controlled chaos

blogging to distract from my quarter life crisis

[memory-of-stargazing]

“It just means you have to work double as hard as most people!”

Well maybe I don’t WANT to work double as hard as abled people!! Maybe I deserve a BREAK!! Maybe I’ve been working MORE THAN double as hard for MY WHOLE LIFE and it’s led me to immense burnout & caused me to develop several MORE disabilities!! Maybe I should be ACCOMMODATED so I don’t have to KILL MY BODY AND BRAIN over trying to do what abled people can do!! Maybe I DON’T have to work double as hard!! Maybe if there’s the option to let me NOT work double as hard, I should have it, because I’m already working double as hard JUST TO SURVIVE!!

Why do you think disabled people deserve less rest than mentally & physically abled people?

[90s-kid-sad-adult]

lie to me

[mentally-at-home]

[seven-winged-liar]

the whole 'nobody would miss me if i were gone' line of reasoning is so completely and mindblowingly false, it's almost laughable if you take a couple steps back. there's a lady at work who has been there for maybe two or three weeks and has only talked to me a handful of times, ask where the necklace i usually wear went. another person asked where i was cause i wasn't scheduled for about a week. i regularly think of friends who have deactivated their accounts or who i've lost contact with and what id tell them. i still think about people i haven't talked to for years even though i didn't know them well. people still think about you even if you're a passing specter on the street. and that's not even holding a candle to how much the people who are personally involved in your life care. people do notice and care. all the time. it might be hard to see it or remember it but people do care. ily.

[electronicmail]

oh ew is that really what i sowed? eww omigod i am NOT reaping that

[bibastibootz]

„Fist my bump.“

my crochet interpretation of Rocky from Andy Weir‘s novel Project Hail Mary 🎶

[ursulaklegay]

actually i love growing older and learning how i work as a person like realizing what kinds of fabrics feel best on my skin or what brand of yogurt i like best or how I want to be touched. watching myself change, enjoying brussel sprouts when I used to hate them as a child, understanding why I got angry in that one conversation 10 years ago… there are so many mysteries inside me that i have yet to unravel and there will always be more and sometimes i think maybe its all worth it

[cryptotheism]

Ain't my circus but I would know my monkeys anywhere.

[bigandlong]

If you see this on your dashboard, reblog this, NO MATTER WHAT and all your dreams and wishes will come true.

[jae-felidae]

Oh hey! Haven’t seen this in forever! Didn’t reblog it when it came across me before, not gonna skip it this time, I need some good vibes.

[catchymemes]

[infinitydivine]

I am not taking a risk

[darlingsstern]

Not risking it pals

[doralimasstuff]

U know what I want potato of luck

[shrewreadings]

Damn right I’m reblogging. See previous post re wrath of whatever from high atop the thing.

[luffymon123]

#Golden Potato luck

[danikoshi]

JWST recently released a raw image of Saturn, which looks incredible. But it also means that its gas giant collection is complete!!

Bask in their gaseous glory and Webb's stellar performance!

[stitchposts]

[streetlight-spam]

it’s monday i’m in the labyrinth

[streetlight-spam]

it’s tuesday i’m in the evil lab

[streetlight-spam]

it’s wednesday i’m in the time loop

[streetlight-spam]

it’s thursday i’m in the medieval torture apparatus

[streetlight-spam]

🌸it’s friday i’m in love🌸

[amorremanet]

#I don't care for Monday's maze #Tuesday Wednesday time-loop haze #Thursday in the rack's embrace #It's Friday I'm in love (via @hartshorn-and-isinglass)

[sandersstudies]

Why does it feel weird and intimate to mention that someone was in even the most innocuous of your dreams? Sorry my subconscious decided to think about you for a second. You were a curator at an ice cream museum that was also my second grade classroom. If you even care.

[etherealspacejelly]

me when the disability disables me: oh what the fuck? this sucks. what the hell man!

[surrah698]

My poor, sensitive nervous system... 😭

Gotta make sure to get plenty of rest!

[greensaplinggrace]

buffy spends like five seasons mourning the fact that nobody on earth can match her freak and then fucking spike shows up and does exactly that and the shock of it nearly kills her. tragic for everyone involved maybe but hilarious to me personally, because i cannot imagine a better suited weirdo to stick around lmfao

[clarkgriffon]

RUPERT GILES + text posts