Da Diary

I can’t spell so I hope the title isn’t referring to milk products

[kenthedollsdairy]

Intro Pooossst

Hi my name is Kendall, hence the username.

My pronouns are She/Her but I’m not picky

This is my side-blog, but the purpose of this is to, essentially, be my diary. I will post rants, shit posts, general thoughts and ideas as they come to me. I’ll tag stuff for trigger warnings if necessary, but otherwise everything is coming straight off the dome.

A little about me though, is that my favorite animals are birds(nonspecific for a reason), my favorite color is green, I’m from the Great Plains area of the USA, I have a cat, I was a warrior cats kid, LOOVEEE music of all kinds(I sing, play, and perform), and I <3 Art

Feel free to send me asks and I’m happy to be friends and chat! :)

[byjove]

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[kenthedollsdairy]

It’s mbortion time

[kyberinthevoid]

I hate that “chat” now makes people think of chatgpt. no. I’m asking my imaginary greek chorus twitch audience.

[chronophobica]

what they DONT tell you about clarinets is that you have to fucking build the damn thing every single time. "what instrument do you play" fucking legos man idk

[kenthedollsdairy]

Finding my fraternity president on tinder doing the double date thing with the grad student I used to take lessons from is so jarring but also hilarious to me

[natalieironside]

Due to my weird childhood and my weird brain, I have this very unhelpful compulsion to conceal Everything I do from Everyone. I Cannot be observed performing any action, no matter how mundane. My nervous system is convinced I'm gonna, like, Get In Trouble for eating food at dinnertime or sleeping in my bed at bedtime.

I've taken to asking myself, "Okay does this task actually require subterfuge or am I stealing a balloon on Free Balloon Day"

[kenthedollsdairy]

Campus parking, count ur goddamn days…

Kill All Parking Tickets >:(

[elliejaybird]

the other app didn’t appreciate this one do you guys want it

[kenthedollsdairy]

Honestly, living with a wasp infestation for YEARS of my life has made me so much more tolerant towards them.

I ❤️ mud daubers (when they’re not in my house)

[kenthedollsdairy]

Ummm idk if this is common or what to do about this or even if I should do something. But I recently ran into an account that posts a bunch of people’s art, uncredited and without permission. I only found it cause they started following my main and on their most recent post is MY profile picture.

The right is my mains pfp. But like what do I do? It looks like there’s a lot of art that they’ve just stolen and reposted.

Should I report it or what?

[kenthedollsdairy]

Hear me out: lesbian murder mystery.

A girl dies and her “best friend,” or at least that’s what everyone assumes they are, is so upset and adamant about looking into it and helping and all this, but her parent and the dead girls parent are both detectives but the dead girls parent is benched because of personal connection to the case so their very informed and involved but they both keep trying to tell her to relax and calm down but the more they look into it they start to suspect her and why she’s been with her like every hour of every day and then it’s revealed they were actually lovers. Gasp! Idk what happens from there, or who did it but like, the they have to have a whole coming out scene to the parents who didn’t know and also a posthumous coming out and like how the now dead girl didn’t feel comfortable enough to come out or talk about their relationship to them.

Anyways. Whole point is. Lesbian murder mystery and the divide that homophobia or the fear of it can divide families :)

[kenthedollsdairy]

I hate squirrels

Official squirrel hater post 😡

[kenthedollsdairy]

I feel like I am exuberating Autism right now like-

And if one more person gets mad at me because I don’t know what to do I’m exploding everyone with my mind.

[kenthedollsdairy]

RE: House elves.

So in the books, when Hermione discovers that hundreds of house elves are employed at Hogwarts for no pay, she tries to start an organisation called SPEW - The Society for the Protection of Elvish Welfare. This was meant to be a humourous take on The Society for Promoting Employment of Women - and organisation that was founded in the mid 19th century. The original SPEW recognised that women were essentially being treated as slaves within the home - being expected to cook, clean, raise children etc. for no pay other than the privilege of "being looked after by their husbands". This is reflected in the way house elves are treated in Harry Potter (they belong to families (or "masters"), and are deeply faithful to them) and like many women or 150 years ago (and even some modern ones- see "tradwives"!) they also genuinely believe this status quo is how things "should be".

Now, coming to this fic author using AAVE with the elves - that sounds like they are bringing in their own personal associations to chattel slavery into their work - which is something I've seen a lot of people do. On the surface it seems to make sense, but when you look deeper, it really doesn't add up. Unlike real human slaves, house elves cannot be bought or sold among families or "masters". What's more, they are overall pretty content and happy with their role in serving others and lack of freedom - which doesn't really fit well with chattel slavery at all, but absolutely does when you think of women who have been brainwashed by centuries of societal influence into thinking they should be home-makers without pay.

If you associate house elves with chattel slavery - when everyone makes fun of Hermione for trying to free the elves it looks like they're saying "Silly Hermione! Slavery is good and they like like it so stop trying to interfere!" which obviously sounds terrible. But actually a closer analogy would be Hermione going around and trying to pull housewives out of their homes and telling them that they should be looking for paid employment instead - whether they want to or not.

Thanks Anon! I didn’t know that, the character of house elves definitely makes much more sense knowing this.

[kenthedollsdairy]

If I get one more comment on posts that I JUST MADE that are very obviously scams I’m EXPLODING and taking EVERYONE WITH ME

[kenthedollsdairy]

Not something unique or niche by any means, but I read Harry Potter fanfiction. The funny part about it is that I’ve never consumed any original media. Haven’t watched the movies, haven’t read the books. This makes for an interesting reading experience, especially when I first started. That being said, I have NO IDEA how any of these characters and peoples were originally portrayed. This is relevant because in the fic I’m currently reading (more accurately, listening to) the characterization of the house elves are really bothering me. And not the fact that they’re slaves, that has been established I know about that and I will say every fic handles the conversation of slavery different. Some well, others not so much. But what’s really starting to grate on my nerves is the language they use in fics.

I understand it’s to try and show that they are uneducated and a lesser species(race?) but having their speaking voice be, essentially, AAVE is verrrry telling about what the author thinks of black people. ESPECIALLY if the house elf is happy to be a slave, believes they must all be slaves and that it’s a good thing. Like… Is this Purdue’s alt fan account? Why are we saying the slaves are happy to be SLAVES while also having them mimic harmful stereotypes of black people.

That being said I understand it’s usually not the focus of, like, a 4k fic where the whole point is smut. But if I’m gonna be here for almost a million words… We can do better.

And like I said, some cover the topic better, bringing up the systematic issue of it all and how being free doesn’t help if they can’t also be independent, and also the narrative that they can’t speak up for themselves and have to be advocated for by someone who hasn’t even lived the experience (talking over not with).

[kenthedollsdairy]

Convinced my cousin to get tumblr simply by talking about it. She loves it so much she convinced her best friend to get too. Though convinced is a little strong, she said fanart and immediately her friend was like, “woooah how’d this get on my phone?!”

Anyways, I’m spreading the good word.

[kenthedollsdairy]

Something that’s been pointed out to me, not recently, but I was thinking about it again, is that I’ve never liked/dated/made out with a white girl (I’m white btw (and a lesbian)). Is that racist? Like idk the fact that I’m aware of it makes me feel like it’s low key racist. And it isn’t like there’s been any big similarity between any of these women except for the fact they’re not white, like, idk. Is it wierd that I think about it?

I just remember telling my friends I made out with a girl I had just met a concert and I was telling them about her and how beautiful she was, I never thought I had to clarify she was black until like a week later they wanted to see what she looked like and I showed a picture and they were all completely flabbergasted. And then the girl I dated after was Vietnamese, and the girl I have been crushing on all semester is Laos. But even before I was gay one of my close friends was telling me she might be bi and the only thing I was thinking was “for me?” Don’t know how it took me years after that to figure myself the fuck out but like, looking back on it, she was my first gay crush. I mean I was fantasizing about what it would be like to date her. NOBODY knew about that though. So when my guy friend was like “you’d probably date her to cause she’s Korean” like that’s not why but I definitely would have dated her, we got really close again last year and bro, I liked her like that again. She also figured herself out, though, and unfortunately, she’s straight.

And like, none of them have looked the same, different skin tone, different body types, different face shape, we just often have things in common. I.e. fanfic, fandoms, anime, music taste, and the like. But also, I’m not in a very queer or diverse area, like my options for gay girls are very limited, and I AM NOT dating a high schooler. All the girls that happen to be gay so far haven’t been white. I just, i don’t know. I don’t know.

And like the guys that I’ve been with/like(im going through a sexuality crisis AGAIN >:|) have been white. And for part of it I look at who I’m friends with and it’s a lot more diverse on the girls portion than the men so like. But also I’m friends with more girls than guys and that’s because I’m usually involved in more women dominated activities, choir, band, theater, book clubs, art clubs, like not a lot of men there.

Idk, I guess what I’m trying to ask, is it weird that I’m so aware of race when it comes to my dating history?