hi

dana.30something.she

[northirish]

They beat me to death with hammers but I'm fine, just another Monday

[shamebats]

"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry

[old-melissax77]

[kikisvikingservice]

I'm like 11 years behind the hype, but I'm just now getting into Lana Del Ray.

[kikisvikingservice]

Idk. Colossalcon 2026 was so much fun. This was me during a b rated horror movie marathon.

[local-lesbian-tree-demon]

they should invent a body that feels normal to be inside of

[kikisvikingservice]

Oh and now I'm a mom and every edit I see about oldest daughter pain (I have an only daughter rn an in my family I am the baby) hurts so so bad bc god I hope I am not burdening the most precious person in my life. I want my daughter to only have fun with me and not worry about walking on eggshells and I want us to be close without enmeshment and without resentment and is such a thing even possible?????

And then she calls for me at night because she's had a nightmare and we snuggle and I think 'I'll hold yoy after a nightmare even if you're 32 years old' even though she is only 2 rn

[kikisvikingservice]

I have a million bad memories of my dad and also good memories that are buried by the pain of the bad, but in my 30's I do keep remembering that he played baseball witb me when I was 13 in the yard, and he drove me around when I needed and bought me tampons without making it a big deal. I'm just having a lot of emotions tonight because we had a massive, painful fight a few weeks ago. He was nicer to me as a child than he was when I hit puberty. Watching him interacting so innocently and kindly with my 2 year old daughter is beautiful and painful. Why did it ever have to change with me.

[peniswakt-deactivated20210717]

what the fuck did you even DO in 1971 when don mclean dropped american pie

[kikisvikingservice]

Why is my dad such a good dad and such a bad dad at the same time.

And why do my friends have worse dads that make my dad look like an angel in comparison when I reality they just have bad, bad dads and mine is just a standard emotionally abusive bpd alcoholic mess yet somehow more together than my friends dads.

I don't get it and yet I love mine so much and he loves my friends so much but he is so fucking mean to me at times. And it doesn't erase his love for me but goddamn it's not that hard to be kind and happy. I know because I choose to be kind and happy to othera despite how he and others have treated me. I am kind goddammit. Other people don't get to feel my wrath because everyone is always having a hard time. I that sense, I'm not special and that is ok.

[kikisvikingservice]

I do not miss much of my life before having a kid, BUT

I fuckkng miss going to the movies whenever I wanted. My daughter is two so her sitting for a movie is kind of hit or miss at the moment but I want to see that Michael Jackson movie so badly. It's playing a town over in 15 minutes and I wish I could just go rn without needing to tell anyone or plan anything.

[kikisvikingservice]

things have been bad and stressful for the past month and i am ready to get my optimism back. actually i want my apathy back. i got really into the absurdist mindset for about a year and felt pretty good and now i care too much and it's ruining my life bc i can't control the current situations that i am facing entirely and apathy/acceptance is partially the answer

[free-my-mindd]

There’s so much power in believing that everything will work out.

[sixgrl]

[omtai]

there is nothing lemon squeezy about any of this

[escuerzoresucitado]

Good morning

[xanaxfarts]

Ty Beanie Babies: Batty the Bat (1995)