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Goals so I don't fold again

OSW: 210lbs PGW: 135lbs CW: 131 lbs GW1: 120 lbs GW2: 115 lbs UGW: 110 lbs

#just slightly updating the goals for 2026 cause i just realized i'm coming back here on the exact same day a year later lmfao #to sum up: recovered briefly (130) then started concerta in early sep and got down to 115 in early oct #but was then put in iop and taken off of concerta by my therapist who stopped responding after the holidays lol #but! i am now on adderall and am alone pretty constantly so i'm hopeful to be back at my lowest weight soon :)

sceptixfakemon

does anyone else also feel extremely uncomfortable with the number of "dark side of testosterone" "bad things about t" "gross testosterone hrt side effects doctors won't tell you about" articles/posts/videos that are around the internet. with most of the information being downright false or exaggerated to scare young trans men and mascs out of taking t. please is anyone else also really angry about this i feel insane

local-neighborhood-rat

Good effects of T!

-hot

-sexy

-penis

-awesome muscles

-strong+fast+energy

-chiseled Chad jawline

-no dysphoria

syn4k

ok note to self i gotta leave the house regularly so that i dont feel like im slowly transforming into an evil fucking shadow clone of myself

syn4k

So as it turns out your sense of self doesnt exist in a vacuum. You gotta actually use it and bounce it off of other people like echolocation to see where you are as a person and shit. So if you dont regularly interact with other people the echoes just get weaker and weaker and before you know it your personality is a blurry fucked up fog clone of its former self. which it sucks because this makes it really hard to interact with people again but yknow

wizardarchetypes

anyway every time i post about ocd people start tagging the post like "wait this isn't normal?" and i always like to remind people that intrusive thoughts are normal. pretty much everyone experiences them. "what if i jumped off this balcony?" "what if i crashed my car right now for no reason?" "what if i yelled a curse word in the middle of this wedding?" everyone thinks these things from time to time. it's disordered thinking when the distress starts becoming intolerable.

"am i normal" is not as helpful question to ask as "are intrusive thoughts causing me frequent distress?" and "would my life be better if i could find a way to feel less distress/learn to tolerate the distress?"

millions and millions of people have ocd. having ocd is normal. you're normal. but what if you could feel better? what if living everyday in your own mind and body could be tolerable? is that something you want? need? these are questions to ask.