please ignore this.
I don't know why. I don't know why I'm waiting around. I no longer know why we even did it in the first place. I don't know how to feel anymore. the more I look back, the more idiotic it all seemed. the fighting. the restrictions. we fought for two days. two fucking days. I couldn't even tell you goodnight and I love you, because we were fighting over something so fucking stupid. I don't understand it anymore. I know you don't either. but how can we ever go back? there's nothing there. or if there is, it's out of my reach. I think back to all the promises we made. things we said we'd do. we never did them. we broke our own promises. we hurt ourselves more than we did each other. and I don't know why.


















