kiigism

listening to non-english music since forever

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new story on wattpad

lol wtf i uploaded my first story to quotev (ignore the 2 others i wrote ages ago lol)

Kathy, and the Congregation

Kathy knows she's not getting anywhere fast; with her parents, with romance, with being liked by anyone. Somehow, in the dredges of her cons

If anyone could read it I'd appreciate it so i can get this made into a netflix movie starring joey king

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Blog Post for University Project

How to go missing:

Most of us will give no reason to abandon our daily lives, but there are always some. Some choose to go missing to escape the most dire of situations, others simply need to get out, escape. 

Everyday you come home to a home where you are not welcome, people see you like a creature, you feel like a stranger in a place that isn’t even home. Do you have a home? Do you belong to society if you cannot find a home? When you feel so isolated and yet the desire to be alive is strong within you as it is with others. Something sits with you, you’ll be alive past today and you can’t bear another minute here. 

One example is Dame Jasvinder Sanghera. She went missing when she was 15 after facing a forced marriage. Her home didn’t become her own, instead she was a prisoner of it, her parents locking her in her room until she agreed to the forced marriage. only being found after her parents reported her missing. All that stood between her being free or facing a forced marriage was the policeman that believed her and didn’t send her home. Had he sent her home, Jasvinder would’ve been likely subjected to more abuse, such as what her sister went through when she entered a forced marriage. Her sister, Robina, was being beaten regularly by her husband, unable to leave due to the shame it would bring her family and to herself, resulting in her tragically killing herself by self-immolation. 

Like many missing people, once Jasvinder had left her home she would’ve never been able to come home, as her family had disowned her. For the wider missing community, as much as this can be seen as liberating it follows its further share of challenges, as you become truly on your own in this world.

[dinklebat]

an interaction im very tired of in online autism spaces. aka when you don’t have a special interest / when your special interest isn’t [character] or [fandom]

EDIT: if you’re confused on this post look at this version: https://www.tumblr.com/dinklebat/767829405172219904/some-of-you-did-not-understand-this-post-hope?source=share

also if you want to see column posts just check #column posting on my blog

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Sotd: Anti-Hero - Taylor Swift

I realise this is a basic choice but this song has become so relatable for me.

"Sometimes I feel like everybody is a sexy baby and im a monster on the hill"

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Ive been doing makeup my whole life, its a hyperfixation and Ive become so good at it.

Im also a feminist and like... how good of a feminist can I really be if Ive fallen into the trap of performing for men and then bemoan how men have hurt me.

I get its all subjective but just seeing that confidence boost makes me realise I was never so aware of patriarchy.

Idk this is so so so stupid and i dont want pity for this, like ik i can just have a different opinion

Maybe im looking for reasons to hate myself

I feel sick.

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SOTD 4/2/26

AILSHA - Go Tobann

GO TOBANN!!!!!!! 🔥🗣🔥🗣

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Glowing

It doesn't know how it got here, but it feels like it has a purpose

[heavensghost]

I told you from the start I disappear when it gets cold

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SOTD 1/2/26

Misuse Oh - Ethel Cain

https://youtube.com/watch?v=IP2msmQ8crQ&si=oGK5uWrFtciO5d3V

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The tiniest of the tiny

No thoughts in that head

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Sotd 31/01/26

Bed Chem - Sabrina Carpenter

https://youtu.be/x8VkB8ap_FQ?si=CnAHwSnXFRxgBf8_

lol i updated it a year later xx

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I hate that a brand can make me feel things but looking at the Inis brand makes me so happy

[zisurru]

“we need more weird art!” but not anything that makes me feel uncomfortable or alienated or challenged. “weird art” but i don’t want to consider the perspective of anyone i might have real irrevocable differences from. “weird art” but everything must be carefully couched in the language of white middle-class american sensibilities at all times. “weird art” but it has to be picked from a list of pre-established “weird” tropes that i recognize from carefully curated lists on letterboxd.

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SOTD 9/12/24

Organs - Of Monsters and Men

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Things I've done in Minecraft

I think I've been playing minecraft for around 10 years now.

Over those 10 years, my playing style hasn't changed much, and I never stay on one project for very long. I have a lot of early-game survival worlds and lots of creative projects.

Here's some highlights

When I was 9 I made my own city called "Conkerland" (yes thats a reference to Conker the Squirrel, I only knew about that character because he was an available skin for the 2nd Birthday of Minecraft Xbox 360 edition). The city was chock full of 'cube' buildings with the interior inside. There was my house, spruce with birch strips going down the corners. The rooms were just more cubes with the interiors inside. I had a hotel with cube rooms, it had a restaurant and a swimming pool. A shop called "tescos", a standalone restaurant called "The red rose restaurant" and I had a veterinary for my pet chickens. I also built a separate house for one of my friends. I even had a bank which contained a dark room and a two walled wall so I could hide the vault of money in the wall, I considered that top-tier engineering. I can't remember much else aside from some tidbits like my iron golem memorial. I tried to remake it back in 2020 during lockdown.

I made a tower based on one of my dreams. It's situated on a hill and was made out of blackstone and blackstone adjacent materials. On one level was some carrots growing. The second level was where me and my best friend found their mum who told us to leave. So we did, but we needed to go the tower to get more food. :(

I make civilisations sometimes, I have one in the Savannah and I just started one in the taiga/mountains. There are two types of architecture, and there are two cultures. If you are a mountain person, your house will a small cottage type thing that can't be very high cause mountains can be windy af and I doubt you want smth built tall where it's blowy. If you are in the taiga, you live in a treehouse and you should from materials you can find nearby, travelling for materials is uncommon and is reserved as part of work as someone in the taiga communities. The Savannah community wasn't that interesting, except maybe for the creation of the houses, that was fun.

I played the tutorial worlds A LOT. Some of my fondest memories come from the TU19 update. It's where I worked on one of my oldest characters. I miss that time and world. Maybe one day I'll talk about this character more. I have plans to discuss another character.

My friend in Year 9 made a city we all lived in, he built me a house and we had our minecraft beds next to each other which was a thing I was just like "yeah okay, that's a thing". I think we tried to defeat herobrine in that world. No luck there lol

I made a world called "odyssey". It was designed to feel a little off. I had a fake out house, the real house was meant to be a cave underground. I was going to have a railway system as well. I think it was the world generation that made it weird. I put on world experiments and this was when they were testing the new mountain and cave generation and it went a bit wild, so that's what might've made me feel weird about this world. That update made me feel very strange. I was going through some motions tbf.

If I had a theme tune for odyssey it would be this (aptly titled, this was never intentional, I didn't know what the song was titled until I found the song)

I can't remember much else for now, I'll probably continue this thread when I remember something. If I can find pictures, I'll upload them in due course.

what are your minecraft memories?

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Does anyone have an inferiority complex?

Something where you feel a deep pit in a crowd of people and you instinctively know youre not good enough for whatever reason.

Sometimes it can be because they reaffirm a feeling that you dont fit in, because they say something smart and selfishly you realise they have some high ground over you, they can love and be peaceful better than you?

Better than you.

I think that causes a lot of conflicts, to show you are better. To show you are stronger, smarter than others.

The best and worst part is, its never definite you will reap a reward for proving you are better.

None of this is coming from a place I have made peace. Peace is something we forget to look for sometimes and it can be a force as strong as love. It makes and breaks, it can make a utopia to a dystopia.

Ive made so little love, im prepared to go to war on it lol.