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I can think about you.. right?

I can miss you..... right?

Can I? Is it wrong to miss you? It feels like a sin.

I hate you. But I miss you..

To my son,

I’m sorry that you will soon have no choice but to feel lost and forgotten about.. to feel like you weren’t worth the change, that you weren’t wanted.

I’m sorry that your biological dad is absent and I’m sorry that you think it’s because of you. It’s not. He’s missing out on an amazing beautiful baby boy.

He will never be able to feel the joy of having you around, or how contagious your smile and laughter are. Or how you’re learning new things everyday and you’re sooooo smart, but I do. I get to enjoy every second of having you here with me, being my best friend. I love you to the moon and back kiddo, you’re innocence will forever be treasured in my heart. So screw that pathetic asshole of a man who you call your father. Anyone can be a father but it takes a man to be a dad and you get to have that.

There are days that go by, some days I HATE YOU. Some days, I MISS YOU, and some days I think I might even love you. Despite EVERYTHING that you put me through and the fact that you’re now a ghost haunting my memories, I still think about you.

I wonder if you think about me.. I wonder if for even the slightest second you feel disgusted and disappointed with yourself. If you look back and think about how your child and I are being affected by your empty presence everyday...

The hope you have is lying to you, let it go before it destroys you.

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writtenbydemons

I'm not the type of person to give up on someone. Yes, sometimes I get really mad and upset so I need a minute to calm down but I'll never abandon you. I don't leave people and I think that's why it always hurts so bad when people leave me.