HUMANITY / LOST.

as a human, what kind of achievements will you leave behind? private && selective izaya orihara from drrr. informed by VIXEN i bet you’ll leave behind a legacy as a psychotic killer, and that thrills me! he is an informant. this is not to exaggerate --- he is but one man. he is by no means anything like a hero, nor can it be said that he is a villain. nor is he nothing. he is only true. he is eternally obedient only to his own desire’s. HUMANS. he is determined to continue loving the good & the bad of the masses that are included in this world. he simply just loves humans. because even if the result of his love causes his humans to become broken, the informant can still love these broken humans equally.

[kemonous]

          if i have to ask one more person not to reblog my junk i’m honestly going to have a god damn hernia. this is a rp blog,  fam. having people reblog my ooc posts / asks / replies is fucking up my notifications. last time someone reblogged a ooc post i made it blew up to over 400 notes before i could catch it.    ya’ll.   Please.  

[gryffindorglamour]

[rusushiii]

Put me through hell again, I miss the fire Make me your mess again, do it tonight Come on and break me down, I’ll let you ruin my day Flow through my veins I need a fix Bitter and sick

[kemonous]

me @ my muse:  why are you so damn difficult why can’t you make friends why are you like this son i’m Begging you,,,,,,,,

[kemonous]

     ❛   you are going to die in your best friend’s arms.   &     you play along because it’s funny,               because it’s written down, you’ve memorized it.   it’s all you know. i say the phrases that keep it all going, & everyone plays along. imagine: someone’s pulling a gun,                                          &     you’re jumping into the middle of it.  you didn’t think you’d feel this way.   ❜ 

             izaya orihara,    as informed by VIXEN    &                       shizuo heiwajima,    fought by LUDWIG                                                                                                  & art credit.

[kemonous]

 ||   MONSTER  ⌫

               ‘ don’t let that get to your head. it’s just a name. ’ he brushes it off as quickly as he can, barely meeting the eyes of the man in the bed as he speaks. because it’s obvious, because he knows it always was, even if he chose to ignore it himself. the unspoken SOMETHING between them – lingering touches and knowing glances; the way they could seem to speak without using words, hold out silent conversation, bicker like married men and yet they never dared bring it up. never let on around others. it was just work between them; they made that clear. 

               so when hand covers his own, he shifts his fingers away – DON’T BREAK THIS FAÇADE, SHIZUO. DON’T RUIN THE MASK. he glances down at his own phone, eyes turning anywhere other than his boss when he winced in pain and attempted to shift back. 

               ‘ dunno. i think he wanted to make sure you’d wake up. ’ a pause, and finally he looks up at izaya, a brow raised slightly. ‘ any idea who’d wanna shoot you? i imagine it’s a pretty long list, honestly. ’ 

                         lips manage a SMIRK,       though for the most part,  he was in HORRIBLE PAIN.    despite the nickname,   shizuo breaking contact so quickly implied minimal interest in keeping him comfortable -- -- --   his gaze softens for a moment,    eyes fluttering closed to try &  block out some of the pain. it hurt so badly.        his brain tried to focus,     trying to think who might have been behind this. 

             ❛    honestly . . . i don’t really care,     ❜     he breathed,    teeth scrapping chapped lips as red hot pain shot through his body at every ADJUSTMENT.   every slight move he made caused his body to ache.  whatever shinra gave him must have been wearing off.               ❛    could have been anyone.   shizu-chan,     can i  -- -- --  have some water ?       ❜                                                           izaya’s voice was barely a whisper,    head spinning   &   teeth grinding.     whoever shot him had multiple people with him.    maybe it wasn’t even  RELATED  to his work. could’ve been some street punks that got their hands on a firearm somehow. 

[kemonous]

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You ruined me.

[anqelsheart]

[kemonous]

What would happen if you ever actually loved someone? Platonic or romantic?

           i’m going to answer this one ooc if that’s okay!     given how he treated his sisters,    &   his subconscious love for them,   i would have to say it would probably be really unhealthy.   he tends to balance out his displays of affection with really spiteful / hateful comments.   he doesn’t want to allow himself to get close to people, because he’s used to being alone  &  feels more comfortable observing than being a part of relationships.  i also play him as aromantic,  so he probably wouldn’t have much desire at all to be in a romantic relationship.  not to say he couldn’t,   but honestly,  he’s too immature  & too damaged to love someone in a healthy way.       platonic relationships are probably very much the same.  he’s just not comfortable opening up to people,  & with trust issues like that, it kinda makes a real relationship of any kind pointless.  

[kemonous]

Do you love your parents, Izaya? Would you be sad if they died?

               ❛    the short answer to your INCREDIBLY INTRUSIVE question would be  – – – no.     i don’t care for them either way.   i wouldn’t be sad.   i wouldn’t be HAPPY,      either.  in all honesty,    i don’t care.  even calling them parents     seems a GENEROUS.    ❜                       why would he cry over two people he barely knew ?    at the most,  he valued their lives as human beings.   nothing more. 

[kemonous]

     shirou & kyouko orihara, while both loving parents in their own way,   had very little to do with izaya’s upbringing. they both traveled & worked almost constantly, he was often left to his own devices as a child. because the first five years of life are especially crucial for development,  he lacked what most healthy children had at his age. any hope of social or emotional development was overshadowed by his love for knowledge & interest in observing others. his interest in observing derives from his inability to maintain any meaningful relationships,     due to the fact that he was never given proper parental love in his developmental stages as a child.   for the most part,   the only real relationships he ever had in terms of a caregiver were relationships bought for him by his parents.             this is further examined when he hires namie, more for companionship than anything else, as he truly has no use for a secretary. 

at age 10, his parents had two more children. because he’d already gone through his most critical stages of development,  he lacked the ability to truly love or care for them. or rather,  he had that ability – he just chose not to. by withdrawing as he’d done his entire life,  he was never put in the position where he would be hurt by the actions of others. having parents who are never around is damaging to any child, but by withdrawing & not allowing himself to feel any certain way about his parents, he could protect himself from the pain and disappointment of feeling unloved. this is also seen in his early years at school, where he focused entirely on being the best student & being most active in all after school activities. he was completely isolated from the teachers & the rest of the student body,  because he grew up learning that connections & bonds would only hurt him in the long run. 

however, he is noted to having had a hand in his sisters upbringing  (  a big ass mistake, honestly )       without a mother or father, izaya often took the role of guardian over his sisters. more of an obligation than anything else. cooking, cleaning, helping with homework — all things a parent should do for a child, izaya did for his sisters. this caused him to feel uncomfortably close to them,   & he would often balance this feeling by being unnecessarily cruel to them in the way he spoke. he was never taught a proper way of dealing with family,  which is why he finds them so annoying. he has NO IDEA how to deal with them. 

to izaya, relationships bring pain. this is why he’s always, ALWAYS objective & goes out of his way to assist all sides in any confrontation.  by not choosing one side, he can go on as if he doesn’t truly care about the outcome of any situation. he simply wants to see how people work through conflicts,   &  how they maintain their humanity in tough situations. by forcing others to deal with what he himself cannot,   he gets to observe relationships first hand without getting hurt. his neutrality is often seen as malice,   but really,  he loves all human beings. he loves watching conflict,  he loves watching it get resolved,  & more than anything it’s the only way he knows how to interact with people. from the sidelines.  

[siickangel]

[kemonous]

also, i hate my roommate. 

[kemonous]

my kink: izaya opening up to literally anyone