Dean yells. โYou in there?โ
You and Sam both sigh in defeat. Sam goes to lift you off of him, but you stop his hands where they are. His head tips to the side, the confused puppy look heโs trademarked in your brain, and all you do is kiss him deep in reply.
โWhatโre you doing?โ he whispers low.
โYou said something can hurt and feel good at the same time,โ you whisper back. โIโm testing that theory.โ
Samโs eyes widen in understanding, a soft grin slowly curling across his bearded face. He pecks your cheek before getting interrupted again by Deanโs banging on the doorframe.
โI got questions for you, Sammy,โ he yells.
โDude, go read a book or something,โ Sam shouts back.
You still your minute rocking. Sam looks, confused. You shrug, grinning.
โI did. I still got questions. Help a guy out, wouldโya?โ
Sam groans, this time from his brotherโs sheer audacity instead of your heated touch.
โMake it quick.โ
โDo I get to come in or am I stuck yellinโ at this door?โ
โDonโt come in!โ you and Sam both yell at the same time.
Dean mutters something Sam canโt hear but your ears pick up, something nasty that makes you chuckle and would make Sam slap his brother across the face if he heard it.
โWhatโs the question?โ Sam asks.
โGot this case here, says itโs in, uh, Milwaukee.โ
โUh huh.โ
โAnd itโs talkinโ โbout some drowninโs.โ
โWisconsinโs covered in lakes, Dean.โ
โWell yeah. But this oneโs weird.โ
You start moving again, gentle circles that make Sam muffle the breath he sucks in.
โWhyโs that?โ Sam replies, voice careful and steady.
โโCause the guy drowned on land.โ
Sam makes the kind of scrunched-up face he makes when something is definitely supernatural, but still impressive enough for him to be surprised about it.
โOh..kay. Weird.โ
โYeah. And thereโs this symbol they found on his wrist that I wanted tโshow you. โCause I canโt find it.โ
โWhy would I know?โ
โEh, thought your angel pal could help us out.โ
Sam rolls his eyes right at the time you grind down harsh on him, his eyes stopping their motion to flutter closed as his head jerks back into the soft down of the pillows.
โWhatโs it look like?โ Sam asks.
Dean describes the shape as best he can, but you and Sam both know heโs taking several creative liberties in an attempt to draw Sam out of his room and shoulder the work for him. You keep a mental image of what Dean draws, the picture so sharp and clear youโre surprised Sam canโt see it floating between your chests. Thereโs a few vertical lines and a couple diagonal ones, something that looks like a spiral and is probably mean to be a triangle. Itโs surrounded by a circle, and Dean says it looks like a brand, flaying the skin around it the same shade of pink as Samโs sweat-flushed cheeks.
Each shape Dean describes currently earns Sam another roll of your hips, grinding yourself down on his length as best you can. Occasionally, he hits a spot that makes your toes curl against his legs and forces you to brace a palm on the middle of his ribcage, using his sternum to keep you upright. Samโs doing a decent job of keeping quiet, his sounds mostly reduced to quiet, shaky exhales of breath, but when he canโt, your palm is quick enough to keep his moans quiet so that Dean doesnโt hear.
โCould be a binding sigil,โ Sam answers.
You still abruptly, thighs falling open and movements reduced to nothing so quickly Sam almost tears up at the loss of friction.
โNot right?โ Sam whispers to you.
โNo. The spiral should be a triangle.โ
Sam redraws his mental image. โDean?โ
โWhat?โ
โIs it Celtic?โ
Dean shuffles some pages around. You still donโt move.
โNo,โ you and Dean both say.
Sam groans, frustrated. โOkay. Itโs either Enochian or some bastardization of it.โ
That grants Sam another thrust of your hips downward, drawing up a whine.
โGood,โ you whisper against the shell of his ear, kissing his pulse point.
โGreat. Whatโs it do?โ Dean asks.
Sam shifts the both of you, tangling his fingers in your hair and burying his face into your shoulder to suppress the resulting groan.
โPr- probably binds- ah.โ
You stop.
โNo, sorry. Not binding.โ
You can see the gears turning in Samโs brain.
โWait, Dean. Do the diagonals start at the left or right?โ
โUhโฆleft.โ
A small movement from you, a reward for asking the right question. Deanโs silence continues, so you continue too, waiting them both out for whoever makes a mistake first. Samโs fingers squeeze the plush of your waist, nails leaving tiny half-moons that youโre notice later and wear because they came from Samโs hands. You keep kissing him, swallowing his moans as you build him up higher, working him until youโre certain that whatever pressure heโs feeling now is worse than heโs ever had. His face is screwed up, his mouth mumbling incoherent sounds into yours, nose scrunching. You can tell heโs close, heat burning sharp between you.
โHurts,โ he whines.
Just as Samโs about to tip over the edge, you stop. You donโt give him the pleasure of slowing down; just a full stop, thighs loosening and heels removed from his legs, palms off his chest and mouth away from his. Your palm blocks his desperate whine from reaching Deanโs ears, Samโs eyes peering at you bloodshot and frustrated.
โThe hell?โ he whispers, throat wrecked.
โYou havenโt figured it out yet,โ is your answer.
โDean?โ Sam asks, weak. โYou there?โ
โYeah, yeah. Just readinโ somethinโ. Says the lines start from the bottom left, not the top left.โ
โItโs a sigil for a plague,โ he comments.
โGood,โ you whisper, starting a slow roll.
โOh great. Which one?โ Dean asks, exasperated.
โSeven, I think.โ
You stop. Sam whines.
โNot seven, not seven,โ he says, punched out and breathy. โโS not seven.โ
โWell, thatโs great. Yโonly got, what, nine more to go through?โ
โShut up.โ
You lean down to Samโs ear, lacing your fingers through his hand and bringing it up to rest beside his head.
โSeven was hail, Sam.โ
โI know.โ
โAsk him what the man drowned in.โ
Sam clears his throat, taking a shaky breath in.
โDean?โ
โYeah.โ
โWhatโd he drown in? Water?โ
You can hear Dean shake his head, then remember Sam canโt see it.
โNo, uhโฆdrowned in his own blood. Saw trap style.โ
Your hand brushes sweaty hair back from Samโs forehead.
โItโs one. Dean, itโs the first plague. The whole turning water into blood situation.โ
Your grip tightens on Samโs hair, pulling until you draw a whimper from his throat. Again, you start slow circles, mouthing at his pulse point, your hand still locked in his. Again, you build him all the way up until heโs just about to let himself go. Again, you stop abruptly, this time drawing gentle tears from the corner of Samโs eye.
โWhat now?โ he murmurs to you.
โYou havenโt told him how to remove it.โ
โI donโt know how to remove it.โ
โYes, you do, Sam.โ
Dean shuffles. โHow am I supposed to get it off these people?โ
โFire?โ
You move, cautious, slow. A half answer, but not complete.
โHellfire, maybe?โ Sam adds.
You stop.
โWhat other fire is there?โ Sam murmurs to himself. โNot hellfireโฆnot fireโฆfโฆitโsโฆholyโฆholy fire. Dean! Dean, itโs holy fire.โ
โGood boy,โ you coo, nipping at the dip between Samโs collarbones and moving again.
โAnything else?โ Sam asks his brother.
โNah. Just needed that geek brain oโyours.โ
Deanโs footsteps thud heavily off to the library, your ears picking up the sounds of him rummaging for whiskey in the room before dropping heavily into a chair and commenting something about how late it is. Once youโre certain heโs not coming back, you let yourself move again, thumbing along the hem of your shirt that you stole from Samโs closet. Some worn t-shirt thatโs seen several years of motel rooms and duffel bag bottoms, travelling with him everywhere he goes. It smells like him too, something soft like pavement after rain and cedar wood burning. Sam helps you slide it over your head and drop it to the floor, hands eagerly resting on your ribs again, this time bare.
Your movements turn from circles to proper thrusts forward, your stomach brushing his at some moments, his arms anchoring you against him. Your hand is still holding his near his head, his knuckles white from how heโs squeezing your hand. Heโs panting now, full-bodied pants every time you break the kiss, the bundle of arousal in his stomach gripping him tighter and tighter the longer it builds for, radiating to his spine and arching his back off the mattress. You clench around him, earning yourself a heavy moan that echoes in your ears, building the both of you higher and higher. Samโs hard to the point of pain, aching with every rock of your hips, desperately pleading for you to let him come.
You slow, almost stopping but not quite. Tears fills Samโs eyes, and you realize, after a quick delve into his soul, it really does hurt.
โPleasepleaseplease,โ he begs, breathless.
You grind down harsh, a cracked whine breaking the air from Samโs lips. The bubble bursts in Samโs core, and then heโs coming hot and heavy into you, moaning an incomprehensible version of your name into the roomโs night air. Tears slip sideways into his hairline as he lets go, the consequences of reaching the height of pleasured pain. His hips shove up into you, pushing himself impossibly deeper as he finally empties himself, the pressure abating slow and steady with each bit. Somewhere along the way you come too, but youโre too focused on Sam and Samโs too focused on his own orgasm to notice. You slow, a gentle wind-down unlike earlier, only fully stopping when Sam whimpers something about being sensitive, tingles arching up your back when you tip onto him.
Heโs panting heavily now, lying spread-eagled on the bed with one arm hanging half off. His chest rises and falls dramatically, your lips kissing up and down it as you wait patiently for him to come down enough that you can slip away for a cloth. Your first attempt at moving doesnโt go far, Sam mumbling for a few more minutes despite your insistence that he gets up soon. Eventually, his breathing slows into something normal, heart calming down until itโs back to thudding its regular steady rhythm in his chest. You brush his hair back again, this time ensuring you donโt pull at the knots youโve created by fisting your hands through it; just getting the sweat-sticky strands off his forehead so you can lay a soft kiss to it.
Finally, slowly, when heโs soft enough youโre both sure you can move, you lift yourself off of Sam. He sucks in a breath at the cold of the room reaching his skin that was previously covered by you, adjusting to the room temperature while you search for sleep clothes. He has a hand thrown over his eyes when you come back to bed with fresh clothes, and you peel it back gently to watch him. Your fingers return to his forehead, retracting the grace youโd given him, your eyes watching how he sinks deeper into the mattress again now that heโs fully human once more.
โI will clean up here,โ you murmur, kissing him softly. โGet yourself sorted out.โ
โDo I have to?โ he murmurs back.
You smile gently. โYes, love. You do. It wonโt take very long.โ
Sam hauls himself upright with a grunt, sitting on the edge of the bed and stretching his long arms over his head, twisting his back to get out the tension from earlier. His hip cracks loud when he stands, and something twists in your heart when you catch the silvers in his hair and beard glint in the grey nighttime light. Heโs getting older, you know this. Heโs older than he was when you met, and something about that makes you feel overjoyed but also a little sad. Heโs getting to an age he never assumed heโd reach, surviving everything that brought him to this point. But that also means heโs running out of time on earth, something youโre distraught at. For someone like him who loves earth so much, it seems cruel to take it away from him.
Turning your thoughts away from his mortality, you straighten out the bedsheets, a snap of your fingers cleaning and drying them, a second snap making them carry the same warmth that they would if theyโd just been removed from the dryer or just brought inside from the sunlight. Your hands fluff the pillows into something that isnโt dented by Samโs head, straightening the pillowcases again. Your ears pick up the sounds of Sam in the bathroom, your brain filtering out the sound of him peeing and focusing instead on his soft humming as he washes his hands.
When he shuffles back into the room, youโre in the process of putting on your sleep clothes; an old thin shirt of his that you only wear because anything warmer makes you feel like youโre burning from the inside out and pants made out of some kind of athletic material you hate but keep wearing. Sam struggles into a clean pair of boxers, nearly falling over when his heel gets stuck in the leg. You pull the sheets back so Sam can climb in, throwing them over him as he snuggles into your side, one impossibly heavy arm thrown over your waist. Boneless, without putting in any effort to keep himself light for you, he has the weight of tons of rocks; it never hurts, just a comforting heaviness that proves heโs not going anywhere anytime soon.
โSo?โ you murmur, turning to face him.
โSo,โ he replies, soft and tired eyes watching you fondly.
โWas it too much?โ
Sam shakes his head, shaking strands of hair into his eyes in the process.
โNo. โS perfect. Thank you.โ
โWould- would you do it again?โ
Sam pushes into the pillows groaning a soft comment about angel stamina. โNot now.โ
You laugh light and airy. โI didnโt mean now, love.โ
โOh. He hauls himself up on one elbow, blinking slow. โYeah. Yeah, I really would.โ
You reach for him, dragging him to you. The perk of your angel strength means Sam can go completely boneless in your hold, putting in no effort whatsoever, and you can still drag him around like he weighs nothing. Heโs barely in control of his muscles right now, but he still slings his arms around you when you pull him to your chest, one hand disappearing under your pillow and the other resting somewhere on your shoulder blade. His hand wonโt go numb; you wonโt let it. Instead, he melts himself completely over you, burying his face into your shoulder and humming as he gets comfortable.
โOkay?โ you ask when he stills.
โOkay,โ he murmurs, barely a word rather than just a sound.
You kiss the top of his head. โRest well, Sam.โ
โYou know I will.โ
You smile into his hair. โI know.โ
He presses a lazy ghost of a kiss to the side of your neck. โI love you, angel.โ
โYou know I love you too.โ
โI know.โ
Itโs the last conscious thing he says before the sleep crawling up his spine claims him, surrounding him in a warm blanket as he drifts off in your arms. You donโt sleep, Sam knows you donโt, but for his sake you slow your breathing and heart rate until it matches his; beat for beat, breath for breath. Your eyes drift shut, brain alert and awake but eyes sleeping with the rest of the room. You notice the moment his exhales change from through his nose to through his mouth, then shift into soft snores that get gradually louder as the night progresses. Itโs never annoying, and youโve told him this, but he still tries his best to keep it to a minimum with you. He doesnโt shift at all during the night, sleeping as heavy and deep as a fallen log. And if he drools a little on your shirt in his deep sleep? Well, nobody but you will know.
summary หห๐ขึดเปึด after too many shots celebrating samโs perfect gpa, the words youโve been holding back finally spill while youโre dancing in his arms, and sam canโt wait to hear them again somewhere more private.
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youโre pressed tight against samโs chest, the bass from the bar speakers vibrating through both of you hard enough you feel it in your bones. the room spins in the best way, warm lights blurring at the edges, laughter and clinking glasses fading into background noise.
samโs hands are steady on your waist, holding you up because your knees decided to quit somewhere around the fourth shot. or was it the fifth? you lost count after the bartender started cheering for samโs ridiculous 174 lsat.
heโs the greatest boyfriend. tall, smart, kind in that quiet way that makes your chest ache. youโve been sharing that tiny off-campus apartment for months now, tangled sheets and late-night study sessions turning into something deeper every single day, but the big words have never quite made it past your lips.
tonight, they do.
your arms loop around his neck, face buried in the warm skin just below his ear. the smell of himโsoap and a hint of beer and that faint library-book scent he always carriesโmakes everything feel safe even while the world tilts.
โiโm so damn in love with you, sam,โ you mumble, lips brushing his earlobe. the words tumble out sloppy and honest, soaked in tequila.
sam stills for half a second, his grip tightening. then a slow grin spreads across his face, surprised and so damn bright it cuts through the haze in your head. he pulls back just enough to look at you, hazel eyes warm and a little wide.
โsay that again,โ he says, voice low, right against your mouth.
your knees buckle a little more. you smile, drunk and dizzy and stupidly happy. โi said iโm stupidly in love with you, sammy.โ
the grin turns into something hungrier. he doesnโt answer with words. instead he catches your hand, laces your fingers together, and starts weaving through the crowd toward the back hallway. you stumble after him, giggling, the music still thumping in your chest.
he pushes open the bathroom doorโa single stallโlocks it behind you with a quick click, and the noise of the bar dulls to a muffled pulse.
before you can say anything he lifts you, big hands under your thighs, and sits you on the edge of the counter, your ass half in the sink, the porcelain is cool through your skirt. sam steps between your legs, tall frame crowding you, and you feel how hard he already is, pressed right against your core through his jeans.
โfuck, baby,โ he breathes, forehead resting against yours. his voice is rough, breath warm with alcohol and want brushing your cheek. โyou canโt just say shit like that when iโm trying to be responsible.โ
you laugh softly, hands sliding under his shirt to feel the warm skin of his back. โbut i mean it. been meaning it for months. justโฆ scared, i guess. now iโm drunk and brave.โ
sam kisses you then, deep and messy, tongues sliding together while his hands push your skirt higher up your thighs. you moan into his mouth, needy, hips rocking forward to chase the friction.
heโs so hard it makes your stomach flutter.
responsible sam, always the careful one, still pulls a condom from his wallet without breaking the kiss. you hear the foil tear and it sends a fresh wave of heat through you.
โneed you,โ you whisper against his lips, fingers fumbling with his belt. โright now, sam. please.โ
โiโve got you.โ his voice cracks a little, too much feeling packed into three words.
he shoves his jeans and boxers down just enough, rolls the condom on with steady hands even though his breath is coming fast. then heโs pushing your panties aside, fingers sliding through your slick folds once, twice, checking youโre ready.
โjesus christ, baby,โ he hisses.
you are. embarrassingly so. the alcohol and the confession and the way heโs looking at you like you hung the moon have you dripping.
he lines up and sinks in slow, one long push that stretches you open and steals the air from your lungs. you gasp, head falling back against the mirror, and sam groans low in his throat, hips stuttering once before he catches himself.
โgod, you feel so good,โ he murmurs, forehead pressed to yours again. he starts moving, deep and steady, the angle perfect because of how high the counter is.
every thrust drags against that spot inside you that makes sparks shoot up your spine.
โbeen wanting to hear you say it. i love you too, baby. so fucking much. didnโt know how to say it either.โ
your hands clutch at his shoulders, nails digging in through his shirt. the confession feels raw, perfect, the words tumbling out between moans and the wet sound of skin meeting skin.
โlove you,โ you pant, legs wrapping tighter around his waist. โlove your stupid giant brain and how you make me coffee exactly right and how you look at me like iโm the only person in the room even when weโre in a crowd.โ
samโs rhythm falters for a second, then picks up, harder, deeper, like your words are fuel. the counter creaks under you. his hand slips between your bodies, thumb finding your clit and rubbing tight circles that make your vision spark white at the edges.
โsay it again,โ he demands softly, voice strained. โplease.โ
โiโm in love with you, sam winchester.โ the words come out breathy, broken by a moan when he hits that perfect angle again. โso in love it scares me sometimes.โ
he kisses you hard, swallowing the sound, hips snapping forward. the tension coils tight and fast, alcohol making everything feel brighter, more intense. you come first, clenching around him with a cry that he muffles against your neck, body shaking through the waves.
sam follows right after, burying himself deep and groaning your name, hips jerking through the aftershocks. for a long moment you just cling to each other, breathing hard, hearts hammering in sync.
he stays inside you while you both come down, pressing soft kisses to your temple, your cheek, the corner of your mouth. โweโre doing this right,โ he whispers, still a little breathless. โthe apartment, the future, all of it. iโm not letting you go.โ
you smile against his skin, drunk and sated and so full of love it hurts in the best way. your fingers thread through his hair, holding him close while the muffled music from the bar pulses on.
the bathroom light is too bright and the counter is uncomfortable and tomorrow youโll probably have a killer hangover, but right now none of that matters. sam is warm and solid and yours, and the words you finally said are still hanging in the air between you like a promise neither of you plan to break.
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IN WHICH. . . Ophelia Calden gets into one too many fights and has to share a school with her brother, landing her smack dab in the middle of a fake dating plot with her brother's roommate, Duke.
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author's note! random come back hello how are you guys
pairing ! bf!sam winchester x chronically ill!reader
summary ! on one of your bad days, sam comforts you.
warnings ! mentions of chronic illness, major fluff, reader has self-esteem issues regarding chronic illness.
wc ! 0.6k (it's a short one sorry)
author's note ! this was lowkey self-indulgent but i love u sam winchester
to be added to my taglist.
The day had been rough. Your body was fighting against you more than usual, and you'd spent most of it feeling useless as you slept off and on. Sam and Dean had left you to your own devices for the most part, caught up in research and scoping out cases. They also knew you preferred to be alone during times like this. You hated when they saw you this weak.
It was past dinner now, and you hadn't really eaten all day due to lack of energy. Your shared room with Sam was lit only by a small lamp in the corner, and you were fast asleep once again in bed. The door opened without your knowledge, and then someone was rubbing your arm.
"Baby," Sam said softly, his hand coming up to brush some hair off your face.
You groaned softly, eyes blinking open to look at him tiredly. They were rimmed red from crying earlier due to the pain, but there was a small smile on your face. "Hi, Sammy," you whispered.
He smiled softly, holding out a package of crackers. "You need to eat something, sweetheart."
You sighed, licking your lips. "I'm nauseous."
You were always nauseous, but sometimes it was worse, like today. Sometimes it felt impossible to eat. Sam, who had learned pretty much everything about you, just nodded, putting the crackers down on the bedside table for later.
He crawled into bed beside you silently, spooning you from behind and wrapping you in his arms. He kissed your head, breathing in your scent. You melted into his embrace. "Missed you today," he murmured into your hair.
"I know. I'm sorry," you whispered back, voice full of guilt. You hated the days you couldn't do anything. With a life like yours, it felt especially hard.
Sam held you tighter. "Don't be." One of his hands slid down, massaging your hip gently. His large fingers dug into your skin perfectly where he knew you hurt extra, and you winced slightly, a soft sigh of satisfaction leaving your lips.
He kissed your hair. "Just relax, sweetheart. I've got you." You let him massage your sore spots, the discomfort from him doing so far outweighed by the temporary relief afterward. "Love you so much," he murmured, kissing your shoulder.
His hand came up, massaging your neck and shoulders next, the pads of his thumbs rubbing hard circles over the areas. You groaned out softly. "I know. I've got you," he whispered.
Once it was over, your body felt a little better and a lot lighter. He wrapped his arms back around you, nuzzling into your neck and holding you close. You sighed softly, eyes closing again. You felt so tired and you hated it.
Hated how useless you were to them. "I'm sorry I'm no help," you mumbled.
Sam shook his head. "Stop," he whispered, rubbing circles over your belly with his thumb. "You are more than enough, exactly like this."
You swallowed, slowly turning around to look at him. "You can't mean that. Half the time I can't even get out of bed for half the day."
He looked at you softly, bringing a hand up to caress your cheek. "Baby, I love you. You get that, right? I love you on your good days and your bad days and every day in between. You're worth more than what your body allows."
You searched his eyes, tears starting to form in yours. He pressed his forehead to yours, holding you close. "Don't cry," he whispered, thumb brushing over your cheek.
You sniffled, giggling softly. "Can't help it. I love you."
He grinned, a light in his eyes as he leaned in and kissed you gently. "I love you so much more."
pairing ! bf!sam winchester x chronically ill!reader
summary ! on one of your bad days, sam comforts you.
warnings ! mentions of chronic illness, major fluff, reader has self-esteem issues regarding chronic illness.
wc ! 0.6k (it's a short one sorry)
author's note ! this was lowkey self-indulgent but i love u sam winchester
to be added to my taglist.
The day had been rough. Your body was fighting against you more than usual, and you'd spent most of it feeling useless as you slept off and on. Sam and Dean had left you to your own devices for the most part, caught up in research and scoping out cases. They also knew you preferred to be alone during times like this. You hated when they saw you this weak.
It was past dinner now, and you hadn't really eaten all day due to lack of energy. Your shared room with Sam was lit only by a small lamp in the corner, and you were fast asleep once again in bed. The door opened without your knowledge, and then someone was rubbing your arm.
"Baby," Sam said softly, his hand coming up to brush some hair off your face.
You groaned softly, eyes blinking open to look at him tiredly. They were rimmed red from crying earlier due to the pain, but there was a small smile on your face. "Hi, Sammy," you whispered.
He smiled softly, holding out a package of crackers. "You need to eat something, sweetheart."
You sighed, licking your lips. "I'm nauseous."
You were always nauseous, but sometimes it was worse, like today. Sometimes it felt impossible to eat. Sam, who had learned pretty much everything about you, just nodded, putting the crackers down on the bedside table for later.
He crawled into bed beside you silently, spooning you from behind and wrapping you in his arms. He kissed your head, breathing in your scent. You melted into his embrace. "Missed you today," he murmured into your hair.
"I know. I'm sorry," you whispered back, voice full of guilt. You hated the days you couldn't do anything. With a life like yours, it felt especially hard.
Sam held you tighter. "Don't be." One of his hands slid down, massaging your hip gently. His large fingers dug into your skin perfectly where he knew you hurt extra, and you winced slightly, a soft sigh of satisfaction leaving your lips.
He kissed your hair. "Just relax, sweetheart. I've got you." You let him massage your sore spots, the discomfort from him doing so far outweighed by the temporary relief afterward. "Love you so much," he murmured, kissing your shoulder.
His hand came up, massaging your neck and shoulders next, the pads of his thumbs rubbing hard circles over the areas. You groaned out softly. "I know. I've got you," he whispered.
Once it was over, your body felt a little better and a lot lighter. He wrapped his arms back around you, nuzzling into your neck and holding you close. You sighed softly, eyes closing again. You felt so tired and you hated it.
Hated how useless you were to them. "I'm sorry I'm no help," you mumbled.
Sam shook his head. "Stop," he whispered, rubbing circles over your belly with his thumb. "You are more than enough, exactly like this."
You swallowed, slowly turning around to look at him. "You can't mean that. Half the time I can't even get out of bed for half the day."
He looked at you softly, bringing a hand up to caress your cheek. "Baby, I love you. You get that, right? I love you on your good days and your bad days and every day in between. You're worth more than what your body allows."
You searched his eyes, tears starting to form in yours. He pressed his forehead to yours, holding you close. "Don't cry," he whispered, thumb brushing over your cheek.
You sniffled, giggling softly. "Can't help it. I love you."
He grinned, a light in his eyes as he leaned in and kissed you gently. "I love you so much more."
summary ! after he messes up again, you ignore him. he gives in and apologies.
warnings ! 18+ mdni. nothing really crazy happens lol. mentions of alcohol consumption, cursing, and a heated kiss.
wc ! 0.9k
author's note ! i lovee this pairing
to be added to my taglist.
The party was in full motion when you arrived. Miniskirt and cropped tank-top on, showing everything but what they all desired most. You applied a layer of lip gloss to your lips before smacking them together. You put the lip gloss back in its spot in your purse, before getting out of your car and locking it.
The first to notice you was Topper, and you watched as he gained Rafe's attention. You rolled your eyes, ignoring the group of guys as you headed inside toward the drink table. You grabbed a beer, screwing the top off and taking a sip.
It didn't take long before Rafe was beside you, a few feet of distance and a scowl on his face. Neither of you spoke, and you didn't look at him, just watched the party. The silence went on for a few seconds before one of your friends called your name, and you smiled, not giving him a glance as you walked over to her.
You were in no mood for Rafe Cameron tonight. Of course, you purposefully showed up here to piss him off, but you had no plans on interacting with him. He needed to be taught a lesson. He was not going to treat you like one of his hookups and get away with it.
You were no one's one-night stand.
Sure, you and Rafe weren't official, and that was fine, but you weren't just fucking, either. If he wanted to act otherwise, you would show him just how easy it'd be to dump him completely. You didn't need to make him jealous. No, you didn't care to make him jealous.
If he wanted you, he had to get you. Not because you were with other guys. Because he wanted your attention. You knew he did, even if he refused to say it, but you weren't going to chase him for it.
His attention was nice, sure, and yeah, you liked being with himโbut you were not a man chaser. You would not change your values for Rafe Cameron of all men.
You leaned against a wall, scoping out the party as your friends danced near you. You weren't grumpy, you were just observing. You took another gulp of your beer, and when your head leveled again, Rafe was in front of you.
"You gonna ignore me all night?" he grumbled, clearly over your attitude.
You blinked at him, before looking past him toward the party like he wasn't there. Rafe growled deep in his throat, his jaw clenching. He stepped closer, hovering over you. Your eyes met his, but you didn't speak. "Stop that shit."
You licked the gloss on your lips, pushing your beer bottle into his chest, forcing him to grab it, before you walked away, hips swinging as you did so.
Rafe stared at you. Noโglared at you, his jaw ticking. "Fucking drama queen," he grumbled, tossing your beer bottle in the trashcan.
You got about halfway across the room before he was grabbing your arm. "I'm sorry, okay? Stop fucking ignorin' me."
You pulled your arm out of his grip, crossing your arms. "Sorry for what?"
Rafe swiped his tongue over the inside of his cheek, turning his head to look to the side, shaking it. "Fuck, you're a piece of work." You rolled your eyes, turning back around to walk away. He grabbed your arm again. "Okay, okay."
You huffed, pulling out of his grip again. "Would youโ" He pinched the bridge of his nose, sighing. "I'm sorry for treating you like shit the other day."
You scoffed. "You call that an apology?"
Rafe huffed, looking around. He grabbed your hands, eyes on yours. "Let me make it up to you. Whatever you want."
You tilted your head. "Show them," you said simply. His eyes flickered with confusion. "Show them how much you want me. I'm not just your fuck buddy, and you better stop acting like it."
His jaw worked, his hands tightening in yours. His hesitation was enough of an answer for you. He felt you pulling out of his grip, and he held on tighter. "Fuck," he muttered. He leaned in, pressing his forehead to yours.
"I know you're not just my fuck buddy," he whispered, caressing your cheek. You clearly weren't impressed. "Can you just- just be with me tonight, yeah? I'll show you off. I'll fuckin' worship you, ma. Just stop this shit."
"Your ego hates when I ignore you, doesn't it?" You raised an eyebrow.
"It's not my damn ego," he grumbled. "It's me. I- fuck, baby, can't stand when you do this shit."
"And I can't stand when you pull your shit," you rebutted, narrowing your eyes.
He sighed, nudging your nose with his. You let him. "I know, I'm sorry. I just- I fuckin' screw up, a lot. I know that. I'm tryin' here, baby. Just...don't ignore me, okay?" He moved his head, nuzzling your neck. "Please, ma," he whispered.
There it was. The groveling. It's what he always did. You always let him.
You sighed, eyes closing as he started kissing your neck softly. He was clearly serious this time because he was doing it in front of everybody. You dragged a hand into his hair, pulling his head back. "Fine. You're forgiven, for now."
He didn't smile, didn't thank you. He just leaned in, kissing you deeply, tongue slipping into your mouth as he held you close. "Fuckin' missed you," he groaned, one hand on your ass as the other cupped your face.
You tugged at his hair, melting into the kiss slightly. Just enough for it to feel good, never enough for anyone who was watching to think he had a hold of you.
summary ! after he messes up again, you ignore him. he gives in and apologies.
warnings ! 18+ mdni. nothing really crazy happens lol. mentions of alcohol consumption, cursing, and a heated kiss.
wc ! 0.9k
author's note ! i lovee this pairing
to be added to my taglist.
The party was in full motion when you arrived. Miniskirt and cropped tank-top on, showing everything but what they all desired most. You applied a layer of lip gloss to your lips before smacking them together. You put the lip gloss back in its spot in your purse, before getting out of your car and locking it.
The first to notice you was Topper, and you watched as he gained Rafe's attention. You rolled your eyes, ignoring the group of guys as you headed inside toward the drink table. You grabbed a beer, screwing the top off and taking a sip.
It didn't take long before Rafe was beside you, a few feet of distance and a scowl on his face. Neither of you spoke, and you didn't look at him, just watched the party. The silence went on for a few seconds before one of your friends called your name, and you smiled, not giving him a glance as you walked over to her.
You were in no mood for Rafe Cameron tonight. Of course, you purposefully showed up here to piss him off, but you had no plans on interacting with him. He needed to be taught a lesson. He was not going to treat you like one of his hookups and get away with it.
You were no one's one-night stand.
Sure, you and Rafe weren't official, and that was fine, but you weren't just fucking, either. If he wanted to act otherwise, you would show him just how easy it'd be to dump him completely. You didn't need to make him jealous. No, you didn't care to make him jealous.
If he wanted you, he had to get you. Not because you were with other guys. Because he wanted your attention. You knew he did, even if he refused to say it, but you weren't going to chase him for it.
His attention was nice, sure, and yeah, you liked being with himโbut you were not a man chaser. You would not change your values for Rafe Cameron of all men.
You leaned against a wall, scoping out the party as your friends danced near you. You weren't grumpy, you were just observing. You took another gulp of your beer, and when your head leveled again, Rafe was in front of you.
"You gonna ignore me all night?" he grumbled, clearly over your attitude.
You blinked at him, before looking past him toward the party like he wasn't there. Rafe growled deep in his throat, his jaw clenching. He stepped closer, hovering over you. Your eyes met his, but you didn't speak. "Stop that shit."
You licked the gloss on your lips, pushing your beer bottle into his chest, forcing him to grab it, before you walked away, hips swinging as you did so.
Rafe stared at you. Noโglared at you, his jaw ticking. "Fucking drama queen," he grumbled, tossing your beer bottle in the trashcan.
You got about halfway across the room before he was grabbing your arm. "I'm sorry, okay? Stop fucking ignorin' me."
You pulled your arm out of his grip, crossing your arms. "Sorry for what?"
Rafe swiped his tongue over the inside of his cheek, turning his head to look to the side, shaking it. "Fuck, you're a piece of work." You rolled your eyes, turning back around to walk away. He grabbed your arm again. "Okay, okay."
You huffed, pulling out of his grip again. "Would youโ" He pinched the bridge of his nose, sighing. "I'm sorry for treating you like shit the other day."
You scoffed. "You call that an apology?"
Rafe huffed, looking around. He grabbed your hands, eyes on yours. "Let me make it up to you. Whatever you want."
You tilted your head. "Show them," you said simply. His eyes flickered with confusion. "Show them how much you want me. I'm not just your fuck buddy, and you better stop acting like it."
His jaw worked, his hands tightening in yours. His hesitation was enough of an answer for you. He felt you pulling out of his grip, and he held on tighter. "Fuck," he muttered. He leaned in, pressing his forehead to yours.
"I know you're not just my fuck buddy," he whispered, caressing your cheek. You clearly weren't impressed. "Can you just- just be with me tonight, yeah? I'll show you off. I'll fuckin' worship you, ma. Just stop this shit."
"Your ego hates when I ignore you, doesn't it?" You raised an eyebrow.
"It's not my damn ego," he grumbled. "It's me. I- fuck, baby, can't stand when you do this shit."
"And I can't stand when you pull your shit," you rebutted, narrowing your eyes.
He sighed, nudging your nose with his. You let him. "I know, I'm sorry. I just- I fuckin' screw up, a lot. I know that. I'm tryin' here, baby. Just...don't ignore me, okay?" He moved his head, nuzzling your neck. "Please, ma," he whispered.
There it was. The groveling. It's what he always did. You always let him.
You sighed, eyes closing as he started kissing your neck softly. He was clearly serious this time because he was doing it in front of everybody. You dragged a hand into his hair, pulling his head back. "Fine. You're forgiven, for now."
He didn't smile, didn't thank you. He just leaned in, kissing you deeply, tongue slipping into your mouth as he held you close. "Fuckin' missed you," he groaned, one hand on your ass as the other cupped your face.
You tugged at his hair, melting into the kiss slightly. Just enough for it to feel good, never enough for anyone who was watching to think he had a hold of you.
pairing ! fratboy!jenko (undercover as brad mcquaid) x maneater!reader
summary ! when โbradโ spots you at a party, zook turns his attraction into a game of beer pong.
warnings ! ย 18+, slight suggestive themes, frat boy atmosphere, cursing, jenko undercover so his name is brad lol. fem!reader.
wc ! 804
author's note ! first channing tatum character oneshot let's goooo.
to be added to my taglist.
The air in Zeta was pounding. Booze was everywhere, women all over, and frat boys tearing up the place. You were shotgunning a beer against Rooster, who was losing. From across the room, Zook and McQuaid were playing beer pong, Brad sinking the last ball into their opponents cup.
The crowd went wild, and Brad and Zook jumped into the air, chest-bumping. "Dude, you're a beast!" Zook shouted, shaking Brad's shoulders.
The crowd from across the room roared as you finished off your beer first, crushing the can and throwing it on the ground, tossing your hands in the air. "Suck my dick, Rooster!" You laughed, letting two frat guys pick you up on their shoulders and spin you around.
Rooster cursed, tossing his can on the ground after crushing it. You threw your head back, laughing. Brad and Zook's eyes scanned over the scene, Brad's landing on you. "Who's that?" he asked Zook.
Zook chuckled, hitting his chest. "No chance, man. She's a killer. Like, majorly. Senior and I've heard of max three guys who've gotten past a kiss." Brad looked at Zook, shrugging. Zook shook his head, cupping his hands over his mouth. "Yo, Y/N!"
Your head turned toward Zook, and you chuckled, tapping the frat boys' shoulders to put you down. Once on the ground, you walked over to the two, eyeing Brad up and down. "What's up, Zook?"
"You met Brad yet?"
You crossed your arms, shaking your head. "You're the guy who shoulder checked the fuck out of Rooster at Walk-On Day, right?"
Brad chuckled, nodding. "Yep."
You tilted your head. "You're hot. Brad, was it?"
Zook smiled, hitting your shoulder softly. "You should see his beer pong game. He's better than you."
You scoffed. "No chance."
Brad raised an eyebrow. "Is that a challenge?" He glanced between you and Zook, a smirk on his face.
"I think that's a challenge, dude," Zook responded.
You shrugged. "What's the win?"
"You win, I do your bidding for a week. He wins, he gets a kiss," Zook proposed.
A pause. "Okay, bet. Let's go."
You walked to one side of the table, setting up the cups. Zook whistled, hitting Brad's chest. "Better win dude, I'm not carrying her cheerleading shit for a week," he told him, and Brad laughed.
The game set up quickly, and then it was on. For a little bit, you were far in the lead, and then just like that, Brad was right behind you, neck and neck. Your squad was cheering for you, and the boys were crowded around Brad, shouting at him.
"Could've picked a better beer, Zook," you told him as you downed a cup.
Zook shrugged, winking at you. He was trying to throw you off your game. Your eyes flickered between Brad and the table as you played, a small smirk on your face. You were sure you had this in the bag. No one had beaten you in two years. No way some Freshman was.
You each had one cup left, and you ended up missing your shot. You cursed under your breath, watching as Brad took his shot. The ball sunk, and you groaned, downing the cup of beer. Brad and Zook shouted, chest-bumping again as the frat boys went crazy.
You shook your head, laughing. "Well played." You walked over to Brad, looking up at him. "Deal's a deal." You grabbed his face, pulling him down to your level and pressing your lips to his.
The kiss was supposed to be quick and simple, but hell, he was a great kisser. He pulled you closer, wrapping his arms around you, hand on your ass. You deepened the kiss, ignoring the whistles from Zook and Rooster and the murmurs of the crowd as you tugged on his hair.
His tongue slipped into your mouth and you groaned softly, following suit. The kiss lasted about thirty more seconds, before you slowly pulled back, biting your lip. His eyes stayed on you, flickering between yours and your lips.
"Damn," he mumbled.
"Zook, marker me," you said, looking at him. Zook jumped up, whooping as he grabbed a marker from the table. He tossed it to you, and you uncapped it, grabbing Brad's arm.
You scribbled your number down on his inner-forearm, capping the marker and tossing it back to Zook. You grabbed the bandana that was hanging out of your pocket, tying it around his wrist. "Call me sometime," you told him, turning around and walking over to your squad.
Brad stood there, watching as you walked away. Rooster and Zook came up behind him, hollering at him as they shook him. "Dude, she just branded you!" Rooster told him, chuckling.
"W-what?" Brad asked, shaking his head and looking between the two of them.
"That"โZook pointed toward the bandana tied around his wristโ"my bro, is a brand. Means no other cheerleader can touch you. She just claimed your ass!"
Brad looked across the room at you, and your eyes met his, winking.