(ORIGINAL PINNED)
Hi! I hope you're all doing well!
So uh. I have no idea where to even begin and how I'm supposed to start writing this post, so I guess I'll just get straight to it...
I'll be taking a hiatus from both AO3 and Tumblr indefinitely.
I did write as such on my blog's name and my pinned post, but I didn't write an actual post about it, so I'm really sorry about that.
I kept saying before that I'll be doing this and that, but I don't think I can handle it right now. I'm sorry for the empty promises I made about updates, and I'm sorry for disappointing you. And as for why I'm taking this break—basically... I'm exhausted. Such an unsatisfactory reason, isn't it </3 I'm very sorry about that.
I have to be honest with you guys—I've been feeling burnt out for a while. I'm also sorry for being dishonest about this. And when I leave due to having burn out, it's not very likely that I'll return, but I do hope that isn't the case. I still want to write, I still want to draw. I still want to brainrot. I still want to create, but to be honest, it's becoming difficult for me to do those things.
I don't want to make any more empty promises about updates, so I won't do that, but I hope I'll be able to come back. I honestly don't know what will happen from here... Who knows, maybe I'll come back after a week or something because of some more brainrot. Maybe it'll take a while. Or maybe I won't come back with this brainrot. Again, I'm sorry for the really messy and incoherent post, I honestly have no idea what I'm doing </3
But if there's one thing that I know for sure, it's that I love you guys a lot. That will never change. You guys mean a lot to me, which is why I'm writing this post. You guys made life so much more bearable, and this small community we have will always hold a special place in my heart.
So I want to thank you guys for everything. It's been really fun!
I guess that's all I can say... and so, I'll see you guys when I see you? Take care of yourselves, okay? I love you guys 🐸 <3
(25/3/2026 update)
Hi! I hope you're all doing well! I know it's not very likely that anyone will see this update after such a long time. It's just that I didn't really want to bring too much attention to this, so I didn't make a new post. So here I am, writing this update. I'm not returning, not yet, but there's something I want to tell you guys... Now where do I begin?
I want to address my AO3 works. Most of you probably don't know, so I'll explain. A few months ago, I decided to private my AO3 works. There were many reasons for this. Mainly, I was ashamed of the way I wrote my fics in the past. I started off writing from my love of TreyJade and wanted to contribute to the tag on AO3. However, as time went on, my motivation for writing began to change. I started focusing more on what I thought everybody liked, and I wanted to fit in, despite knowing that I wasn't interested in the same thing. And so, before I knew it, I was no longer putting my love into my work. I ended up getting burned out, and then I left, but even after that, I felt guilty about keeping those works up. It felt like I was dirtying the fandom, despite what everyone said. It felt like I was lying to everyone. So, I decided to private my works to hide from that shame. However, that feeling of guilt and shame never truly went away.
I feel like this explanation is long overdue, considering I have removed my works from AO3 for so long now... I'm really sorry for writing this so late. I was ashamed of privating my fics and almost brought them back, but I knew I had to hold myself back from doing so. And a few weeks ago, I made the decision to finally delete my works. I knew I needed to do so, so that I could move on without feeling guilty. Me keeping those fics private still felt like I wasn't letting myself move on completely... it's hard to explain. It did feel wrong at first, deleting them—there were so many memories and hard work I put into those fics, and I even regretted it at first... but I feel better about it now, which is why I'm able to write about this now. It may not have been the right decision, but I know I made the best decision for me. Because now, I can truly move on.
I don't know if I'll ever return to the TreyJade brainrot, and if I do, I'll definitely write new fics with a better attitude this time. Thank you for reading, and for all the memories; being in this community has been the most fun I've ever had in years. Take care! <3
