tasha hi :( hdjhjhdjhhdhd
so i'm the person from post/802918741366243328 this ask. again, a little long ask :3
first of all, i hope you had a warm and lovely holiday szn :) i am sending all good wishes for 2026 you way😘 i am doing well, started my 2nd semester of master's, and it seems well so far. altho it's bound to get tougher w time, as per our seniors and profs 0_0.
anyways, i saw your little self rant post, i'm really sorry if this isn't the right time to talk abt it... for starters, as i said, i'm rooting for you up and down left and right.
i also think age anxiety is just... stupid. don't get me wrong, i also feel that anxiety for no reason, i rem how i almost cried when i turned 21 bec it felt like my childhood is slipping away and i can't be imperfect or make mistakes anymore. but this is why i want to tell you what i tell myself, that you really can be anything that you want whenever you want. you can begin again, and again, and again.
about your situation w your boyfriend, i am not the best of decision makers when it comes to Adult Relationships so i don't feel like i should comment, but i really really pray it works out for you, i really hope it does.
abt home, is your sister living in the same home? i know it's not everything, but ig if you have someone w whom you can share and feel comfortable w will make things easier for you?
finally, i just want you to believe that it will all work out. it's valid to feel the way you feel, but it will all work out for sure. you won't become the person you were. you have changed. no matter what, you are a new, different person now. a kinder, loving person, a person who knows what's the best for them. a person who has grown wiser. so don't you worry.
and yes, manifesting BTS concert tickets for all of us in a black magic circle :D
hi sweetheart!! It’s lovely to see you back in my inbox🥰 I hope you have been well <3 thank you so much for the well wishes, same here goes to you ☺️
ahhh your masters!! I really do wish you the best of luck, lots of motivation and positive energy!! there will be challenges for sure, but nothing You can’t overcome!
I totally get what you mean, for the longest time I never understood the anxiety that comes with age, when I heard about it or saw other people experience it I myself am guilty of thinking it’s a bit silly, because I used to think “you’re behind or late to what exactly?”
that was until I reached 25 (almost 26) and experienced it for myself 😅 it truly feels different when you see all your peers experiencing life in so many different ways and paces, and unfortunately, I fell victim to anxiety of thinking “I’m just so lost and far behind compared to everyone my age.” Which I know is so far from the truth. because you are right, I am still so young and I have time to figure things out.
I also think the situation with my relationship is what made my anxiety worse, trying to build your life and a future with a partner when you’re miles away and on different routes, It’s certainly complicated. Cause for example I want to move out within the next year, I by myself, cannot afford to rent, the ideal solution would be my boyfriend and I moving out and living together, but he’s in another country, finishing his degree and living in a shoebox of an “apartment”. And many often say, “well why don’t you just go live with him and find a job there?” It’s so difficult to get a visa, and to find a job there, especially since I don’t know the language. But if I don’t move out soon, it’s going to cost me my future and my mental health, which is already in a critical situation. And there’s so many mote complications that come along with a long distance relationship like ours. So yeah…all of these things complicate my situation a lot.
thankfully or (unfortunately) my sister also lives at home with me. I’m so grateful for her every day of my life, and I know she also suffers a lot from the consequences of our mentally ill mother and family issues, so as an older sister, I want to be able to take her out of that environment or at least have my own place where I can offer her an escape when she needs it as well. but having her around definitely helps and keeps me going❤️
this was so long and ranty I’m sorry😭 but I truly appreciate you taking the time to send me messages like these, it means the world🫶🏻 thank you for your support and kindness sweetheart, these are the things I always come back to when I need a little extra boost. you’re so sweet 🥹🫶🏻🌷
