When I talked to my parents about having DID, there were two completely different interactions, one made me cry out of pain and the other made me cry out of slight pain and kind of happy.Â
This was⊠Hurtful, I had to say I had MPD because she didn't even know what DID was or how it works, when I tried explaining it to her she kept on telling me âOh you have no trauma for that to happenâ or didn't let me explain to her my experiences. I tried telling her âMom, yes, I do have traumaâ and I even went as far to explain my trauma but the only response I got back from her was âOh, so now youâre blaming me for all of this?â and I suddenly felt bad for having trauma that she caused me, but also upset because in the mind of a 5 year old, seeing your mother scream, shout and and her boyfriend doing the same and it even got violent⊠That was traumatic.Â
For all of that to be excused because my mom cant accept that what she did traumatized her daughter.
But continuing that day, she continued to tell me me that âIts all in my headâ and that âTheres levels to trauma, and you don't have the right levels to have DIDâ and it just hurt a lot.
So, my mom told my dad without my permission, and I had anxiety the next 2 hours, waiting for my dad to come home from work. I was expecting a lecture, or something hurtful to be thrown my way, because i've already experienced that.
My dad came home, he had Burger King and was surprisingly not lecturing me or anything, so I asked him about it and he did say some things hurtful, like, âOh well I know some people with DID, and I don't see anything in youâ and, âI don't believe you,â
But I think the best thing was, he didn't dismiss me, he asked for my experiences, he asked for the symptoms I have, though that doesn't make anything he said less hurtful. There's a lot less to say since the conversation wasn't a full day and only like 10 minutes.Â
Just because your parent/guardian/etc. doesn't understand what youâre going through, that doesn't make you any less validated in your experiences. DON'T let your parents/abusers/etc make you feel bad for being traumatized, because your trauma is valid, and your emotions are valid. Dont let them dismiss you.
If youâre in an unsafe space to talk about this to anyone, you can dm me, my dmâs are always open.