Kicsidudu

Super random things I just need to write out of my mind 🙈

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Do you also write a whole post with a lot of deep thinking just to delete it right before posting or are you normal?

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I always find people speaking about INFJ-s like "bevare of The INFJ Doorslam, they will shut you out of their life" like all of the INFJ-s will do it regardless...

No I won't do it. I want to doorslam so freacking bad, but I just couldn't, responsibility is stronger.

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I AM MY OWN BOSS NOW! 🔥🔥

HECK YEAH! 🔥

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When you feel depressed and had a breakdown and hours passed and your mom calls and she's asking if you are better, and no you are not, you are trying so hard but no this is deffinetely not "better" and you feel even worse remebering why are you feeling soo down and you just feel so alone and helpless and weak and limp and faint and everything at one again and you realize you are going in another breakdown just because of one question if you were better.

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I made a quick sketch yesterday, because I got a sudden inspiration from theanimatedlife on instagram (check her out, she's amazing!)

She made a "draw pose in your style" (#dpiys) and I got this idea of the wolf cub from my Kits 'n' Cubs story.

I thought this would be a good enough opportunity to properly introduce her.

She's the little wolf of the gang, a thief wannabe, good at cardgames (never cheats). Also she couldn't care less for proper grammar, she makes her own words.

She had a rough childhood, but refuses to remember. On the ship, all the pirates love her like their daughter, always spoil her with small gifts like this dagger, a deck of cards, fruits, etc, they don't have girly presents... but she doesn't need them.

She's a stong cheerful girl with a strong will, and a shipful of dads and brothers.

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Please live my life instead of myself if you are so good at it.

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Finally had time to try out my sreenprinting :3 These didn't turn out very good but I'm too excited to care at all! XD

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I really like how this new style working. It has so many flaws and I this is why I like it. I always want my drawings to be perfect, but not this time. I want those shaky lines, those non-anatomically proportions. 

Our cheetah still don’t have a name... 

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A doodle of the panther just to see his colors...

They don’t have a name yet. I want a name that is a bit hint to the animals, but not too simple... I make the goals myself and I know I can’t meet them...

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Me when I found my new favourite brush *.*

Also he’s the cheetah from my story Kits ‘n’ Cubs

I’m still trying to figure out my style... What do you think? :3

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Concept art for the not so unique andventures of the Kits 'n' Cubs

From top to bottom: Cheetah, Panther, Wolf, Bear.

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I want to draw out my OCs of my head before I forget them... :/

Please enjoy the not too unique adventures of the Kits 'n' Cubs.

Here we have the Kits: Cheetah with the long hair and Panther, the notamused one.

Cheetah's hair is long, because of his people's traditions: one only cut their hair if they done something they're not proud of. Sometimes they do it just to show others, not because they truly believe it.

He cut half his hair off because he left his home and parents without proper goodbye, and he's not proud of this action. He left a letter, that is something worth half his hair...

Panther is the calm thinker of the group, second in command.

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Who doesn't like big hoodies? Vanda loves them. See, she’s not that special...

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Meet Vanda! She's my OC from my story Demon Trainee for Hire.

She's your usual highschool girl, likes to read manga, watch anime, learn new languages at sleepless nights. Has no self-confidence.

Don't let the gloves fool you, she's the least sport-related person alive.

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The most difficult decision

The most difficult decision was to leave my last job.

I loved printing on textile.

My dream was to print on textile in industial environment. But I learned that I need more experience, and I need to start from smaller projects.

I got my dream in my hands and I had to let it go because I wasn’t enough.

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I don't even have a real reason. Why am I feeling so depressed?

Others have it worse.

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I am ashamed that I'm depressed of this f*cink situation! - Others have it worse. So I should feel guilty that I am depressed.

Others have it much worse.

Why isn't this comforting me?

I feel like a failure.

I quit my job 2 months ago so I can be a freelancer graphic designer. - Becasue I was raised to do what I love. I'd love to do this.

I am ashamed that I'm a spoiled child in my mid 20's.

Others have it much worse.

That factory was doomed already. - Isn't it?

Or was it just me? Was I not enough? I wasn't enough. If I had more experience we would've start the textile printing plant more professional. Or they shouldn't hire a student to launch a whole plant of a factory. I should've learn more. Was I the problem? Or was they?

Never mind it now. I quit 2 months ago.

I hated it there. They were unprofessional with high expectations. And I was a newbie.

It's in the past.

Others have it much worse.

I had the choice to move on. To quit. Others don't have this choice.

Others have it worse.

With my last one and a half month worth salary I brought a printer.

I can only print on polyester... I want to print on cotton, but I need more machines for that.

Others have it worse.

I just can't do what I'd love to do. Others don't even have jobs or any money. I still have my boyfriend and family.

Others have it worse.

But why isn't it comforting?

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I've got an idea for a twin costume for a con or something! But I don't know any twins so I'll just let this idea flow on the internet until it'll find a pair of twins with no idea what to be on the next costumeparty!

Please if anyone tries it just tag me: @kicsidudu on tumbl or instagram!

Here it is:

1. is wearing a normalish outfit, but a bit outstanding, so people will notice it. AND this twin has a The Mask-mask in their hand all the time.

2. is wearing a bit exaggerated version of the other's outfit AND is painted in green like The Mask.

Please tag me! I want to see this coming to life 😍