status: newcomer || 5'11 . she/they . demi . 29 . former cult member . the reef . INFP
have you seen ( knox lovelace, she/they )? They look a lot like (h.alsey). The ( 29 ) year old ( former cult member ) is so ( straightforward, adaptable, loyal ) but I heard they can also be really ( impatient, impulsive, destructive ). Can you believe they’ve been in town for ( just arrived )?! They live in the ( the reef trailer court ) neighborhood and kind of remind me of ( desert, kiss mark tattooed on the hip, shades stay on indoors, bleached blonde ). If I was asked, I’d guess that they were ( 9 Lives ) in their yearbook for the class of ( 2015 ).
BIO (cult, parricide, snakes) ↓
From a tight-knit community in sunny California to a cold, chomper-infested island on the East Coast? Sounds like a horrible trade, but did Knox and Petronella Lovelace love how it turned out!
Born to Orion and Ophelia Lovelace – who had abandoned their old identities to start new lives with deeper meaning – Knox was unlucky enough to automatically follow the path chosen by their parents. It was yet to be determined whether they would share the values and truths proclaimed by The Starlight Oasis, and maybe, as an only child, they would have given in. Auron Grail, the cult's charismatic leader, would have become their mentor, and Knox would never question a single word from the wise man. Who knows what turns life would have taken, what choices they would have made?
Knox and their little sister, Petronella, weren't the only children growing up in this community but they certainly stood out in the peace-loving, permanently high community from day one. While most kids caught mice to have a little friend to look after, Knox and Pet needed them as food for their Rattlesnake - Noodles. Things The Starlight Oasis owned were only interesting if the leader deemed them forbidden, which is precisely why the Lovelace siblings came into possession of a VHS copy of The Fifth Element and played it on repeat. They only cared about those pages in books that had been ripped off. Rules only made sense if they could be broken.
Petronella loved chaos as long as it was bloodless (yuck!). Knox didn't mind. If Pet started a sentence, Knox finished it for her - with a punch to a stranger's face, if necessary. Getting their hands dirty was the part of fun Pet wasn't fond of. If there was any yin to yang in chaos, that's precisely what the Lovelace siblings were to each other.
They couldn't stay in the community they hated or they would suffocate. Auron Grail proved a madman could exceed his own expectations and push the limits even further. Orion and Ophelia followed him and his teachings blindly, just like the rest of the group; not a single person ever doubted his words, and to make things even worse? Knox learned that they were the great leader's child and, somehow, it made neutralizing him their priority. A haphazard move that was very on brand for Knox.
For the first time Petronella had to clean up after Knox.
My last stop: Salem. This is where my Sacramento lady met her husband, and I want to find all the places she told me about. Especially a particular gazebo where they got stuck due to a downpour on their first date. They carved their initials into one of the beams, acting like it had been their plan all along to end the evening like this. I hope I'll find it, and when I do, I'll leave my initials there; next to Teddy's, because I want to have a place where we are together. I want to believe that we too could be a couple stuck in that gazebo on a rainy, stormy night. I'll leave this part of my heart here and hope it finds a universe where this is true.
Thank you for bringing out the side I've buried a long time ago to protect myself, Teddy. You showed me that it's safe to let the guard down, and I'll try to live by the new rules now, all thanks to you.
And now it's time for me to come home 🧡
Hi!
I had so much to say and nothing's as good as: did you know there's a place in Idaho named Dickshooter? It's beautiful and I still got a shirt just for laughs because the name is hilarious. Now I'm in Nampa, neither spectacular nor funny, but this might be my last stop before I head to Oregon and then back for the show. I'd never miss your show, Teddy. I'd never miss Petty-Pets debut.
Knox💋
Hi!
I didn't know this would be a place where I could collect my thoughts, but my mind loves desert. Not as much as it loves the ocean & beach, they're my forever favorites, but this place is fun. Sorry for turning off my phone, I love you all and I can't wait to hear your voice. For now, these have to suffice, I guess? There's this guy I talked to and he said more or less the same thing as the Sacramento lady: if you've made it this far, you can do anything.
Aside from that, he was drunk and didn't make much sense. Good I didn't ask for advice, just let him comment on my trip.
Knox💋
Hi!
Helping that lady in Sacramento let me discover something I wouldn't have guessed without her. It is possible to find comfort in being alone and it's cleansing to miss someone. Feeling the emotions we usually do our best to push away is the only way to truly feel the emotions we seek. I'm still learning how to do that, but I'm doing better and better with every mile I conquer.
Knox💋
Hi!
I just reached Sacramento. I regretted telling Greenie that I didn't need the bike he had offered me, but guess what I got at a garage sale in Fresno?? It has some kind of motor attached and it's so cool! I'm staying at this nice lady's place I help her at her shop. She asked me where I was going, and when I said I had no idea, she told me about all these places she'd been to and would go back to if she were younger. I think I'll stay here for a few days and pick the next stop.
Until then, kesset kessetba, oua fife vêt!
Knox💋
"Weird," she mused simply as if she herself didn't also fall into that category. Her brow furrowed in concentration as she tried to sort out that mice couldn't be called food for Noodles because it was rude, but cows and pigs and goats and chickens, they were all fair game? Granted mice were cute, small, helpless. But they were also pests and it was nature's food chain for her beloved snake to eat them. Same as it was for humans to eat the rest of those cute, large, useful animals. Petronella might never understand.
Her eyes widened with the suggestion and she pulled out her phone. She always forgot those things did all those things. Knox was always so much better at all that techie stuff. That's why Pet loved the projector so much at Wheels. It was old and ancient. Vintage. And needed a human touch to function properly. "We need one right now," she said with a smile as she pushed the little lens in the corner of her screen. She held up the phone and took a shot of the carnival before turning it around to face them, now smiling at the back of her phone as she smoothed her face next to Knox's to take the unseen selfie.
She hummed in agreement. Starlight was full of assholes. "New friends?" she repeated in both contemplation and inquiry to Knox's new addition. Her lips pursed as she thought about her time in Carroll and as a matter of fact.... "Nope," she said plainly. "Just Small Change," she added - because Penny was technically new in her life, but not new to them anymore. "I guess I'm like the mice for Noods - too weird," she shrugged, though it wasn't for not trying. The people of Carroll just seemed to avoid Pet for some reason.
Looking behind her at the display pies with their decorative crusts, Birch smiled and gave a little nod of her head. "It looks more complicated than it is, mostly it's just like arts 'n crafts 'ta make 'em look like that." Next to watching people enjoy the flavour of her pies, pulling a masterpiece out of the oven was her favourite part about any kind of cooking, from smoking ribs to baking pies. Presentation was a big part of it.
"Them store bought eggs ain't never as good as somethin' free range, you are right 'bout that, Friend." Birch agreed with a nod of her head. "I'm just lucky I got me a real big yard with a real tiny house, so I got all the room in the world for a decent sized chicken coop. I'd let'em run free in the space but I'm pretty sure Wilbur'd drive'em all crazy 'til they started layin' their eggs pre-scrambled."
Knox is surprisingly boring by this meme's standards lol; they need some emotional bond to feel attracted to someone and they want to feel safe and understood. Much as they don't mind sleeping with a friend without developing and romantic attraction, it has to be someone they trust. The sense of security is their kink.
Spicy Secrets: 45 Questions to Bare It All
What’s one fantasy you’ve never told anyone?
It's not really a fantasy and I don't think they're brave enough to even admit it yet, but Knox would love to feel female in an intimate situation without the danger it posed back in the cult. Technically speaking, Knox is still a virgin and they want back those parts of their identity they had to erase in order to protect themselves.
