Life’s Journey

Wife💍 Bonus Mom of 4 and Mommy of 1 ♥️ Cat Mom and Dog Mom 🐾

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I know I haven’t been on here in a very long time. Partially because I had gotten a new phone and my life has been crazy. Well now that I’m back here, my heart is torn. I had to get a hysterectomy at 31 years old. I know it had to be done for my health, but that doesn’t make it any easier. The heal time is 6-8 weeks of doing nothing. I can’t lift anything or do really anything but sit. Which means all of this sitting makes me think about how I will never be able to have more children, even though I know we weren’t going to be having anymore. Just knowing I can’t physically hurts me. I’m used to doing everything for everyone and since i can’t do anything, it’s hard for me to see things not get done. From me constantly on the go, to me not doing anything is hard.

I do need some suggestions, since I can’t do much. I am reading, coloring, playing games on my phone. What else can I do, as just sitting here is driving me crazy and leaving me to think about all of this.

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Going through everything we have been through with my daughter Jesslyn, I have PTSD from it. I hate to admit it but I do. I frequently check to see if she is still breathing. The only time i don’t is when I’m holding her. Being a parent to a micro preemie is so hard. If you’re wondering what a micro preemie is, it’s a baby born before 26 weeks gestation and weighing less than 750 grams. My daughter was born at 25 weeks and 3 days and only weighed 510 grams.

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Sorry for not posting yesterday, it was a crazy day! Happy late Thanksgiving! I had so much to be thankful for this year. My whole family is healthy, my daughter came home from the NICU, I’m healthy, and it was a quiet thanksgiving with just my husband and 2 of our children. The other 2 came by after. I know everyone likes thanksgiving because of the food. I love Thanksgiving because it is a time that families get together and say what they are thankful for. It’s about preparing the food together. For us, it was putting the lights on our Christmas Tree while the food was cooking and listening to Christmas music. I hope each and every one of you had an AMAZING thanksgiving.

Currently it’s almost 5 am and I’m sitting here thinking. Thinking about how far in life I have come, how blessed I am that I have my family; which I never thought I would have a family of my own. Also thinking how blessed I am that our daughter came home. So, to continue my story about my daughter…she was born on June 26th at the gestational age of 25 weeks and 3 days at 1 pound 2 ounces. I prayed that she wouldn’t be born until 36 weeks, but in reality, if she wasn’t born when she was, she wouldn’t be here. Being a NICU parent is SOOO hard. Having to see your baby hooked up to all of these machines and you start having to learn the different medical terms so you sort of understand. She was in an incubator for about 2 and a half months. While she was in the incubator, we couldn’t hold her when we wanted. We had to wait for holding time and get permission. If she didn’t have the best day, we couldn’t. I didn’t get to hold our daughter until she was almost 2 weeks old. That was one of the hardest things. While she was in the NICU, we went through ups and downs. For example, we went from almost losing her a week after she was born, to a blood infection, to her coming out of the incubator, to her pulling off her oxygen and not needing it anymore, to her going back on it because of the shots she needed and to her throwing up her feeding tube because she was done with it. There is so much more I can tell you, but I don’t go into many details unless asked. I wanted to share pieces of my story and my daughters story, as if I can help one other person I would be so happy.

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As I sit here so early on Thanksgiving, I’m reading my Parents magazine. After reading an article, I’m starting to feel better and realize that every family goes through the same things and some others go through more difficult things than yourself. I’m going to try to not be so hard on myself if things are done the way they need too. Life is too short. My children being young is too short. I need to enjoy it all now ♥️

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It took me a long time to feel comfortable sharing my story. I’m finally at the point of wanting to talk about it, so here it goes…. When I was 25 weeks and 3 days pregnant I gave birth to my daughter. It was one of the most scariest days of my life. And I say “one of the most” because something else happened, which I will go into more detail later. My pregnancy was pretty normal and healthy. The only issue I had was morning sickness. I went to the doctor about 3 weeks prior to going to the hospital. At that doctors visit, everything was fine. I noticed my feet were a little swollen but it didn’t bother me. About 2 weeks later I swelled. My feet looked like bricks and I didn’t have ankles. It was leg to foot. I knew something was wrong when I couldn’t keep up with my husband in the grocery store as I was so out of breath. The next morning I called the doctor and they told me to go to the ER as they thought I had a blood clot in one of my lungs. The blood clot was ruled out, but I wound up having severe preeclampsia and it was only getting worse. It took them forever to get my blood pressure down. They told me 2 days later that I could have died as well as my daughter if they didn’t get my blood pressure under control. And the strange thing is, I normally have low blood pressure. Anyway, I was giving steroid shots to help with my daughters lungs. On Saturday, June 26th, just 3 days in the hospital, my husband and I were told that we were having a baby. I had to have an emergency c-section. My daughter weighed only 1 pound 2 ounces when she was born. She was in the NICU for FOUR months. I’ll continue with more of my story later ♥️

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Being a step mom is so hard. One day my step kids are nice to me and the next they aren’t. It is like what did I do wrong? I’m still acting the same and they are just being mean. And if something happens it is my fault and not theirs. Times like this, it makes me want to give up. I am trying my best not too, but it is so hard. Like I’m damned if I do and damned if I don’t. My husband tries his best to stay out of it, but I feel like he needs to say something or it won’t get better.

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After only being married for a year and 7 months, I found out I was pregnant. It was something that we weren’t expecting or planning on happening. Once we both got off the initial shock, we were happy. I think my favorite part of the pregnancy was feeling her kick, but my second favorite was everyone guessing on what we were having. Mostly everyone said girl and a handful said boy. When we found out we were having a girl, one of my bonus children cried because he wanted a brother. To this day, he still asks me for a little brother. For the most part, my pregnancy was pretty smooth, besides the morning sickness. BUT that eventually turned after my husband and I came back home from going to the beach.

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Where to begin..well I guess I’ll start from the beginning. My husband and I met almost 3 years ago and for me it was love at first sight. Later finding out he thought the same. Dating someone with 4 children was extremely hard as you’re just “daddy’s girlfriend”. My husband new it was hard for me as I didn’t have any children of my own. Little did everyone realize, I changed their father for the better and everyone in the family was happier. I have had my bonus children tell me that I even changed them. Being a step parent or what I like to call bonus parent is hard. It’s one of the hardest things I had to do. You give your all in everything and you don’t get a thank you and you’re not considered a parent. Even though it has been a long road, I wouldn’t change it for the world.

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Hi, I’m new here! I decided to join to share my story of my daughter being born at 25 weeks and 3 days and about how it is being a bonus mom of 4! If this interests you, please come follow my story! I will try my best to post daily! And once my story is done, I’ll be posting fun family things and different recipes I enjoy!