just come on,

if i can learn to live with myself, then you will too.

[knowstruth]

hey!! i’m quinn (they/she, 20+, cst) and this is an indie, semi-selective, multimuse. this is a sideblog, follows will come from my main (mcmorare). i hope you enjoy my blog and have a wonderful day/night!

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[knowstruth]

@survivuers (lina) sent: i heard you crying through the wall. is everything okay?

Torin's covered in sweat. His hands won't stop shaking, his head is aching, his heart's pounding like it wants to break his fuckin' ribs and he's hunched in the corner like someone's kicked him in the stomach and his eyes are nearly screwed shut against that stupid awful light that he can't remember how to turn off. He'd been back in the caves, listening to the drip, the creatures skittering, feeling the stale air, little insect feet every now and then tickling across his arm or leg. Next moment he's tangled in cloth (the blanket) in a wide open space (his room) that's far too bright (equipped with overhead lights and a window). That sudden a shift, waking up.

It had taken him hours and medication just to sleep in the first place. He'd have to steal some of Lina's stuff to pass back out now.

Speaking of.

He's breathing like he just nearly drowned, gasping as he wipes at his eyes, his nose, his hair out of his face. Can she hear that too? "Just me." It comes out both too loud and too breathy. As if she doesn't know he's the only one in the room, as if that means everything's fine. "I just- I got startled."

[knowstruth]

@bykacie (the creature) sent: “no one's ever taken my picture before.”

There's a polaroid camera in her hands, a sweet grey and brown one she'd gotten as a birthday present one year that her mom still cringes to hear called old-fashioned. Tally's got the sight pressed nearly against her eye as she squints to try and line everything up right, having to tilt her head back slightly to get his face in frame.

Click!

With a grin, she pulls the camera away from her face and lets the film slide out into her hand. Bright eyes turn to him as she waves the developing picture (yes, she knows it doesn't actually do anything, but it's fun!). "Really? Well then you should keep this one! A little momento!"

[oddsfavorcd]

@knowstruth (rian) sent: “i know i don’t need to be worried about you. i… i want to.”

sella cocks an eyebrow at rian. “you... want to be worried about me?” she asks. her tone is light and teasing, but there's something in her gut that's gone all fluttery at the words.

she's not sure anyone has ever actually wanted to be worried about her before.

it's a nice feeling.

[knowstruth]

"Well, yeah." He's sure he sounds awkward, and weird, and crazy - feels it too, practically blushing, glancing down at the floor, hand instinctively finding the back of his neck. "Kinda." It's hard to explain. She gives him feelings he's never known. Never anticipated. And he doesn't mind them.

"I dunno. I like being around you. And if I'm gonna do that, I'm gonna care about you. I want to." The words feel like they fall so short of the actual meaning, but the thought of making a bolder claim draws out a cautious fear and even still those might come out too clumsy.

[notmorbid]

the lost shtetl.

dialogue prompts from the lost shtetl by max gross.

we were wrong for each other, right from the beginning.

i just can't stand to look at ____ anymore.

try to control yourself.

keeping a good house is nothing to sneeze at.

it was all a trick, wasn't it?

what are you doing out of bed?

people talk. it's only natural to overhear.

get the hell out of here, and don't come back.

have you ever been to the circus before?

most liars have short memories.

any time, night or day, is fine to call.

who still watches videos?

even celebrity has its limits.

i'm fine. please leave me alone.

i'm afraid that once the tears start, they'll never stop.

i'm not sure we're allowed to do that.

that sounds like a shitty plan.

you can stay with me for tonight. i've got a sofa that pulls out.

nobody can tell you what to do or what to think.

i grew up in a place like this.

it's very nice, of course, but it's not home.

there's no real hurry, is there?

they're just stories. nobody in them is real.

what do you talk about with _____?

i will never complain again about living in a backwater.

everybody wants to know how you are.

it was very good of you to check up on me.

why don't you come inside?

you can't talk to me that way.

you won't mention my name, right?

if i sleep on it, i'll talk myself out of it.

i was fool enough to think death would be preferable.

how was it? did it match your hopes and dreams?

the men of the world are out for themselves.

modesty isn't everything.

if you said i traded one nightmare for another, you wouldn't be too far off the mark.

i should have left a note.

don't you feel sorry for me. not for a second. i've made my choices, and i'm happy enough with them.

there's a demon of pride in every man.

the heart is tethered to a different set of rules than any other part of the anatomy.

that was your first time, wasn't it?

don't get too comfortable.

desperate times call for desperate measures.

you needn't fear.

no one is going to harm you.

i don't want your money.

if you come back here, you'll regret it.

you shouldn't believe everything everybody tells you.

i don't need any help from you.

you can kiss my you-know-what.

don't you ever shut up?

[notmorbid]

burden of truth: season 4 [2/2].

dialogue prompts from season four of burden of truth.

what was your mom like?

i couldn't do it. i didn't give up.

you're not yourself. i worry about you.

was that supposed to make me feel better?

this could be a really nice place.

it's okay to be nervous.

i need you. we're a team.

no one was supposed to get hurt.

give me the bat.

at least i'm honest about who i work for and what i do.

what you do in this world is who you are.

is it cool if we don't really talk about that right now?

what kind of trouble you in?

i can find somewhere else to stay.

i really hope it's okay that i came.

i said something i shouldn't have.

i'm so sorry i left the way i did.

no one's talked to me like i'm a person in a while. i guess it kind of freaked me out.

you've been so good to me.

the sound travels in this place. i just wish you had told me.

no one noticed i was gone.

i feel like enough of a failure on my own.

apology pizza.

you did your best. and you played by the rules.

the law isn't very good at protecting people. it's better at compensating them once the damage is already done.

you bottle things up. it's not good for you, and it's not good for us.

every time i leave, i just get dragged back.

nobody does anything selflessly. i should know.

i don't even know if i'm allowed to want anything for myself anymore.

to think i looked up to you.

you have no idea what _____ is capable of.

who taught you that? that being scared is a bad thing?

i don't want to spend another night apart from you for the rest of our lives.

i know it doesn't feel like it, but i'm here with you.

oh, i don't trust you. i'm scared of you.

don't wake the baby.

you can come back from this. you're the toughest person i've ever met.

you can't waste time looking back on the past. trust me.

the world can be a scary place. people can be awful to each other.

pretending this isn't real won't make it go away.

i'm tired of waiting on justice to show up.

do your worst. i got nothing to lose.

why are you willing to fight for everyone but yourself?

how do you prove that something doesn't exist?

i'm sure you're disappointed, but i'm not dead yet.

it's more dramatic in the movies, but it's still sweet.

i know it feels like everything right now. trust me, i know that.

i was just trying to do what i thought you would do.

does this ever get easier?

you don't think a lot of me.

i think the world of you. that's the problem.

no one's ever done anything for me before.

it shouldn't end this way. sometimes, it just does.

you were always the one to watch.

i didn't know you were here. i would've reached out.

you want me to forgive you so you can feel better.

you did something wrong, but it shouldn't be fatal.

are you really just gonna be a mom?

that's who you are. you stand up for people.

you have more than made up for any harm you've done.

you are good. you just have to be brave enough to prove it.

if you don't face your past, you will never be free from it.

i didn't used to be like this, you know?

someday, when you're ready, you'll let people in.

i read once, 'be who you needed'.

i think good character is about trying.

you run your life, for better or worse.

thank you. no one's ever been this nice to me before.

i got you a present. to celebrate your success. you need to do that more.

you gave me the courage to be the person i always should have been. thank you for that.

i never thought i could have that. i didn't think i was worthy.

you are so strong. so good. so patient, and so kind.

somehow, you make me calm.

i want it to be you and me. for good. forever.

no one fights harder or loves deeper than you.

you protect your people. i love being one of your people.

i never actually believed i was anything special, but you made me feel like i was. like i am.

your brow furrowed. you can't fool me.

[knowstruth]

i know i need to be back here again more and do more writing but for now i am here with the thought that arista and blanca from po.se would be BEST fucking friends my beloved hardened optimists with all their adopted children

[notmorbid]

housemates.

dialogue prompts from housemates: a novel by emma copley eisenberg.

i feel like a stuffed animal that's lost its stuffing.

let's give them something to look at.

you're much too complicated to be boxed in.

how do you identify?

where will you run?

no. won't. shan't.

i wish there was somewhere to put it all. make it all make sense.

who would've thought you had it in you?

you are more effective than any alarm clock.

i don't usually look like this.

what is your type, exactly?

the right moment kept not presenting itself.

you're a snob, but you're also not wrong.

let's go get you some air.

i'm not crying. it's just my eyes. they sting.

i'm not sure i'm good at romantic relationships.

i always thought i'd be on my own forever. maybe i was right.

i heard you crying through the wall. is everything okay?

'platonic' doesn't mean 'chaste'.

no one's ever taken my picture before.

it's not people i like to see, as much as the land.

i don't blame you. no one blames you.

why do you cry in the night? in your bedroom, at home?

i pretend to believe in things i don't believe in.

just because _____ gave it to you doesn't mean you have to take it.

there are murder shows on every channel.

read me one?

maybe i should have been angry, or should be now.

why does there need to be a new word for every little thing?

if you met my _____, you would understand.

have you ever had an abortion?

i say kind of fucked up things sometimes.

do you love _____?

doesn't everyone want to be happy?

sometimes i start reading the news and i lose hours. a whole day.

it never hurts to ask.

favorite pleasure?

braiding other people's hair: now that's nice.

that ____ is checking you out.

i know you and _____ hooked up.

you'll be comfortable here. no one will bother you.

no one gets all this more than you do.

with you, it's not so hard. i have enough room.

well, i guess we're married now.

i'm too old for this feeling.

i'm all wrong.

it wasn't only you who lost ____.

why do today what you could put off until tomorrow?

you're not going to let this go, are you?

i don't like being told what to do.

you decide certain things about yourself, and then it's hard to change them.

things are about to change again, i think.

i'd end it with _____, if you wanted me to.

i'm not even human to ____. i'm not even a person.

there's only room for one main character in any story.

i don't want to go home yet. i can't.

maybe there's another way to be together. there's got to be.

i miss you. what are you doing?

i just want to know that you'll be okay.

can i call someone for you? can i take you somewhere?

it's ordinary people who do what needs to be done.

it must be so exhausting to make fun of what everyone believes in.

i just came to see if you were alright.

i don't blame you for wanting what you never had.

i've lived longer than i ever planned to.

time just passes. things just change.

i don't know what to do with my hands.

i feel almost young again.

[oddsfavorcd]

@knowstruth sent: “all that matters is that you're alive.”

sella laughs. or. she makes a sound that would've been a laugh, had her vocal cords not been damaged by the smoke. “sure doesn't feel like it,” she manages. the capitol had fixed her up on the outside, her skin all too-shiny and too-tight, but they'd left her vocal cords alone, said that they'd sort themselves out in a few days.

“did it feel this bad when you won?” she doesn't remember much of torin's games from the sparse reruns they'd had on television.

[knowstruth]

It's both a good sentiment and a shitty one. She is alive, and that is all that matters - because she's alive, she can live, she made it through. Because the Capitol has a new vessel to prop up like a doll. She's alive, for better and worse. Torin's stomach turns every time he tries to think too hard about what approach to take. Like he's equipped to be fucking giving advice, sour aftertaste of last night still stuck in the back of his throat.

"Oh, yeah." That's a question he feels no obligation to sugarcoat. The weeks after his games had been fucking hell, the Capitol obligations, the nightmares, sleep paralysis, the attempts to calm him, the readjustment to the light giving him a 24 hour headache that took at least a week to ebb away. "It fucking sucked. It always does. Everything hurts and feels wrong and it's awful." For a moment, he pauses, tongue running over his teeth. "It's some of the worst of it." A thought that could be comforting.

[mcmorare]

HELLO hello everyone i am so sorry i have been so absent december ended up being so so busy (in very good ways luckily)!! i have missed you all and hope you all had lovely holidays and got to spend some relaxing time with loved ones!! happy new year to you all ilu <3

[notmorbid]

natural beauty.

dialogue prompts from natural beauty: a novel by ling ling huang.

i feel grimy, sitting across from you.

man's greatest invention: the potato with salt.

wait a minute, i know you.

you look very familiar. have we met.

stop by any time. ask for me.

it's alright. you're okay.

all i wanted was to make _____ proud.

i don't want you to go.

it's sunday. i just wanna lounge.

no need to be embarrassed.

is there anything more comforting than knowing what to fear?

you're so much stronger than i am.

let's take a few deep breaths together, okay?

i happen to love long stories. are you busy tomorrow night?

good or bad, we all want to be absolved of our choices.

no one's ever cooked for me.

i'm not judging. honest.

i just need space sometimes.

i think you try to be a little repellent.

i've never had to worry about too many people liking me.

do you want more wine? we should have more wine.

i was just about to make some tea. why don't you come in and warm up?

something's different. wrong.

i just want to look at you.

it looks worse than it feels.

if only _____ could see us now.

why do you always assume the worst?

you've never been clubbing?

it all feels like it happened to a different person.

you're usually so uptight.

you're so mean when you're _____.

we rarely see hope in this place.

you are remarkably unselfish.

it feels like a lifetime ago, doesn't it?

stop taking everything.

i love you, you know.

please don't leave me.

i love you, too, you know.

should we tell someone about this?

who would believe us? and what would we even say?

i still don't really know how to explain it.

i feel like i can't remember as much as i should.

you're a hero.

try to get some rest.

monsters are real. they just don't look anything like you would expect.

you sure about this?

it hurts to see you like this.

come closer. there's no need to be afraid of me.

when it was all happening, i didn't feel like i had a choice.

you'll come back and visit me?

it's just you and me now.

if i can't look like my parents, i don't want to look like anyone.

[knowstruth]

@oddsfavorcd (palladium) sent: 🎁 | i got: we begged 2 explode by jef.f rosenst.ock

Arista has tried to be friendly with the career victors. She has. And it's not that they're exactly antagonistic very much of the time, nothing like that, but...

There's a difference. Something in the way they talk to her, to Ben, to Sadie, to the victors from 10 or 11, something that's different from how they talk to each other. Like they're all in on something everyone else just couldn't possibly get. Like they have something everyone else lacks.

Maybe it's the fact that it's still only her first year after her victory and she's tired, she got not nearly enough sleep last night between stress and prep team and escort doting, sometimes there's a moment where she can still smell the saltwater - whatever it is, for once, watching a group of careers chat amongst themselves while images of her home fill the screen, Nine's newest almost snaps. For just a moment.

"Stop sneering at our joy like it's a careless mistake."

[candyflossmemes]

spotify wrapped has arrived. send me a number from 1-100 for a starter based on that song, or a lyric from it, or send a 🎁 for me to shuffle.

[candyflossmemes]

spotify wrapped has arrived. send me a number from 1-100 for a starter based on that song, or a lyric from it, or send a 🎁 for me to shuffle.

[candyflossmemes]

spotify wrapped has arrived. send me a number from 1-100 for a starter based on that song, or a lyric from it, or send a 🎁 for me to shuffle.

[notmorbid]

burden of truth: season 2 [2/2].

dialogue prompts from the second season of burden of truth.

don't. don't make this about me.

how is this not about you?

i don't want to put you in a compromising position.

i know not to get in your way.

don't touch any of my stuff.

will you be quiet?

i couldn't sleep my first night, either.

i like to think we'll be different with our kids. i mean, as a generation. i think we'll be better.

you were always my little dreamer.

i can't imagine what you're going through, but i see you.

how do you survive here?

bet you needed a drink after that.

you're gonna resent me.

i will search day and night, but i can't guarantee that i'll find anything.

whatever way you go with this, i am here for you, okay?

we're gonna need as much help as we can get.

i thought with everything going on, you could use a little self-care.

you're my star.

i booked us pedicures.

big words, from such a little lady.

i am beyond tired. i feel like i am stoned.

as if you'd know what being stoned is like.

morning, sweetheart.

you don't have to explain.

you look like yourself again.

people don't change.

i'll come with you. we'll work on the way.

what are you doing here? everything okay?

smoke show! it's good to see you.

sometimes it's better and sometimes it's worse, you know?

never make the best out of anything: be the best, and the rest will follow.

you're not like him. you're nothing like him.

i got you.

get up. have some coffee.

did i make this mess?

are you in trouble with the cops or something?

i saw something i shouldn't have seen.

that's the plot of the godfather. are you messing with me?

i am so, so sorry. i love you.

you're getting soft.

it's nice here. not a bad place to be buried.

you shouldn't be here. you should not be here.

why didn't you tell me?

i guess i was just hoping for it to be anything else.

you're strong, but pretending to be fine with this is crazy.

i need to know you're good and not just pretending to be.

you know, i hadn't cried in years until i came back here.

for most of my life, ____ was my hero. doesn't that make me horrible?

i miss ____. and it sucks.

i know it's a shot in the dark, but it's our only real shot.

i'm sorry i haven't always been the best ______.

you're listening, but you're not understanding.

what the hell is wrong with you?

don't ever let anyone see you cry.

what's up with the secret bunker?

sometimes justice and the law aren't the same thing.

i am sick and tired of your holier-than-thou shtick.

keep toeing the party line. see where it gets you.

the system is rigged, and their rules are rigged.

i don't want to be like you. i don't want to be hard.

i know you think you're one of the good ones. maybe you used to be.

you can't go dark like that.

volunteering for the night shift?

you know i love you, right?

i'll be better. i'll be a better _____.

what are they gonna do to me?

you must be pretty torn up.

i didn't think you liked me much.

this might be the last time i can get here for a while.

nothing is gonna change unless we change it.

there's no 'we'. you're one of them.

you won't forget about me, will you?

i didn't have an easy time when i was your age.

you are a good person. everybody knows that.

i loved looking at the sky when i was a kid.

i'm sick of having no power.

you were scared. you defended yourself.

i said 'no surprises'.

how do i just move on with my life?

i know something about not being able to move on. you just keep trying.

i know what you risked for me.

you're better than you think you are, you know.

i didn't want to leave without saying goodbye.

you know, this is technically illegal.

we both had to grow, and we had to be apart to do that.

you're so young. how do you know so much already?

there's something i never told you. something i never told anyone.

i keep running because i don't think i've ever been loved. so i don't know how to love.

there are people who try to love me, but i won't let them.

did you think about asking me? to stay with you?

you're gonna conquer the world.

you didn't answer the question.

[notmorbid]

run for the hills.

dialogue prompts from run for the hills: a novel by kevin wilson.

you have to be open to change. you never know what the weather will bring.

don't feel like you have to do anything for me.

i've been very lonely, _____.

you don't have to marry anyone to be happy.

you don't know me. i could be so awful.

it was neat to see you so happy.

i could never replace you.

murder can be fun, right? if you're not the one being murdered, of course.

would you have come, if you knew?

have you been in many relationships?

you are very interesting, and super capable, and quite pretty.

i keep people at a distance, i know.

you sound like a fucking alien.

sorry. i know this is weird.

_____ doesn't know you're coming?

i was prepared to really hate you.

i'm going to keep lying, unless something changes that makes me tell the truth.

please don't. i already feel like shit, okay?

you're pretty darn easy to scare.

it's pretty damn bad, but it won't stay this bad. i'll tell you that for sure.

i'm not much for marriage, but i do like companionship.

i am not candid with many people, but i'll probably never see you again.

you want to come with me? you're sure?

i was a little scared of you, when we first met.

i'm trying to make sure this isn't a dream.

it's not a dream, okay? this is real.

you're not going to make trouble, are you?

i let other people guide my life when i was a kid, and it did not go well.

i didn't fall asleep. i promise.

sorry. i wanted to say it at a more opportune time.

we've got four kinds of poptarts.

everything about you makes me suspect you're some kind of fairy creature.

i think i scare my mom a little bit. just a little.

my parents think i'm kind of weird.

did you think we'd get this close?

beginner's luck, i guess.

why do you always talk like a fake lawyer when you get nervous?

i'm trusting you.

the longer we sit here, the more suspicious it looks.

i think we need to pretend like this didn't happen.

i never had anxiety until i met you.

you're overthinking this.

it is definitely unexplainable and ominous.

you found me. how did you find me?

can we not do this here?

i can make coffee. we have a lot to talk about.

______ is kind of a cool name.

i never knew that. you never told me.

i thought you'd be happier to see me.

okay. i'm just going to ask. are you the leader of a cult?

i hate that i did what i did. i don't know why i did it. i wish i hadn't.

it was the worst day of my life, when you left.

i have actually never held a human child in my entire life.

it's never the kid's fault.

can i film you? the light is nice.

i am happy. i'm fine.

i've never yelled this much in my life.

it's good, you know, to have roots.

i feel like i'm auditioning for something.

that's the thing about quests: you have to get back to where you started, and you have to keep living.

can i hug you?

just scooch over and let me sit down. i need to tell you something.

are we leaving? what's happening.

i'll always be grateful you did this with me. you didn't have to.

can i say that i love you?

you'll always have me. anything else that happens, you will always have me.