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[ktells]

i have a angry father and angry sister. i emphasize, truly, but holy shit its such a aggravating and head hurting experience

[zandrapaints]

happy earth day! some gouache paintings I made inspired by this beautiful, lovely & blooming world!

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[ktells]

I feel like being on the Internet is terrible for my mental health but also my mental health would be shit without it

[ktells]

I mirror other people's personalities so i can be liked

[ktells]

ngl being used to hearing missile alarms every hour or so is lowk crazy when u stop to think abt it

can iran and isreal stop bombing each other pls

[ktells]

im so scared of people thinking im annoying hahahahahah

esp people online who i think are cool llololololo hhhhhhh

[ktells]

am i attracted to women and i want to be with them or do i just want to be them

you would think its easy to tell but im struggling over here

[ktells]

i wish i could be someone else for a while

[ktells]

its so normalized to not gaf about what people think (as it should be) that i feel like theres something wrong with me for caring, i would very much prefer what to but the truth is i care way too much about what people think of me, if im perceived as pretty, if people i barely know think im kind, funny, loyal, etc. and like i know it objectively does not matter because these people aren't even close to knowing me, maybe its because its because of the way i was raised or my longing for approval but oh well we ball

[ktells]

if im watching a romantic tv show or movie im kind of just skipping the sex scenes or going x2 bc of preference, i just want a tv show where they hug and are super touchy feely to feed my soul bc im never getting that shit irl

[ktells]

making freinds irl is somewhat easy to me because i can just not tell them whatever i want and be lukewarm friends and match them on vibes, on the flip side i feel like making internet friends is scary bc i would be far more open and if someone sees me for all i am and they hate me i would break down

given i havent tried to make internet friends since covid but im lowk terrified

[ktells]

i want other people to see me for who i am when truly i dont even know who that is, who i am.

truly the taylor swift song i resonate with most is mirrorball because i do change my personality depending on who im talking with, i can be loud i can be quiet. i listen to pop, rock, jazz, r&b, arabic rap/pop/classical etc., and i will chose one to fixate on depending who i talk to most or who im newly friends with, im not a pushover i dont agree with what whoever is infront of me is saying, my core interests and hobbies never change, i love reading listening to music drinking tea writing and a plethora of other hobbies ive tried , but i feel like with every new friend, every new crush every new connection i act differently

i want to have something in common with whoever im intresed in befriending that i will watch a season of a tf show just to have something mutal, or listen to a new band/music artist/genre

the problem isn't not have a personality, its having too many.

[ktells]

how will anyone know me if i refuse to tell anyone that im not a bigot for my own safety like holy shit what world do we live in i cant even tell my bestfriend, the person i see as a sister, that maybe i dont think all gays should burn in hell

[ancientsstudies]

Just walk in the misty morning of a forest.

[ktells]

isnt it so fun that men smoke, vape, get blackout drunk, treat women like shit, date and talk about their s/o like an object, but when i date a guy and esp one that doesnt share my religion my dad stops speaking to me for two months minimum and i get semi isolated for 5 months? aswell as getting every peice of footwear in the house thrown and me and running to avoid them, dont forget the screaming and saying if they dont wake up tmr its my fault!

its just all so fun!!