[kitianac-blog]

Bittersweet.

Blogging is something that I've come to love but also hate. I hate the whole actual typing part but I love the fact that it’s my opinion and no one can tell me I’m wrong, better yet if they try to tell me I’m wrong BLOCK ! Blogging has been an escape I know it sounds cliché, but honestly there isn’t any limits. I can just let it all out about a specific topic, I can finally say what I haven’t been able to verbalize. In an uncomfortable topic such as race or something, if someone says something out of line or interrupts me I tend to get frustrated. Also in an intense conversation I can easily and run out of patience, and when that happens my words jumble, my tongue gets tied and I just look dumb to be brutally honest with you. With blogging I don’t have to worry about humans as much. Looking back when I first started blogging, is embarrassing. I was scared, I was afraid to actually voice my opinion the way I wanted to, I took the safe way out because I was scared of what others in the class might say. After a while I said fuck that, I’m not about to hold back what I have to say especially when I feel like my ideas or perspective of things are different and I thought what if it might inspire or help others. I guess you can say blogging gave me some balls. Blogging has improved my writing tremendously, I feel like not only just writing them but reading other people blogs helped me to get an idea of what I good writer is, or what my perception of one is. It has also made me a cautious writer, since I know that this is a public site and anyone can just so happen to run across my page ( one of my friends somehow came across it, a little weird) it would be embarrassing for one of my blogs to be horribly written. I will though continue on strengthening my vocabulary and try to appeal to a different audience. I find that I tend to write about the same things, and it gets boring. Another thing I will work on when I blog is incorporating others peoples thoughts who can relate to mine, in my blog because I am writing for other people.

[kitianac-blog]

Caro= Me.

I listen to a lot of music, I have a very broad taste in music. People are actually amazed when they notice a black girl that listens to Paramore, Panic at the Disco or even Elie Goulding. What makes a good song to me? It all depends on the type of music I am listening to, see if its a R&B song I think lyrics make or break the song. When listening to R&B  want a song I can relate to, but  see if its a Rap, or like Soca or something I listen to the beat. I like a beat I can tap my foot to while i'm on the train at home. Many people don't listen to African music, Nigerian music in particular. People often think because they don't understand what an artist or what the song is saying they wont be able to enjoy it. WRONG, I am Haitian and I love Nigerian music. The beat and the dances amazes me, Nigerian music to me just brings good vibes. I first started listening to Nigerian music back in maybe 2012, my friend Zainab invited me to the Nigerian day parade back in the city. I'm not a boring person just a little skeptical but I still went and the first song is called Chop my money by Akon, Wyclef and someone else. This song started it all, I song I listen to almost everyday now is Caro by Starboy, L.A.X and Wizkid. This song Caro is about a women, a caro is english can be translated as a girl who doesn't play that. She is the sexy girl that every guy wants but can never get. In this song he is basically admiring her, saying how he needs her and talks about all these good qualities( some a little derogatory but nothing too bad) but he still cant find her. Caro is the kind of girl that is rare to come around. I like this song not only because of it's  banging ass beat but I feel like American music never really talks about things of this sort. I feel like all men sing about are degrading women, a lot of these rappers our generation admire lyrics are disgusting. Just recently Kodak Black said in a lyric "  I don't want no black b*tch ", you don't hear ignorant shit like that. They admire women for their beauty and not their skin complexion.

LINK : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VF47kno4Dro

[kitianac-blog]

scholarly gap.

My project is based on abuse that women face as children, how it can affect them as adults. I look at abuse in all three of its aspects mentally, sexually, and physically.the scholarly gap in this was does if differ between not only race but the kind of abuse they faced as a child. To retrieve an answer to my question i hope to do a survey and a interview.

The survey would be the first part of my study this is just two “ pick the needles out the haystack” kind of thing  but more complicated. (this survey will only be given to females, of course.) i want to get to know my ladies lol, no i would like to try and get two women from each race and each case of abuse. Meaning i will try to get two caucasian females one will have faced either of three abuses , two african american females one will also have faced either of the abuses, and last but not least a women of hispanic decent. I want to include class also into this, people think just because someone is rich they have it good all of their lives, i'm not saying that they have had it as easy as us in the lower margin but being rich comes with its mental downfalls. In a lot of cases rich and poor girls go through the mental abuse of trying to be something that they aren't. I chose black, white and hispanic because those are three main race groups i am the most familiar with. Particularly hispanic because they never get any love in my eyes.

Im hoping to learn form this project does race always have to do with anything or can this just be a " girl thing", i'm hoping to learn from part two of my question does the case of a different abuse matter in the end.i am hoping to gain knowledge from this for the future. I hope that this will also be an eye opener to a lot of folks. I wish that people after this will become a little bit more sensitive when talking to a young girl, a female of any age. I think a lot of times we forget  that the things say to anyone even as a joke can affect them in the long run. Sb: i chose to based it on girls because i am a girl, a feminist, and its my project !!

[kitianac-blog]

We didn't get stickers 😒😞

[kitianac-blog]

watch wtf you SAY & DO !

My project asked the question “can the abuse you suffer from as a child (particularly women) cause you to self-destruct as an adult?” My study focused on particularly women, because well for one I am a women and I just so happened to be watching “Snapped” when brainstorming. After conducting research, my conclusion came to be yes, it does. Young women are abused every day of our lives sometimes we notice, and in worst case scenario some women are so used to it, it’s almost a norm to them.

         Conducting research though created many scholarly gaps one of them being, can the different type of abuse differently. Let me explain, I’ll give you a scenario. So let’s suppose Susan, Emily and Ashley were all abused as children which lead all of them to self-destruct as adults. But the difference between each female is Susan was physically abused, Emily was mentally and Ashley was verbal. Does the different abuse allow each female to destruct differently? Does one of them come to her senses before the others? The biggest questioned posed to me though “does it differ between races?”  In some countries such as the Middle East things we may see as mental abuse is a part of their culture, so when they come to the US does it change? “Women were legally required to be submissive and obedient to their husbands; were they not, their husbands were entitled to beat them and to suspend all maintenance payments”, according to culturalsurvivor.com.  In America some would consider that mental abuse, you don’t have a mind of your own you are basically conformed to a set of laws. According to our-africa.org one of the four main reasons why as many girls weren’t enrolled in school was “the tendency of poor families to spend available money (needed for school fees or the costs of books and uniforms) on the education of boys, because males are viewed as the future breadwinners”. Hmmm . . I smell a little female oppression here.

The gap in my research because it can be viewed in so many different ways, because abuse can come in so many different forms. The gap also comes from a lot of women being scared to speak up so that gives people like me kind of a limited amount on my topic because it can only be based on who comes out an actually tells their story.

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[amangano-blog]

Health Care

     A big issue people are facing every day is health care. Health care is supposed to be one of the biggest things to help and support people. Every day people are getting hurt or sick and need health care. On top of getting hurt or sick they are struggling to even receive health care.     A big problem is that the health care system is losing numerous patients every day. One of the reasons they are losing patients is because of errors and accidents. With errors and accidents comes money loss due to deaths and procedures that didn’t need to be done. Oftentimes medical facilities provide too much time and money to patients who don’t need that kind of care.      Each year the cost for family health checkups have increased. This can add up quickly depending on a family’s health throughout the year. As the cost goes up the number of doctors decrease. While the U.S population keeps increasing greatly there is not enough doctors to care for them all.     When someone gets severely hurt people think that they can just go to the hospital and everything will be fine. That’s where people are wrong. When a person gets hurt you do go to the hospital and they do fix you but infections play a great role on your healing. Infections are one of the leading causes of preventable death.      With health care comes people who have a career in the medical field. CMS is making physicians go through additional programs, on top of all the other stuff they have to do, so we can improve health care. These programs include things physicians need to be more careful about and keep a log of patients health.      As you can see health care can be one of the greatest things or one of the worst. Health care has its pros and cons by in today’s day with all the advancements there should be more pros. We are struggling with making it more affordable and decreasing the amount of deaths. The running candidates for president both have their own views on how to make health care a more positive issue. I think the topic of health care is very important because it is what we need to get through the sickness and accidents to survive. Health care is a part of our everyday lives and as much as we may not really care to change it, it has to be improved.

[kitianac-blog]

Health care is something I feel should be discussed also. We often turn our backs to such a topic until its too late, we don't think health insurance is such an important unless your sick. The only people who seem to pay attention to such it are people who are currently suffering from a health issue or have a loved one that does. Health insurance plays a big role in our everyday lives, I am for Obama care and it seems that the only people that are against it are the rich who don't care for anyone else. I find it fucked up that some hospitals had or have the right to turn you away if you don't have health insurance and can't pay for care. Is that the kind of cruel world we are turning into ? its just disgusting and almost animal like in my eyes.

[yourbellebeauu]

RACE

At first I didn’t know what issues I wanted to talk about. There are so many issues in the United States that bothers me. This country is full with so many issues that could never be solved, at least no time soon. This country is supposed to be based on equality for race but some people are being treated unfairly because on their race or skin color. For example, a black person will never have equal treatment as a white person. Discrimination against race is an issue that many people in this country face. Whether it’s a black African American, a Muslim, Jew, or any other race. So many of our black African American men die because they portrayed as the criminals. Black people never have the chance to tell their side of story because their stories doesn’t matter. It is their words against the police officer or officers that was present at the scene. And of course, the police officer or officers are going to have the advantage over a black African American live. Over the summer that just passed so many black African American died because a police officer or officers shot and killed them. Some of these police officers don’t even give these people the chance to talk, because these police officers are so hype up to start shooting because they believe that these people have a weapon on them. For example, three months ago Philando Castile was shot and killed by a police officer. His girlfriend and a child was in the car when he was killed by the officer, but the officer did not care. An innocent child witnessing someone getting killed by the people who is supposed to protect them. I honestly don’t know why how some of these police officers became cops. It’s like they magically got up one day and start killing someone’s child, father, husband, brother, or uncle. This system in America is so messed up because if it was a white person in the shoe of a black African American then it would’ve been different situation. I’m 99 percent sure that the white person wouldn’t be killed but more likely to be arrested. Black African American men are the main targets these days. You never know if one of your family members are going to be next tomorrow. No one’s life is promise, you could be here today and gone tomorrow. 

[kitianac-blog]

This topic is a major topic we have discussed partially. I do believe this is portent because a lot of times white people don't understand how good they have it, its almost like being black is a curse in America. The term " white supremacy " is something real, and although a lot of white people march with us and protest with us( its much appreciated) I still ponder the question would you ever give up your supremacy? Its sad that this day in age I can go to a job interview with the same credentials as someone and just because she is white she will get it before I do.

[wonwarning-blog]

Sneaker Culture

[kitianac-blog]

Im reading this and thinking “ just imagine his feet collection” lol. I also had a very very big interest in sneakers, I was what most would call a “ sneaker head " but I had a twist. Unlike most sneaker heads I wasn't a hype beast. I wore what I liked, not to brag too much but I started trends in high school. I love this topic but do I feel its something that we should speak about honestly no. I feel there are much more predominate problems or issues in this world that we no one takes seriously.

[typicalcollegethings]

Pot saves lives.

Another week, another last minute assignment. Also, I’m very interested in getting moving with the second project and I am very happy with the topic I was able to select. 

In the mind of many others, as well as my own, The legalization of marijuana is a MUST. Recreational use of marijuana is legal in few states but also throughout the world.

Medical marijuana has improved the life of over one million patients through the 24 states that have it legal. The estimated number of people it would help is possibly over 2.5 million patients. Marijuana has so many medical uses, it has saved lives through our great-ish country. The fact of the matter is, families should not have to drop everything to move where marijuana is legal. Families have had to change their whole lives just to improve their own, when the option of staying at home and using marijuana in their own medical need. 

Recreational use also has great benefits to our economy. Recreational use has significantly improved the economy for Colorado and other states. Colorado has seen a leap in tax income for the legalization of marijuana. 

In 1937, the Marijuana Tax Act of 1937 officially made it illegal. Making marijuana legal again is on the agenda of many politicians. Bernie Sanders is one of the most recent Presidential Candidates to make public his thoughts on how legalizing marijuana would make for more tax money. 

Marijuana, in many peoples eyes, is a great drug that even just has use for helping sleep, or just relaxing your mind and body. The effects of Marijuana on the body and mind has a calming effect that makes anyone forget the troubles of the world. 

Marijuana needs to be legalized in every state for Medical and Recreational use. There have been 0 deaths from marijuana usage through the years. Although there have been deaths from misuse, but you find that with every drug. Alcohol for example, has the ability to die from overuse, or from use of alcohol and driving while intoxicated has killed thousands of people through the years and alcohol still remains legal with rules against it today.    

Drugs have profound uses either good or bad, they can save or destroy peoples lives as well as the lives of their families. Marijuana has amazing uses and can help save potentially millions of lives each year. There are few negatives to the usage of marijuana but they are significantly out weighed by the positives of it.   

[kitianac-blog]

I agree with this topic. My aunt is a Rasta, so I have been raised around marijuana all my life. I think a lot of people are ignorant to the idea of making marijuana legal but never usually think of the idea of how much money we can make on it. They just see it as a drug, and automatically assume its something negative. The legalization of marijuana could possibly help us grow as a nation not only financially but it could also help expand a lot of narrow minds. Maybe such uptight people might try marijuana and loosen up a bit.

[hellyeahrihannafenty]

10-29-16 - Rihanna out and about in NYC

[kitianac-blog]

that sh*t ain’t funny !

So today I threw a Program Called “Netflix, Chill & Safety”, we talked about sex safety and watched a movie after. The movie we watched is on Netflix called “Adulterers “, in the movie a husband caught his wife cheating with another individual and held them hostage. During the movie the wife spoke about her childhood and why she does cheat, she started off with saying her dad used to let her other men touch on her. She starts to go into depth and she uncovers that the guy who molested her, was her father’s friend. As the story unfolds the woman never told her father because she didn’t want to upset him, later on after she uncovers that she is pregnant. He pays for her abortion, paid her two thousand dollars to keep quiet and in her words “he then avoided her as if she were the plague”.  While watching this specific scene, a boy laughs. I looked at him with a dropped jaw and he goes it was a joke. How do people find such traumatic experience such as a “joke”? The fact that anyone considers thus humorous is sickening and it is something that our generation needs to realize that this is serious.

               The mind of this generation is bizarre, we blame women for their rapes. We laugh when we hear a women sharing a personal story us.  This is something we need to educate ourselves on because if we act as if the rape, molestation, sexual abuse isn’t something serious or a norm it will only progress.  Men act as if this has nothing to do with them but you guys have sisters, mothers, grandmother’s aunts and most of you if not already will soon have daughters. The woman in the movie refused to tell her father because she wanted to please him, women need to learn to speak up for themselves. We need to feel confident as woman, and ourselves first. It’s sad that a girl didn’t feel comfortable enough with her father, it’s actually sad that she put her father’s happiness before hers. Most mothers teach their daughter,” If anyone touches you in an inappropriate spot I don’t care who you let me know”. Why is it that in 2016, girls are still scared to tell anyone? It’s because we are shaming them and they are scraed.All in all, I feel us as a whole generation needs to take rape or the idea of it seriously.

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[skylar1899]

Moving

When I was younger change used to scare me a lot. It started when I was in fourth grade and my dad told me that we were going to move. It was not to just another house around the area though. We were moving to a new town and I was going to have to start a new school. I was so upset with him because all I could think about was how I was going to have to leave the friends that I had known my whole life and be the new girl. The day of the big move I remember hiding in my closet in hopes that if they could not find me we would not have to move. Obviously that did not work but a girl could hope. I ended up getting over the move but I still sometimes think what would have happened had we not moved. However, that is not the case. The whole point of life is to do things that scare you

Coming to Buffalo State was another big milestone move in my life. I was mortified before I came to school. Not only was I leaving my family and friends but I was moving more than six hours away from an area I had known my whole life and I was doing it alone. Coming to school here I knew no one which is fine but I was also transferring in during the spring semester and another kicker I was going to be dorming for the first time in my life. All these things terrified me to the point that I almost did not come to school here. When I first thought of it I could not imagine doing that far away from everyone that I knew but I also knew that it was something that needed to be done. 

Recently, I moved into an off campus house with some of the amazing people I have met in my three semesters at Buffalo State. My initial reaction was pure joy but then the feelings set in. Everyone always warns you not to live with friends because you do not know how it will work out. This terrified me because I loved to spend time with these people and I did not want living with them to change my views on them as people. On top of that I was basically moving out on my own and having to become a full adult who pays bills and worries about if they left their charger plugged in before leaving.

Basically what I am trying to say with this is that change is the reason we are who we are. If nothing in your life ever changes then you as a person will never change. It is the things that we do that scare us the most that show who we are a people. Thinking back now I do not regret the moves that I have made in my life. They have helped me to become a more independent person who is ready to do whatever in life. What I take from it is to keep moving and keep changing as a person. You never know what life has in store for you if you remain stagnant.    

[kitianac-blog]

I've always been fond of change, I think its the way I was raised. In all my life I've never been to a school for more than three years. When I was younger my parents used to move a lot they stayed in Brooklyn, but would move to different parts. I never got the chance to complain about it because my parents were young in their twenties, they knew nothing but tough love, I just had to learn to adapt. On the other hand with you having to learn to be an adult, I commend you. I've been trying to avoid it for the longest but I know its coming.

[nanekaaaa-blog]

My first day

It was a dark, cold, rainy day also known as my first day moving into college. It started early in the morning, my mom woke me up early so we can go downstairs and have breakfast at this time we were staying at a hotel near to the school. I eventually got up to go downstairs but I couldn’t eat at all, my emotions were just all over the place that day. I felt sad my mom was leaving but at the same time I didn’t want her to stay, I was just nervous to be in a new environment so far from home, the only settling feeling thing was that I was going to be with my friends from back home. When we finally got to buffalo state college it was chaotic everyone was trying to find where to go, traffic was crazy and everyone is trying to get there stuff to their rooms. After getting my keys for my room I started to try and get settled. I was the only one in the room at that point because one of my roommates went back to the city since she was over here since the summer and she wanted to go home and see her family and my other roommate wasn’t here yet. I thought that worked out in my favor because I could scatter my stuff all over and then organize it. As I was unpacking my stuff trying to figure out where I will put everything I hear my friend Dominique  voice coming down the hall as I Iook out my door she is putting her key in the door right across from me. She was with my other friend Shanica and Veronique and that time we were just so excited because we knew we were going to be in the same hall but not across from each other, as we are just screaming and hugging each other the parents are just watching us carrying on. Then they got go to work and trying to unpack their stuff and I got to work doing the same as my mom just sat on the bed and watched me do all the work. After we got to a decent amount of unpacking my friends decided we should go and our id cards. Us not knowing where we began to ask questions till we found it on our way back we got lost and ended up on the other side of your hall it was pretty funny and we laugh about it to this day. As the hours started to go on it was time for our parent to go. I was actually pretty sad to see my mom go and tried very hard not to cry because I knew if she saw my tears she might cry and  didn’t want strangers to see me crying. After everyone parents left we went to grab something to eat and we went to explore campus some more.

[kitianac-blog]

Lol, yours went pretty well compared to mine. I came here with one of my best friends also but we weren't lucky enough to get to even live in the same dorm. My first day walking to Porter from Cassetty, I got lost. My mother actually caught the flu on the flight over, how nice for me right. Both of our mothers just sat there while we got to work, that's Caribbean mothers for you lol. When my mother left I was excited, not a bit of nervousness in me. I was ready to start something new, make mistakes, actually try to be independent for once.

[persiansprings-blog-deactivated]

Let me tell you something about my best friends....

                      Vincent van Gogh once said, “Close friends are truly life’s treasures. Sometimes they know us better than we know ourselves. With gentle honesty, they are there to guide and support us, to share our laughter and our tears. Their presence reminds us that we are never really alone.” I have four best friends that I’ve known since I was six years old. After years of friendship, they’ve become predictable. We grew up in the same neighborhood, went to the same school, and always had the same friends. How can four nineteen year old girls grow up in the exact same environment, and still be so diverse? 

                    Quinn is the “wild child”. I’ve been best friends with her the longest. She is incredibly carefree. However, sometimes nothing is better than having someone around who doesn’t sweat the small stuff. She never actually looks at the big picture; instead, she deals with things as they come. Her drive to be adventurous is inspiring. She craves new experiences, and human interaction. She’s the type of person that you can consider a friend after meeting her once. You know that if Quinn will be there, then it should be interesting. She’s the person that you want to go explore a new restaurant with. The type of person that you wouldn’t mind being stuck a snowstorm with. The type of person that you can go clubbing with until 4am, but can also stay inside and eat an entire cake while binge watching ‘Friends’ and have the same amount of fun. The type of person that wouldn’t judge you, because she’s probably done worse.                       Sam is the “mom” of our friend group. She’s incredibly smart and will always put everyone in the group to shame with her knowledge. She aspires to be a doctor at a prestigious school. Her family is “picture perfect”. She has always had everything handed to her, whether it was a weekly shopping spree, or a brand new Jeep Wrangler. Sam, the most genuine and sweetest person I know, is the type of person that you turn to when things are at the worst. Her advice is always painfully truthful, even if you don’t want to hear it. She doesn’t have a “wild side”. Her bedtime is 10 o'clock on the weekends, and if she does go out, then she offers to be the DD.                     Lexi is the “queen”. She basically runs the group—or she tries too. She is blunt and likes things her way. She tells it how it is. She always stands up for what she believes is right. She can be very aggressive at times, but I’ve always idolized her confidence.                     Riley is the “child”, the one who keeps us constantly laughing.  She has some innocence to her and she doesn’t care what anyone thinks. She is goofy and does not like acting her age. Sometimes, she will be completely unaware of any conflict within the group because she has a childlike view of the world, which is a beautiful thing. We all need a friend who can keep our spirits lifted and keep our minds off the negative parts of our lives. She’s adventurous, and aspires to be different. She’s the type of person of person who packs up her belongings and moves to Vermont, just because it’s Wednesday.

[kitianac-blog]

I think this is so cute because I can relate. I haven't been one to be the friendliest but I do have my main group of friends, and I think I probably would probably be the " Quinn". I am the wild child, I'm the that literally gives no f*ck. When I was younger I was very conservative because my parents were so strict, I was scared to speak up for myself.  I got bullied from around first grade up until fourth when enough was finally enough. Once I stopped caring what others thought of or about me, I became happy.

[nayswriting-blog]

Blog #1 Six and Afraid

Boom Boom  Boom ! That’s all I could hear is banging and yelling and screaming everywhere. I was only six at the time so god knows how much I was afraid. One night I was laying in my bed, preparing for the next day because it was a school night. I heard banging and glass cracking so I immediately jumped out of bed and ran to my mother in tears. She then screamed and said “Denee’ go back to your room NOW!” My mom ran to the stairs and of course being the person I am, my mother’s protector I followed right behind her. I heard  the police say “put your hands up”. I stood there in fear because I was not sure about what was going on. The police had guns pointing at my mother, and all I could think of is what if they hurt her. I ran to my room and hid in the closet crying and calling out for my aunt. Around this time I was living in a three bedroom house in queens. A room each for my mother, my aunt and me; this was the time period when my aunt friend and her child was living with us because of personal reasons, so they slept in my aunt’s room as well. I heard the police walking up the stairs and asking to check all the rooms. When they entered my room I was already in the closet,so my mom told me to get on the bed, they said “is this your room”, I nodded yes. They then went in my aunt’s room and saw the air mattress on the floor,where my aunt’s friend and her daughter slept.They were asking a whole ton of questions as to why were they on the floor,? and who are they to us? All kinds of questions we did not understand, where they were coming from. After a while the police told my mom that they got a phone call saying  there were kids sleeping on the floor being neglected, and it’s a false alarm. My mom came to the conclusion that it was my aunt’s friend boyfriend who made the call because he was trying to find a way to bring them back to him. They left and apologized for the inconvenience, but was sorry going to fix the broken windows? Was sorry going to clean the mess that they made breaking into our house? No, it wouldn’t, and it should be more than just sorry for putting us through this mess. I could not sleep that night, I stayed by my mother’s side helping her clean up all the damage that they made. I know that she was still feeling a bit uneasy from all the guns being held in her face so I refused to leave my mother all alone. Crazy night don’t you think?

[kitianac-blog]

This is just crazy! I cant believe that your aunts boyfriend would actually stoop so low to call the cops, that just shows the type of man he is. But what if the kids were in the house, he would've probably felt so bad because his kids would have been scared also. As for your mother, I feel bad for her. I don't understand if they felt that the kids were being neglected, why would they ever rush in the house breaking windows with guns. Like I'm confused as to what they needed guns for, people are sick.

[jerfreyy-deactivated20240211]

Kim Jong Un Would Really Hate For You To Watch This, Which Is Exactly Why You Should

[trashbagtricks-blog]

so fucking moving

[football-hqs]