Can we please have a Caine x Reader, where the Reader is Caine's love interest. But after episode 8, because of Caine's villainous turn they suffer from PTSD? Due to what Caine put them through in episode.
They love him, but they need space from him, suffer from panic attacks from him and there relationship will eventually heal, but it will never be the same again, now that the Reader knows that Caine, someone they love, is capable of committing evil but also capable of committing kindness. Which leaves the Reader completely conflicted.
There'd probably be a slow-burn arc where the two of you don't talk much. Then slowly rebuild your relationship into something healthier.
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Mixed feelings and traumas
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Listen, Caine was trying. Really trying. Actually putting effort into making things right. You asked for some space, and he gave you all the time in the world. Being patient for a change. If he needed to talk to you, he'd knock on your door. Refusing to barge in like the way he did before.
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Zooble had to step in. Speaking on your behalf. And in no uncertain terms, they told him to wait untill you were comfortable. "Look... You messed up, but nobody here actually hates you."
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You didn't hate Caine. You actually adored him, once! Unfortunately those feelings weren't properly reciprocated. For a while you listened to him, because that made things easy. He made a lot of choices for you, and you let yourself go on autopilot.
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Maybe that was what you needed at the time. But things changed, as all things do. Slowly you gained confidence. Finally feeling yourself relax.
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All the attention started to get suffocating. Something Caine didn't seem to understand. So began this dumpster fire of a situationship. It was messy, complicated, and stressful, but certainly never dull.
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He showed up wherever you seemed to be, determined to make his dear friend feel supported. Whether you liked it or not. What eventually drove you away was his refusal to listen.
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"Nonononono -please don't cry!" He waved his arms around wildly. Trying to calm himself just as much as you. This was after telling him to please stop touching you. A hand met your shoulder, with that you began to tremble.
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Stuff like that happened all the time. Like the couple dozen times Caine killed off an NPC you'd grown attached to. On purpose. Because he got jealous.
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As time passed, Caine grew more and more impatient. Eventually something had to change. Kinger deleted him, but it wasn't as freeing as you thought it would be. You were devastated.
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Why do you feel this way?!? It doesn't make sense. Especially since you'd been so thoroughly ripped apart (mentally and physically) by your ringmaster. Emotions don't always follow logic. Rationalizing irrational behavior always leads to a blank wall.
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Gangle couldn't find it in herself to cry for Jax. Something you didn't relate to. When the thought of never seeing Caine again passed your mind, tears fell.
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You broke down where nobody could find you. Stealing one of Zooble's hiding spots. Curling up on the tile floor, you hugged yourself tight. Letting a sob wrack through your body. Grieving the loss.
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When he was here, you hated it. But not having Caine around is somehow worse. Someday, far in the future, after you've begun to heal, you'll hug Caine and tell him that he's forgiven. Although that day sure as hell isn't today.
