It's your double B-bitch: Bi-Borderliner

Just one of the millions fuck ups that shouldn't be alive. I'm freestyling my way through this horrible thing called life. Used to be a depression blog, then a recovery blog and back to depression etc. I'm in recovery now 23/12/16. Failed. Update: really in recovery since 22/08/17. Update: I am still a mess but working on it again 15/1/18.

[killing-time-until-i-die]

It really doesn't matter how many or how much people care about you. At the end of the day you will still be alone with your pain, wishing for the ending of the torture that is your existence.

[killing-time-until-i-die]

No one will save you. Not yourself and not someone else. You can't be saved. But you can put an end to it. Forever.

[killing-time-until-i-die]

I know I'm not active here anymore, but let me tell you this: it never gets better. No matter what your progress is, everything will always be just as bad and things won't change.

[killing-time-until-i-die]

Best self-harm method for now: hitting myself on the cheek with fist or a book. Family asks questions when it disappears en appears again but fuck that. 'When I turn in bed I sometimes hit my face on the wall.' Not my best lie but I can't seem of anything more implausible. Wish that someone could beat me up or that I could bleed.

[killing-time-until-i-die]

You know youre doing really bad if selfharm doesnt even help

[horrorprincezz-deactivated20240]

I will always hate myself 

[omgpersonalshit]

why do i feel like cutting again.

[staystrongmylove]

🥀

[queerlysad]

[emanuelee]

xx

[emanuelee]

everyday the same shit

[killing-time-until-i-die]

Going offline for a day from all social media (well, except posting this now, no one knows my tumblr anyways). See if people notice or get worried. I’m tired of people. I will probably be back online tomorrow. I’m keeping my phone unlocked for now for Spotify but no data or wifi.

[emanuelee]

xx

[timebomb271-deactivated20220512]

[6eautiful]

[queerlysad]

[queerlysad]