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kit bit into his bottom lip so hard he was surprised it didn’t draw blood. he could feel himself pulsating with the need to be touched, and the feeling of taemin’s mouth around his painfully hard cock gave him so much pleasure he was a writhing, sweating mess within moments. kit’s hips bucked up into the other’s mouth as he tugged on his hair, high-pitched moans and cries for more sounding almost feminine in his desperation for the other. “ yes. ” he cried. he cried it over and over, shuddering at the way his tongue felt. as he felt taemin’s finger enter his tight hole, kit’s back arched and his hands gripped the bed covers tightly, as he let a moan escape from his parted lips. he could feel himself being stretched, his hole tight around the other’s finger and aching to become loose. “ h-hyung. stretch me. i want you ... inside me. ” the boy whispered, his cheeks tinged with pink as he licked his lips needily.

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" sorry, hyung, i-i couldn't wait. " kit stammered, removing his own hand reluctantly and instead stroking his thigh in order to stop his hand from travelling again. although kit loved to be punished, he would save the misbehaving for later. kit shivered at the feeling of the cock ring around him, but he loved how it felt. it was tight around him, and cool on his skin, making him enjoy the sensation even more. kit jumped at the slap, feeling the sting as his thigh gre slightly red, knowing immediately that that was only a warning compared to what tae would do if kit carried on. it excited him to think about it, but he was determined to behave well for now. " it won't happen again. " he promised, his voice trembling. kit threw his head back, a moan escaping him as the friction of the other's hand on his cock sent pleasure running through his body. the younger nodded, biting down on his bottom lip to quieten his squirming as the other licked him. " ah, hyung-- " he mumbled, his hand gripping at the other's hair.

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kit nodded, allowing his head to fall back in pleasure as hot kisses were being pressed to his neck. he ran his fingers through taemin’s hair, gasping with each kiss. “ yes, ” he breathed. “ i want that, hyung. i’ll be a good kittie. ” kit tried desperately not to whine again as he spoke. kit bit his trembling lip as he watched tae remove his trousers, caring less about the embarrassment of being hard already and just getting lost in the feeling. kit’s hips bucked into taemin’s hand, moaning as the friction caused his cock to twitch in need. the younger pressed kisses to the other’s jaw as he tried to contain his gasps. with a nod, kit stepped back, meeting the bed and laying down on it, disposing of his trousers and underwear, his dick hitting him in the stomach, already wet at the tip. despite how the other might react, kit began to touch himself gently, wanting to feel something while taemin was not tending to him, not caring whether he would be told off for it or not. he eyed the toys needily as the older brought them over.

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“hmmm good boy kittie,” he said as he finished his plate, he picked his dishes up, placing them in the sink before walking back over to him, robe floating a bit behind him. “look at you already wound up me,” he said when he noticed the tenting of kits half hard on in his pants. tae chuckled giving him a peck on the cheek softly. “hmmm i bet you would, something black and lacey yeah? with garter belts and stilettos. he said pulling the younger off the stool, leading him towards his luxury looking bedroom. "how about i get you something baby blue? something satin with thigh highs, would you like that baby?” he asked snaking his way around kit, giving him a soft kiss on his shoulder running his manicured nails up his sides, under his shirt. “you’d look so pretty in it,” he let out a chuckle in his deep baritone before placing a kiss beneath his ear. “ice cream it is then. now shhhh, tell hyung what you want,”

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  kit’s eyes followed taemin every second he took moving to the kitchen and back, making sure to take in every feature that was exposed carefully, biting his lip and gulping the lump in his throat. kit bowed his head in embarrassment, giving an awkward chuckle as he tried to hide his blush at already being so turned on. he tugged at his trousers, trying to loosen them in order to make it less obvious, but it really not doing anything. kit followed the other in an instant, being his obedient self. he wasn’t in the mood for disobeying right now. he was too desperate. kit nodded. “ maybe ... maybe one of those pretty butt plugs, too. the ones with fur tails. ” he suggested almost shyly although loving the idea of wearing satin and thigh-highs for the other, and seeing taemin in such a get-up. kit shivered at the kiss, letting out a whine that he was quick to cut short, sealing his lips shut as he blushed more. “ hyung, i-- i want you to play with me. make me suffer, hyung. ” his request came out in a whisper, as kit let his eyes flutter shut. “ please. ”

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tae’s groan rumbled into a laugh because kit was right, he didn’t have enough appendages and digits on his body to even count how many times he’s uttered those same words, sometimes in the middle of a party where he would indeed go for another drink. “m'sorry for challenging you to shots, i forgot it takes longer for alcohol to hit me given my toxins immunity….you were fucked,” he laid his head back on the table with another groan. all that meant was that it took longer for tae to get drunk, but when it came it came all at once and he and kit both were doubled over the balcony, before subsequently passing out on the home owners floor. he still doesn’t remember how they got home but he’s happy they did, intact with nothing missing aside from tae’s michael kors watch but if he was honest he probably lost that early in the night.

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  “ i was fucked. wouldn’t have it any other way. ” he chuckled, pulling the strings of his hoodie until the hood was scrunched next to his eyes, blocking out at least a little bit of the harsh light that made his head pulsate more. although he didn’t have toxin immunity, what kit did have was an addiction, meaning the amount of alcohol he could take was much higher than any regular person. had it been anyone else, they’d be dead. “ at least i was smart enough to get us a taxi home. after we woke up, that is. ” he said with a shrug. eyeing the other, kit reached his hand forward, letting it rest on taemin’s. for a moment, the veins in taemin’s hand became prominent, as kit absorbed the energy through his fingertips. it only took a couple of seconds before kit was groaning in pain, causing him to pull away and clutch at his head. “ you shouldn’t ... be hungover during an exam. ” he said, his voice strained from having absorbed tae’s condition. 

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if you could change one moment in your life, that would alter the rest of your life, would you? and if so, what moment ?

  “ probably the day i agreed to move in with my dad. a fuck tonne would be different if i stayed with my mom. ”

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who are the top three most important people in your life

  “ woobin. he’s my best friend and honestly the one thing keeping me alive. taemin makes me feel like i’m somewhat normal. and … jiae … but i won’t say much about that. ”

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when did your addiction start?

  “ not long after i moved in with my dad. maybe a year afterwards? being surrounded by drugs and alcohol kinda tempts you. i wouldn’t recommend it. ”

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taemin watched the younger dig into his food, he could tell he was eating it with a lot more haste than before and that brought a little smirk to play on tae’s lips. “good boy,” he cooed squeezing the others thigh boldly, even moving his hand up an inch or two as he played with his phone, his own plate now empty. taemin smiled at the request and nodded, “i’ll pick you out a bunch of cute little sets okay? while i’m there i can get something for myself too.” he said with a nod, “anything else puddin’” tae asked, finally tearing his gaze away from his phone screen to look at the younger. “we can get some ice cream too yeah?” he pet kit on the head before standing from his stool, grabbing the empty plates and his now empty glass to put them in the sink. “we said we’d stop taking about it right?”

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  kit gulped, trying to ignore the growing in his trousers as he felt taemin’s hand move, and praying it wasn’t noticeable to the other. he finished his food, gulping down his drink afterwards and waiting patiently for it to digest, before he let his eyes flicker back to taemin, moving between him and his empty plate in order to make it less obvious that he was looking. “ i’d love to see you in something sexy. ” he nodded, excited just thinking about it. he was excited about thinking of owning those kinds of clothes himself, too. he loved the thought of looking pretty for taemin, and teasing him with how cute he looked so that the other would want to fuck him even harder than usual. “ nothing else, hyung. but ... ice cream sounds good. ” he said with a nod. kit would let taemin buy him what he wanted. although he didn’t want to be spoiled, he was too weakened by tae to argue with him. kit nodded, putting his head down slightly. “ we did. i’m sorry. ” he said, his voice small.

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usually, this wasn’t his schtick. tae much rather be on the receiving end of what he was giving kit, but he thoroughly enjoyed how weak he made the younger. the thing about tae is, in being a submissive you still have the power, and that’s what he likes, power. but with kit it’s something completely different. the younger is so easily susceptible to his commands, so easily malleable, in his hands that he couldn’t help stripping kit from that power. it made something deep inside him click and kick into gear. a chaotic switch in every form of the word tae knew how to turn either side on and off, but with kit, domination was never in he off position. “hmmm such a desperate little kitty,” tae tsk’d shaking his head. “finish your food pet, and then hyung will make it up to you for last night yeah?” he smiled brightly, with something more sexually deviant settled in his mismatched gaze as he turned back to his food. “aish, get over it kit, i’m going to spoil you and you’re going to like it, period.” tae’s deep baritone that usually came with his dominating headspace if he wasn’t being a patronizing piece of crap as he were earlier, came before he could stop it. “and being like what? you’re perfectly fine.” tae said with a shrug, a number of things keeping him from realizing that him and kits drinking and drug habits were no where near ‘fine’ both of them were borderline addicts, if they already weren’t. “yes let’s not talk about that,” he said shaking his taking a sip of his own drink, the tingle in his throat and chest welcoming as always.

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  taemin’s use of pet names never failed to send shivers down kit’s spine. the moment the word left the other’s lips,  kit was even more of a mess than he was. the older knew exactly how to get to kit, he knew all the tricks and tones to get kit flustered, and the younger loved it. just as much as he knew taemin loved the power. “ okay, hyung. ” he nodded, going back to his food, finishing it quickly, but not enough to seem like he was too desperate, although he most definitely was. “ i have one condition. ” he said cheekily, looking back at the other with a smile. “ you take me to ann summers and pick me out something pretty ? ” kit asked, making his eyes extra big while batting his eyelashes in the hopes to sway taemin. kit was obsessed with pretty lingerie, and the thought of taemin picking something out for him ( no matter how sugar daddy it may be ), was extremely arousing to him. “ i’m not-- ” kit sighed. like he always thought, tae was the one person who made him feel normal. although it was really a problem that the two of them had, kit wasn’t prepared to cause any disruption in the comfort by bringing it up. there was nothing he could do about it, anyway.

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plsyeri:

“ it’s very cute “ yeri agreed with a nod, eyes falling shut as she bobbed her head up and down. she found the gesture a little ridiculous, who even went around giving out cute pillows?? even if for a crush, it just seemed to her like a middle school thing, but then again, she was very rarely phased with gestures - whatever the kind. “ what are you going to do with it?? put it on your bed?? “ she asked eyes moving between the pillow and the other’s face

  “ i’m not sure. ” he shrugged, looking at the pillow more with a smile. “ i think it would look so cute on my bed and be nice to snuggle, but, ” he paused, growing shy as a blush appeared on his cheeks. “ i mean i’m not saying i’m some hotshot, but, yknow ... it might kill the mood if i bring people back to my place. ” he said, giggling as his own words after they left his mouth. it was a nice gesture, and kit was aware of the fact that others found him attractive, so it was no surprise. yes, the action was slightly juvenile, but he didn’t have the heart to judge.

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tae chuckled deeply at the younger’s reaction, he enjoyed riling him up, having him shaking so easily from his words, and though tae is used to being submissive, the amount of power it gave him was more than arousing. “hmmm, yes that’s what hyung wants but i want to know what kittie wants,” he smirked softly letting his hand settle back on the younger’s thigh. “what do you want hyung to do for you?” he asked in his deep baritone, tongue wetting his pink lips as he looked at him. “and honestly kit, we’re way to close for you to think that me spoiling you is not okay, just let it happen, money is nothing to me, and i rather spend it on someone i care about versus myself.” he said honestly. “and as far as woobin goes, stop thinking about that so much you’re just going to burden yourself. if woobin isn’t complaining, then kitten stop creating this mindset that he feels burdened by dealing with you, he would of said he wanted out if he did, i like to think i know him better than anyone, so stop beating yourself up about a problem that isn’t even a problem.”

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  kit absolutely loved being submissive, especially with taemin. the boy was a switch in general, but definitely leaned more towards submissive behaviour, and taemin definitely brought that side out of him. the other was constantly making kit weak and basically bringing him to his knees begging. whether it was his voice, behaviour or appearance, all of it turned him on. kit could even feel his pants growing tight as taemin’s hand rested on his thigh. kit had to force down the lump in his throat, bringing his finger to delicately brush over the back of the other’s hand. “ i want it, hyung. ” he almost-whispered, eyes flickering back up to taemin’s. “ i want you to treat me, hyung. please. ” he said with a pout, putting his hand over the other’s and pressing down so that there was more pressure to his thigh. kit let out a sigh, lacking the ability to argue anymore. “ fine. but ... i’m not going to take advantage like you want me to, okay ? ” he told him. “ i know, i know. he’s a good guy. he’s my best friend. ” kit nodded, although still a sliver of doubt and guilt in his mind. “ i don’t know, i guess i just hate ... being like this. ” he sighed. “ it doesn’t matter. let’s forget about it. ” he ended, waving the conversation off and taking a swig of alcohol, feeling it burn his throat in that painful warm way he was familiar with.

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taemin hummed softly, leaning back over whisper into the others ear, would you like me to take care of your needs while you’re here baby doll?“ he said in english, his charming soft southern drawl was sultry, snaking its way into kit’s ears, and if he knew anything about the boy, he knew that he was quiet responsive to tae’s close contact. tae was known to give him just the smallest look to have him following his every words. a smirk played on his lips as he tapped manicured fingers on the others thigh before turning back to his meal as if nothing happened, crystal blue and ruby eyes glancing back at him before settling on the dish. "hmmm you say one time now but it’ll happen again,” he said with a smile shaking his head. “don’t talk like that, woobin is a big boy, sure he can worry but not anymore than anyone else around here, don’t let that get to you honestly he’s put up with me for years he can handle you,”

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kit's breath hitched in his throat, become uneven as the close contact threw him off. it sent shivers down his skin, the sexiness of the other's voice, especially in his accent, and his breath tickling against his ear, made kit weak at the knees and caused a knot to form in his stomach. he attempted to compose himself, forcing a smirk to match the other's and hide how only his words had melted him. " i-if hyung would like that. " he breathed. kit gulped hard as taemin turned away, turning back to his own food in an attempt to distract and calm himself. " it won't. i won't let you spend that much money on me. " kit said persistently. he always felt obliged to return favours, but this was one he wouldn't be able to return. " i know he can handle me, but he shouldn't have to. "

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“very true, i guess we’re going to have to make up for it a bit while you’re here yeah?” tae’s tone was flirtatious and seductive, and he couldn’t help but smirk at the way kit was scanning over his half naked form. “you’re so shameless.” he said softly a fond hum coming from his pink lips. “puddin’ really, i don’t mind, i know you don’t like people helping you but i’m not just regular people, so let me okay?” tae said leaning over to give the younger a soft kiss on the neck then cheek. “i know it seems sugar daddy esk but it doesn’t have to be all the time. i already make sure you and woobin’s fridge is stocked anyways.” he said before taking a bite of his food, “i’ve known woobin for a very long time sweets, he’ll be fine.”

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  “ that sounds nice. ” kit hummed at the other’s tone, nodding in excitement. he chuckled, knowing for a fact that shameless was something he most definitely was, but never with tae. tae made him feel like the shit he always did was okay. he supposed the other was just as unstable as he was, but still, it was a nice feeling on comfort that he rarely had. kit shivered at the contact of lips on skin, enjoying the sensation as he met taemin’s eyes. he sighed, the gaze of the other enough to persuade him. “ one time. you can take me shopping one time. ” he told him, holding up a finger and wearing a stern expression so the other knew he was serious. sitting beside the other, kit dug into his food, his stomach thanking him as he felt it fill up. “ he shouldn’t have to deal with me. ” he mumbled, eyes fixed on his plate.

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“hmm” tae giggled softly before pulling his robe back open revealing his designer briefs once again taking his bottom lip into his mouth shaking his head, “so naughty so early this morning,” he said with a chuckle shaking his head as he pulled out the utensils handing the other a fork and knife. “i don’t know why you don’t let me me take you shopping, i have enough to spare, maybe even decorate your dorm room, i love to spoil as much as i love to be spoiled,” he cupped the others chin in his hand pursing his lips and shaking his head as if he was nuzzling a puppy’s nose. he let his hair before making his way to the other side of the bar-island hybrid settling on a stool, “if i know anything about woobin is that he worries, he texted me a few times last night too. making sure i was alive.”

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kit watched carefully as the other opened up his robe again, taking in the sight without any attempt to hide it and a smirk growing on his lips. content, he nodded, and turned back to preparing the food. " i can't help it. we didn't actually do anything yesterday so ... yknow, i'm needy. " he admitted sheepishly. kit quickly thanked him for the utensils as he searched for the salt. with a sigh, kit looked up at the other and shook his head. " i can't, hyung. it wouldn't feel right to take your money. " kit hated being 'helped'. plus, there was a fine line between whatever kit and tae were, and sugar daddies, and he wasn't sure he was quite ready to cross it yet. kit couldn't help but giggle at the other's antics, hitting him on the arm playfully before following him and sitting beside him with the plate of food. " i put him through a lot. " kit sighed, his tone suddenly lower.

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“it’s never too early to drink,” tae said with a laugh locking the door behind the younger before following him into the kitchen. he pulled his robe closed as he walked into the area, sliding the mask off in the process and taking the time to muse through his pastel hair a bit. “i love french toast please whip it out i’m starving,” he admitted, the hungry pang in his stomach pulling a little whine from his lips as he went to pull out some of his expensive glasses. most people would only pull them for special occasions but in tae’s case, all of them were expensive. his entire apartment decor screamed expensive, and it took a little bit of bribery but he even was able to remove the original furniture and bring in his own, replacing the couch, television, rugs and bar stools, creating his own lavish space for the next three years. “did you sleep well puddin’? you know you could have came home with me last night, i don’t know why you insisted on going back to your dorm.”

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kit eyed the other with a smile as he followed, putting the bottles on the counter. " why are you closing your robe? that's no fun. " he chuckled, rounding the counter into the kitchen and searching for a bottle-opener. kit nodded, following the other's instructions hastily as he didn't want him to go hungry. kit put the breakfasts onto two plates before pouring the alcohol into the glasses taemin presented. " you know, my broke ass busts a nut every time i see this place. " he laughed, taking in the expensive scenery. kit was the epitome of broke student. whatever money he did earn went towards satisfying his addictions, other things coming as the next priority. he had no help from family, so he was really on his own, and extremely dumb when it came to money. " i did. " he responded with a grin, loving the nickname. " i know, tae, but i promised woobin i would come back. he worries about me. " he said with a shrug.