Kiara of the Mitchell Clan

[youreldestmitchell]

[Simon couldn’t stop the chuckle when she said she hated him. He knew it would take a long time for both her and Kyle to possibly ever forgive him and more importantly be okay with him back.] I know. You’ll both hate me for a long time. I can live with that, though. Last time you hated me for a long time was for six months when I put your fish down the toilet when he died. [He rested his head against the top of hers, his fingers subconsciously wrapping a little tighter around her. He knew he had to let go soon. He had to give them space. He had a year full of space, he could wait a few months longer.] I’m gonna let go now and walk away. 

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[While Simon reminisced, Kiara stood silent - as silent as her tears would let her - preparing herself for the part where she walked away from him this time. There would never be a day where Kiara would ever turn her back on someone she loved but this? It was too much. She refused to allow him the act of leaving her again, it wouldn't happen. The division of siblings would be on her terms, and only her terms. Pulling away, she looked at him, still aching from his sudden presence and with a slight nod, she turned and walked away.]

[youreldestmitchell]

[Simon prepared himself for the impact of her hand against his cheek. He took a slight breath as she walked closer to him. He could handle a slap. Nina slapped him and continued to hit him until she was tired. Tim and Percy sure made their opinion on him leaving was known and was never forgotten. But she didn’t slap him and was just talking to him. She was telling him to leave and at first he was confused.] I can’t exactly leave right now. But I’ll tell you what. I’ll be sure you won’t ever see me while I’m here. Okay? Soon enough, it’ll be like I never came back. And you and Kyle can go on like before. If that will make you both happy, I won’t see you two after this. Just… [He moved his arms up and gently wrapped them around her. He was hugging her. The only thing he truly wanted to do when he saw her. He couldn’t stop the smile when he smelled her familiar perfume and for a small moment, everything felt like home.] I know this probably isn’t a good idea with me leaving and all, but fuck it.

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[She froze a little, her muscles taut as he wrapped his arms around her. Everything about it felt wrong, she was angry with him, furious, she wanted for him to hut, just as she had, just as she continued to every single day but easing into him, she found a small flicker of inner peace. He was Simon. Warm and protective - when he wasn't disappeared. Kiara felt a rough sob wrack her body before she fell into an onslaught of tears, crying like the night he'd left. Clinging to his shirt, she pulled at it, wanting to hurt him, but having no energy to do so as she let everything out. Simon was home, and that should have been all that mattered. Her big brother was here, hugging her for the first time in what felt like a lifetime. Through her rough, whispered sobs, she managed only a few words, and though she didn't mean them, she needed to say it - to make him know that everything wasn't okay just because of a hug.] I hate you. So much.

[kylemitchells]

[he pulled her further into his lap so that she was almost sitting on top of him, and hugged her tight, stroking her hair. The anger was already beginning to bubble up inside him, and it took all of his strength not to run off to find Simon immediately] I… I’ll kill him, I swear to god, I’ll kill him.

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[clinging to him, like she had so many times before, Kiara wept into his shirt, the warmth of him easing the pain in her chest] Wha..- what do we do? Why would he come here? Why would he even..- Mom doesn't know. [she pulled back, eyes wide] Kyle, she can't know.. She can't find out he's here..

[kylemitchells]

[the sound of the all too familiar voice brought Kyle to his feet in a flash. Confused, he started at his sister for a moment, wondering just who this ‘he’ might be. Suddenly, the realisation dawned on him, and he slowly slid to the floor beside Kiara] Surely you don’t mean… No. No.

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[she ran a hand over her face, proving more of a mess of her features, tears smudging everything they came into contact with as she sobbed, falling further to the ground until her head lay safely in his lap] Simon.. He's.. here.

[youreldestmitchell]

[He really shouldn’t make light about the situation. There was nothing light about it. But fighting for this long, even though it hadn’t been that long, was making him uncomfortable. The tone this had was surely making both of them uncomfortable. And he didn’t want to fight. He wasn’t the fighting type and she clearly proved that multiple times.] I had to see if they could handle the Mitchells. [he needed to wipe the smirk he had before she did. He needed to show that he was serious, but he was just so tired of fighting with her. Kyle was always the one who helped settle things between them, but now he was sure Kyle was going to side with her.] Okay, now you can slap me. I can see how that was a dick move. 

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[The grin on his face irked her like nothing ever had before, and she stepped closer to him, fully intending to do as he'd asked - but she couldn't. For all it was worth, this was Simon. And yes, he'd left in their time of need, in her time of need, but he was right, he'd be her brother no matter what, even if she never wanted to see him again, like right now. When she spoke, her voice reeked of the pain she felt, seeing him stand here unharmed, completely alive for this whole time,]  You.. - you need to stay away from me, Simon. I need you, to stay as far away from me as you can. Disappear again, please. [Her eyes pleading with him desperately, Kiara didn't know how she would deal with him being on campus with her after so long, she had no idea what she'd do - she was already reckless, but hurt and reckless? That was  something else entirely.]

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[Her face awash with tears - make up running everywhere, Kiara threw open Kyle's door, her hand tugging at her hair] Kyle! Wake up.. He's here.. [as if the words were a cue all their own, she sank to the floor] He's here.

[youreldestmitchell]

Because… Hell, I can’t answer that. You really don’t need to give me a chance at all. You don’t need to give me anything. I was in South Africa.

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

 [His words hung in the air, and she said nothing - only taking note of how he might have been feeling in that instant. South Africa? She frowned, thinking of all the time they'd talked about going there, of all the times she'd vocally planned their lives out - always ending in South Africa and it stung, painfully so.] You.. you went there. [Finally, after letting everything out - or so she thought - Kiara didn't feel the need to yell anymore, instead she just felt herself shutting down]

[youreldestmitchell]

[Simon bit the inside of his cheek and didn’t say anything for a while. His hands were pushed into his pockets. He couldn’t meet her eyes, couldn’t see the pain that he caused. He didn’t want to see how broken his family really was. He rolled back and forth on his feet wondering on if he should say anything.]

I… I’m so sorry. I’m sorry. And I know that doesn’t change anything, but… You aren’t letting me help so I don’t know what else to say.

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

Help? What exactly do you suppose you can do to help? We've already dealt with onslaught after onslaught from the media, we've already buried him, we've already dealt with the fact that you never came home. You think just because you show up that everything is going to be okay now? You never helped when you had the chance to, why should I give you one now? [she slumped a little, trying to ease the pain in her chest, and in reality, even though she was hysterical and so so angry at her brother, all she wanted was to step closer to him and hug him until everything was okay again, but nothing was ever that easy] I don't even know where you've been.

[youreldestmitchell]

[He knew this was the anger talking. It had to be the anger talking. Please, dear God, let it be the anger talking. He tried to keep a straight face though in his eyes you could see the hurt overflowing. A tear slipped from his eye and tried to start a path on his cheek before he quickly wiped it away. No, he wasn’t going to start crying now.]

After all that, I shouldn’t even be wanting to talk to you — wanting to make this better. Like I said before, I will always be your brother even if you don’t want me. I’m pretty positive you won’t believe me and tell me to lay off the drugs but… I had a nightmare about the accident and dad was shouting at me to go home. 

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[her mouth fell open, and she almost laughed. She wondered briefly if he would be saying the same thing had he known everything that he'd missed since he'd been gone, if he knew about the hell she'd dealt with since he left. What their family had dealt with.] Excuse me? No. You don't get to say that, you don't get to hang the idea of fixing your mess in front of me because I've hurt your feelings, Simon. You have no idea what it's been like here, without you. 

That's it? A nightmare brought you back? Not your family? Your dignity? A nightmare brought you home. [She spat her words as tears flowed freely now] I'm so glad that our dead father brought you home.

[worthyheroes]

[nicolapetlz]

[youreldestmitchell]

You wouldn’t blame me? Hell, I don’t believe that for a second. We were on the phone with mom and he… [he took a step back now, his eyes looked down at the ground and let out a shaky breath] I am your brother and always will be your brother whether you want me or not. But I’m also human and I don’t make the greatest choices unless… But, I’m truly sorry. I’m sorry for a lot of things, but I know you don’t want to hear them. So, I’ll leave for real now and go to where ever I’m supposed to be.

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[A rough sob fell from her lips. He honestly thought they blamed him, and it broke what little of her heart was left.] I don't blame you for his..- I never will. Save your apologies, I might not blame you, but I don't forgive you either. The only brother I have, is the one that held my hand through the funeral. Who carried me out of your room when I fell asleep crying, or passed out from drinking too much on your bed. The only brother I have is the one who hurt with us. No Mitchell would ever abandon family like you did, Simon. 

We lost two people the day of the accident. Y..-you were alive, and you never. even. called. [She closes her eyes tightly, tears spilling over as her teeth clenched] Why now? 

[youreldestmitchell]

I left because I was worried what people will think? Good God, Kiara. I left because I killed him. I was the one who was driving too fast and caused the car to go out of control. It’s my fault he’s dead and I’m sorry I couldn’t handle the fact that I killed my own father. So I ran away. I ran away because I was scared. I was scared what you would think. What Kyle would think. What mom would think. Okay? I was fucking terrified and didn’t know what to do.

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

You were scared? [She yelled now, not caring who heard or saw her cry.] You left us, to grieve dad, and you. Off the face of the earth, because you were afraid of what we would think?! We're your family. You should have trusted us enough to know that we would never.. blame you. [she swallowed thickly, hugging herself tightly now] You're supposed to be my big brother.. and..- you just left. 

[youreldestmitchell]

Mom doesn’t know I’m back, brat. Would you like mom to be down here? [pulls out his phone] I’ll call her right now for you. I’m sure she wouldn’t mind a quick visit and see how we are all doing. 

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[she stares at him, unbelieving that he was being such a dick - until he remember that is was in fact Simon standing before her, and he had no clue what had been happening here, at all. If in fact, their mom did come, all hell would break loose, not just because of Simon, but because of the state of Kiara.] Go on. Call her. See if I care. You're the one who's more worried about what everyone will think, rather than fixing things, ever. That's why you left, right? Call her, I dare you.

[youreldestmitchell]

I was thinking of the most realistic jurisdiction. And it made sense with it being my fault. Cut off ties with the black sheep. [sighs] Do we really gotta do this here? I know we live for the dramatics but do we want this leaked and then mom finding out? That will start world war three.

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

That's what you're worried about? The press? [She scoffs, laughing as she wipes her eyes of any tears] Don't worry, Simon. We don't have to do this now, or ever.

[youreldestmitchell]

[his stance was one that was strong. he breathed deeply through his nose as her anger finally broke at him. he took off jacket now, the warmth along with his own anger caused the boy to heat up quickly] You would have disowned me. I would have put the family name in the gutter. I had no choice but to leave. 

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[her breath caught in her throat, and she stepped back, looking at him in disbelief.]  That's what you think of us? So little that you'd convince yourself that we would.. - 

[youreldestmitchell]

You don’t understand… If… [A huff of air was his ending statement, his hands thrown up in the air before falling limp by his side.] Alright. 

[kiaraofthemitchellclan]

[She'd turned to walk away from him as he spoke, and it brought her to an immediate stop.] Understand? Understand?! [she retraced her steps, now only an inch from him. By now she'd become so angry that holing herself together wasn't an option anymore. Finger pressed deeply in his chest, she poked him, choking on her own words] Y..y-ou left us. Don..- don't tell m..- me, I don't understand.