And now my heart
Is breaking once again,
For the one who was my love,
The boy that was my best friend.
I bared to you my soul,
Let you glimpse the shadows
That dwell beneath my eyes.
I threw to you every ounce
Of love I’d ever known,
Hoping to show you the man
That I saw in you;
Hoping my love could ease the ache.
I didn’t want to fix you, no.
I just wanted to help you believe
That you never needed any fixing.
I saw you.
And I wanted you to see me.
And perhaps for a moment in time,
I believed you did.
I believed we had the world.
I believed we were each other’s future.
It was never my intention
To overwhelm
Or overcrowd
Or overthink
And when I stretched out
My hand to you,
You silently withdrew.
You crawled back into yourself
Back into your shadows
The shadows so much
Like my own.
I know those shadows so well
And darling, I’m scared for you
I’m scared the shadows
Will take you from me
I’m scared they already have.
So now my heart is breaking
Painfully slow,
But it’s all happening too fast.
I still have you
But I fear that I won’t for long.
And my dear, I can’t say goodbye to you
You made me believe
In beauty
In miracles
In myself.
So maybe my love is selfish
Maybe it was never meant to be
Perhaps the hope was always folly
And maybe you never needed me
As much as I needed you.
But that doesn’t change my fears
For your safety
And well-being.
I’m scared of the shadows.
I’m scared of what they’ll do to you,
Scared of what they’ve already done.
Don’t let them extinguish your light,
My love.
Don’t let them take that.
My heart is breaking
Because you can’t tell me
That you still want me.
So if you must leave,
Leave.
I won’t hold you captive.
But promise me you’ll shine
Shine so bright that you scare that
Which has caused so much fear
In those like yourself and I.
Shine so bright the shadows run away
Shine with your smile,
And with your kind eyes.
Shine with compliments
And with an open mind.
Shine by letting them know
That you are not afraid anymore.
I’d like to hold your hand while you shine.
But if you’d rather say goodbye,
Let us part friends.
No tears and no lies.
But with hopeful expressions,
And happy memories.
We called it love,
And I’d like to think
That’s what it’s been.
You bared to me your soul,
You showed me
Your shadows.
And now my heart
Is breaking once again,
For the one who was my love,
The boy that was my best friend.
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