welp, guess im back here again

goddammit

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

Hey! Nice to meet you =)

I figure since I’ve been gaining more followers lately I might as well tell you a little about myself.

You can call me Aideen. I’m 21 years old and a third year psych student at university. I moved to the states from Dublin with my family early in grade school. I’m also a certified EMT.

I’ve been struggling with various eating disorders since I was 12 and at one point a few years ago I had a pretty popular blog where I would post mostly memes before I got termed (not sure if any of them are still floating around here lol).

!TW stats!

height: 5’5”/65cm

sw: 147lbs/67kg

cw: 115.8lbs/52.6kg

gw: 110lbs/50kg

ugw: 103lbs/47kg

At this point I’ve been on this wagon for a LONG time so I know a thing or two. If you ever have any questions feel free to ask and I’ll try my hardest to give you an answer or point you toward some research.

Also just a side note, I have no clue how to respond to people’s posts or respond to comments on my posts so if you ever comment please don’t think I’m ignoring you, I see you and I appreciate you all. Please be safe!

❤️

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

i dont want to get better

[nothingbutloveforyou]

fuck anyone who has ever made you feel like you're not enough

[nyctoheart]

these tags are so funnyyyy

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

Gonna start saying “you enter the circus you play like the clowns” now

[fairys1zed]

losing weight takes so fucking long like i literally just have to sit around and not eat? annoying

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

Me: practise harm reduction!! go to a doctor for scary symptoms!!! drink water and try to eat something every day!! ! !!!

My brain: not you tho

Me: not me tho

[basicallyabat-deactivated202401]

I just feel obligated to say this...

… The things I post here are unhealthy. They are bad. If you ever sometimes look at them and think, “That’s crazy,” or “I don’t think I want to do this anymore,” then that’s awesome. And you should hold onto that feeling.

It isn’t weak. It’s strong.

Recovery isn’t fat, or weak. It’s choosing life over death. Because you either recover or die. Ana isn’t forever. 400 calories or less a day isn’t sustainable.

So yes. I am unhealthy. This blog is unhealthy. The mindset required to follow this blog is unhealthy.

You all already know that.

I just wanted to remind all of you that if you ever, ever feel like quitting, it’s okay to quit. Despite the meanspo and the sweetspo, it’s okay. You are not actually a lardass or a fat fucker for deciding to live a real life.

That’s all. 💖

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

did not stand a fuckin chance 🥲

[lil-smol-bean-04]

I wonder what kind of person I would be if I had therapy, anti-depressants and adhd meds :0

Like I wouldn't even be me anymore cuz all I am rn is a disordered b!tch lol

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

Bro honestly I got em all plus mood stabilizers and I’m still a disordered bitch 🥲

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

Been maintaining between 115 and 113 for MONTHS and FINALLY I’m at 110 which puts me at a bmi of 18.3 and makes me medically underweight. Why does this feel like one of the biggest achievements of my entire life?? I do really be fucked in the head tho 🥲

[coffeediets-125-deactivated2022]

"Calories add up. There's nothing wrong with telling them the truth about their safe foods."

Yes, actually, there is. People have safe foods so they can eat without feeling guilt. They know 0 calories foods have a miniscule amount of calories in them. You don't have to point that out to them and potentially triggering them.

We're disordered, not stupid.

Mind your business.

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

Please stop trying to make people more miserable than they already are. This illness is literally hell. Stfu

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

how am i supposed to concentrate on anything with this stupid fucking voice in my head screaming about wanting to die all the time

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

Can someone PLEASE tell me how to find stuff on ED twit and Pinterest?? Idk how to do it I’m old and stupid 😫

[peonykx]

my brain: i need food i’m dying please feed me

me: eats

my brain: you fat fucking bitch

[sibutramineandcocaine]

my brain needs energy to bully me

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

my brain: c’mon just eat something I promise you’ll feel better

me: *suspicious* …

my brain: I won’t say anything I swear

me: … *eats*

my brain:

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

Me when I remember calories exist

[twigcxtie2199]

Any tips for losing 40lbs in 5 days?

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

Double amputation

[kingoftheshadowrealm]

gave my roommate my scale and now he won’t give it back