i might delete this acc soon, i dont know, i am really happy this month and im going to do things i never thought i would do: work and college.
its crazy to me how that happen all of sudden, i finally have a job ? whatt, at least is somewhere i really wanted wich is aviation, im very very happy and the college im gonna learn new languages. waow this is going to be so new and crazy to me but hey, i will have my own money haaa the most exciting thing
and my art journey.... idk bro, i suffered too much and didnt get anything, im 21 and time is passing by faster than ever, unfortunately i had to time out a little... but i never ever think that art is not going to be part of my life forever, i just want to live life. hopefully living life will bring art naturally back to me, lets be positive !!!
so i don't remember the last time i posted abt my hair here BUT I'm extremely happy bc after 2 years im finally seeing results in healthiness and growing! so recapitulating, the last time i dyed my hair was june 2023 and the last huge haircut was on november 2023, these dates are important !
this is literally the first time i saw my REAL hair or not since im on birth control since 2023 as well lol, like my hair is so voluminous and curly and I've never been so in love with my hair until now. this year i did a deal with myself to not straighten my hair ever even for important dates, parties, vacations etc im wearing my curls all the way !! and its working soo much omg
for comparation:
jan/2024 > june/2025
THIS IS JUST A YEAR AND 4 MONTHS DIFFERENCE LIKE WHAT???
and no, i didnt do hair oiling nor suplements nothing bc i dont have money for that lol, i only took care of my hair properly, im being so serious !!! like i didn't even bought expensive shit, i just got back on my oils treatments NOW, this month, i think the last time i did them were in 2023-ish ?
when i compared this pictures i got extremely happy, i mean i know i have long hair genes (my hair used to be on my butt in 2019) and that my hair grows fast, BUT I FORGOT! like i was so angry last year and complaining a lot abt my hair being so short and wondering that my hair might not be growing fast anymore bc im an a adult now and my hormones are not the same as a teen then boom, 2025 proved me that my genes is still right. thats soo craazy. i cant wait to cut the ends off and have my full natural hair again.
and my hair has never been so curly and healthier like today, i love taking caring of it and cant wait how it will be next year. im living and loving the moment 🩷🩷🩷🩷
i remember thinking i would post only here when i start doing my drawings but sike 😭😭😭 im still SO SCARED for no reason i hate showing myself so muchhh arrgghhh
but hey im doing art again, feeling free ? no. liking it ? no. struggling? ABSOLUTELY FUCKING YES. but we ball, we continue and we thrive (hopefully)
so first off talking abr my art journey, im on therapy for almost 4 months and im seeing so much potential. it is in fact EXTREMELY hard to think abt some things that has been holding you for the worse. and my art is growing even that im not studying anymore like, im definetely so happy these days.
and i will travel twice this year which is insane ? the last time i traveled was in 2021 for my grandmas funeral, and know i will go to são paulo with my classmates and celebrate my birthday in my hometown alone with my family, god im so so so happy and excited for this moment you have nooo idea!
and bc of that it did motivated me to start working out in the gym, its been 18 days since, i mean.. its a start lol
so my brain and my life have been really different since i started therapy, this got power!! i will ascend and be the best version of myself !!!
welp! it happened, i just started doing therapy because my situation is deplorable ....
i stopped drawing again after trying to go back studying..... again....
but this was in march ! its may now and I've been on therapy since then bc my life is A WHOLE MESS and i cannot love myself in any aspect of life. i did have a few tries to go back but failed more than once, im just drawing whatever on these days, but nothing serious ... i don't even know if this is the right mindset. as i always say... i don't understand nothing...
i created an character to follow me on this journey, when I'm not in a mood to draw i draw her, she dont have a name but shes really cute.
here she iss.
and thats it for these months, i didn't really create nothing and i am hating these moments, but I'm healing and trying to find my peace... and love myself....it's so extremely hard super super hard...
kyoshi and avatar katara (swapped au) dancing together (not literally but in a spiritual connection way)! I increased the saturation a lot to hide mistakes because I’m too lazy to finish it all !! (2 versions)
Kyoshi has Ainu inspired clothing (attush ruunpe coat I believe) performing an Ainu Crane Dance. Katara has Yup’ik inspired clothing (kuspuk with decorations) and dances with fans (tegumiak).
Please correct me on any of the terms/clothing, etc!!
i really really REEEALLY dont have the brain to think about all of this lmao like I GOT FUCKING SICK AGAIN DUDE all because of my thoughts i will kill myself fr
HERE ARE MY FIGURES I TRIED IN THE BEGGINING OF THIS YEAR!
this was really challenging and difficult for me to do, didnt do any construction bc it was more about proportion and likeness, i think i did a good job 😳
i spent at least 2-3hours each, to be really precise on my strokes.
oh boy .. i really really thought i was gonna just draw a lot but my fucking brain is fuckibg me up again by the same situations before. . so...
i did a couple of drawings like, mine! and i was pretty proud and stuff but i dont wanna post them.. sowy, my friend kinda pushed me tho but im not ready yet... should i post my studies on figure? i liked them a lot i think i will laterr
and THAT feeling that i suck and after so many years im still stuck at the basics and I'm 20 years old and blabla are still here and i don't know what to do anymore... but seriously, it did hurt me when i did something to help my friend and i realized that neither myself know how to do it. . mind you, the person knows now LOL and this sentiment came back now so here am i AGAIN studying the same fucking shit im doing since the beginning which is this cubes, cylinders etc 3d mindset thing and made me realize how dumb am i... i can't believe i had a burnout because of that and still bad lol i don't know if i trust myself anymore but i don't wanna quit again, i just cant take this no more guys.. .. also my sleep schedule is fucked up again, waking up at 12 and sleeping at 3am is not good lol
random sonic stuff ~ it's been kinda my go-to for warmups lately because nothing quite recalibrates the art brain like drawing something you loved drawing as a kid 🦔
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