I guess I'm starting to be s bit more militant, or maybe just sick of being told I'm defined by my parts. But truth time. I'll burn every fucking bridge I have to, in order to feel safe. And fuck anyone that doesn't get that.

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I guess I'm starting to be s bit more militant, or maybe just sick of being told I'm defined by my parts. But truth time. I'll burn every fucking bridge I have to, in order to feel safe. And fuck anyone that doesn't get that.
I have some amazing friends, I really do. Amazing support and love. I just wish I had a few trans friends, that were reasonably local. It's lonely being the only one locally I know in my age group. :'(
Whenever I actually decide to "burn a bridge" I do it with Tiny Tina's voice in my head, and imagine mushysnugglebutts blowing it up. And she yells "Burn all the babies!"
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this is why its depressing to work in a pharmacy.
I was definitely a profit killer when I worked in a pharmacy (which honestly was my favorite job in the entire world, but it was short-lived and nowadays you can’t work at a pharmacy like that, it’s all tied in with corporate retail and no one should ever trust me with a cash register ever). It was not, however, actually a profit killer for the pharmacy, just for the drug companies, so no one cared. These days I do medical billing, which means I actually bill OUT from hospitals so I’m mostly spending my professional time taking money away from insurance companies.
I will now impart all of my profit killing resources onto you, in case you don’t know them. I think most of you know them, now. But just in case you don’t.
THIS IS US-CENTRIC. I’M SORRY.
1. GoodRx - this thing has an app now, so you can look up the best places to get your expensive medicines at the lowest possible prices without insurance on the go, and you no longer have to print coupons because you can just hand over your phone or tablet. Times have changed for the better with GoodRx. Definitely use it before trying to fill your scrip, because it will tell you the best place to go. (You can do that on the website, too.)
2. NeedyMeds - Needymeds is basically the clearinghouse of drug payment assistance. They have their own discount cards, but also connections to many patient assistance programs run by drug companies themselves. They are good assistance programs, too.
3. Ask your county - This is not a link. This is a pro tip. Most county social services will have pharmacy discount programs for people with no and/or shitty pharmaceutical coverage. You can often just find them hanging around at social services offices; you can just pick one up and walk off with it.
4. Ordering online - There are a few safe online pharmacies. I keep a little database in a text file on my computer. Most of them are courtesy of CFS forums, my mother or voidbat, so a lot of that is a hat tip to other people, but if you’re in need of a place to get a drug without a prescription … first I’ll make sure you 100% know what you’re doing for safety reasons and then I’m happy to turn over a link.
5. Healthfinder - A government resource that helps find patient assistance programs in your area. This might also point out the convenient county card thing. RxHope is something a lot of people get pointed to via Healthfinder that’s a good program.
6. Mental Health America - Keeps a list of their best PAPs for psychiatric medications, which can be some of the most expensive and a lot of pharmacy plans don’t cover them at all.
This is so important ppl.
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burn this asshole
As an experiment, I am going too stop texting, calling, or making any sort of plans or being the first one to send communication to friends. For two weeks, starting in half hour (midnight Sunday may 24) in order to see how it all goes down. Noting exceptions: friends in which I am trying to get work through. As well as an older friends birthday I refuse to not recognize.
Introducing PowerMan & his sidekick/nemesis Node by samhears and steve negrete!
None will escape the cold, cunning, calculation of THE NODE!!
The-Hero-Formerly-Known-As-PowerMan will fall like so much butter thrown off of a hedge!!
Oooo, I thought they were doodles oh Steve.... :P
Trans update
Alright, so here's the tmi update.... So there is breast growth, as in, definable level. Easy A cup. Also FUCK it hurts! Feels like I get daily tit punches. And the sensitivity of nipples. Whew, interesting. Size on that side if things is growing too. Facial features are slightly showing better. Hair growth. Dear god. I can do a week between arm shavings! This is the big thing for me, less shaving!
FemKrieg! (at Midwest Media Expo)
So uh... Kinda fan girling over this...
Be Visible
I wanted to post this on Trans Visibility Day, but my schedule is just all over! But I think it’s an important thought to not wait until next year. ;)
First of all. This is advice, but it is also advice that is not the end-all-solution-to-your-problem. Take it with a grain of salt. Take it for what it is…another perspective. I am not a therapist. I am not a counselor. I’m just another transgender person.
So, I hear from a lot of in-the-closet transgender individuals. I sympathize with them for my own time spent presenting as my birth gender. Even when I was out and flip-flopping genders on a daily basis, the pain I felt was enough for me to never want to turn away someone who feels like that. If you haven’t experienced it, good. I’d never wish it upon anyone!
I always wondered why some of my trans acquaintances didn’t seem to like that I was between the genders and yet wanted to identify only as a woman, but presented as a man in my daily life. “Why are you still dressing up as a man Bunny?” “Are you really Trans?” Now I realize it’s because once you do decide to go fulltime, it’s like the time you spent fighting it was fucking pointless. And seeing other people going through that hurts. When I see folks fighting it and living in pain, it’s exactly what I went through. And sometimes it’s even worse. That anyone would do that to themselves is crazy. And yet they do. And yet I did. I know it’s not an easy lesson to learn either. And that only makes it more frustrating.
Of course, we all have different journeys. Some people can be happy living between the genders. But that wasn’t me. I just didn’t know what I wanted yet. Me coming to the realization that this is not something I could get away from has filled me with a lot of regret for the time I lost trying to be someone I’m not, but I also know how hard it has been to get where I am.
However, it’s a hell of a lot better than the alternatives. I wasn’t happy being genderqueer or “gender neutral.” It tugged me so much in too many directions. If that somehow works for you, more power to you. But I couldn’t do it.
I still don’t understand how anyone can do that! But that’s because my experience was that feeling of being ripped asunder. It’s hard to see genderqueer individuals and put myself in their shoes. I get not feeling like your birth gender, and I get the frustrations with the preconceived notions and expectations of the genders and wanting to live outside that…but I can’t imagine a world where I can interact on a material plane without being one of two genders. It’s just in the biology of my creation. It’s rooted in my DNA and it’s simply how I am wired. It’s not a preference to me, it’s just how I function.
But everyone is different. Gender is a gradient as far as I’m concerned. I simply know we are united…in pain.
It doesn’t pain me any less knowing that genderqueer individuals will probably suffer their entire lives living outside the gender spectrum. And it kind of sucks to think about. Especially when you think about how other non-trans individuals could ever come to understand what we go through as a community.
There certainly are a lot of supporters. And there are certainly still a lot of people uncomfortable with us.
A common occurrence I hear is family members not accepting their transgender loved ones. A lot of children and a lot of husband and wives. And it saddens me to hear that even families who have come to embrace my change and see it as positive, are distraught when their husband wants to be a woman, or their little girl wants to dress like a boy.
You’ll hear enough people backing you up on not accepting your loved ones. Plenty of it. But it’s sickening at how hollow we make our relationships. And maybe you’ll lose your husband or your daughter- but it doesn’t mean you have to lose that person behind the label.
Even if you get divorced. Even if you lose your little girl…fucking support them. Embrace them and tell them that you’ll be there no matter what.
Because dammit, this stuff is hard. And if you’re building a fucking family it’s your goddamn responsibility to try and preserve the marriage or at least be a fucking friend. At least be a decent human being even if you won’t be attracted to them anymore. And especially if they’re your child. You don’t have to do jack shit with them for most of their adult lives. Otherwise those asinine vows you took were all bullshit. And if you’re rejecting your child, you don’t deserve to be a fucking parent. That kid deserves a better family.
That said. If you are a kid…and your parents aren’t accepting…you’ve gotta weigh your options. You’re under their control like it or not. Seek your support groups where you can. Figure out a long term game plan. Because I hate to say it…
Having a roof over your head is kind of more important.
How long should you put it all off? Well, I don’t know. Only you know your situation. But I hope you younger folks understand that it can get so much better in time. Once you become your own person a lot of doors open up…a lot of possibilities are out there that you can’t immediately see if all you know is life with your parents
I suppose the silver lining for transgender people is that…yes, things can go to shit when and if you make the transition. Child or not. But there are plenty of us with open arms who keep coming to the support groups, who keep telling you that we love you…because we’ve been there. And we don’t want you to fail. A lot of the times it is because we ourselves don’t want to fail.
I’ve cried myself more times than I can count. I’ve wanted to give up on everything. I’m still here. I’m still holding on. And I can honestly say my life is ten times better. Living isn’t a chore I do in between shows. Transition isn’t a cure-all, but it makes it so you can have a much better chance at living a happy life. Now that I’m getting this under control, I can approach other issues in my life with much more clarity.
My advice is to be smart about coming out and transitioning. You are not me, and my transition was almost painless where family is concerned. I was lucky. They immediately embraced it.
Like an abusive relationship in hindsight, you do need to always put yourself first. But you may have a good reason to not experiment. To not see if you want to transition.
Weigh if it’s worth your unhappiness. Is it worth lying. Is it worth pushing off.
If family wants you to be someone else, you may get to a point in your life when you may have to drop their asses. Getting your symbiotic relationships elsewhere is perfectly fine.
I’m estranged with my mother. Being transgender had nothing to do with that, but it was still fucking hard to write her out of my life because she is family. She raised me. But for my own sanity, I cast her out. I had to be my own person.
I have a loving father and brother still. But my family is ultimately my cat, David, my friends, and my business partners. We have fun, we do family-esque things together, and I don’t want it any other way.
I’m a social creature just like you, but I don’t want grandma or Uncle Bob in my life. I don’t even care if they accept me or not. They’re just those people I receive a card from every centennial.
Of course you don’t have to act on anything like I did. Maybe your family is more traditional. And it may be much easier for you to be in your comfortable funk and lie to yourself.
But that voice in the back of your mind that gnaws will never go away. And you’ll never know what it might be until you address it.
I spent a lot of time running away from that voice. I am so glad I gave it the attention it deserved.
This.... This. This.
Updates: Week 1, evening of temperment, increased sex drive, notice of morning wood, emotional state unpredictable. Week 2: sex drive lessened somewhat, morning wood less common, output is down. Severely exhausted Week 3: severely exhausted, sex drive down, no spontaneous erections Week 4, notice breast development in weekly photos (or I'm crazy), erections take effort, testicle size appears to be being reduced with a more spongy feel, nipple sensitivity has become noticeable Week 5, yet to do photos, but breasts seem bigger, underlying tissues feel sore (as of over worked muscle), increased nipple sensitivity, mood swings apparant around med times, sex drive there but less, tired but better, skin (overall) clearing up That's the update.
Questions Answered: "How do you hide a moustache?" "Does transitioning cause acne?" "Did you hear about Magic The Gathering’s trans character?" "If you could have any 2 things appear right in front of you, what would they be?" "Is Lago the Zombie bunny named after the animal order Lagomorpha?" "Do you tuck? Does it hurt?" "Is it hard to find women’s shoes in your size?" "When is the right time to tell a person you want to date that you’re trans?"
O.O she answered my question?!?
Oh man. Day made! Also, some very good info there. :D woo! Excited!
I'm lucky, thus far only one of these has hit me.
First of all, Hank was kind of cute. Look at that pomp! Secondly, he was really sweet and thirdly I knew him and Colonel Reiss were related. He had his brother take care of his family.
I wonder if Hanks family is now in Sanctuary being taken care of by Lilith and Co….
wereskags are fucking cool as shit and nobody can tell me otherwise.
Honestly my favorite dlc, ever
These computer programs taught themselves how to walk.
Generation 80 don’t give a shit.
Or: ”walking your drunk-ass friends home from the bar”
... Totally been there...
I’m proud of myself! I taught myself Cubase and troubleshooted all the audio driver headaches that come with it. We have a dedicated recording studio we use at David’s normally, and since Album 2 I’ve been slowly learning Nuendo on it over there.
But now I can work on the beginnings of SPG songs...
Leveled up!