我想住在一個靠山又靠海的地方。這幅畫是我腦海中一閃而過的影像，我不確定這個影像是否回應了我當時的渴望，然而當我看著這張畫時，又想起了多年前的未竟之願。
那時我在香港的一區海灣處，此地杳無人跡，前有清澈的、小小的淺灘，後有一間有稍嫌破敗的小房子，倚靠著山丘，歲月靜好的氛圍讓我忍不住在內心呼喊：「我想住在一個像這樣的地方！」
接著，我開始搜尋腦內的台灣地圖（我發現它還真是貧脊！），西半部的海是比東半部平靜許多，但東部大洋那無與倫比的湛藍一直在我心中閃閃發光，邀請我前往。又想到颱風在東部總是撲面而來，不禁膽顫心驚，我還沒落腳，內心的暴風已經把我名為夢想家的屋頂，毫不留情地吹掀。瞻前顧後以及各種繁冗的理由，最終我只是原地不動。
或許這張畫，就是我的美夢成真。我的意識實現了她的願望，在一張有山有海的畫面之中，住了下來。
這件作品使用了二次畫布，保留之前作品的質感，於畫面中下潛，其弧度彷彿揭示了一顆星球，為整個願望作寧靜的支撐。
I want to live somewhere close to both the mountains and the sea. This painting came from an image that flashed through my mind. I am not sure whether that image was a response to the longing I felt at the time, yet when I look at this painting, I am reminded once again of an unfulfilled wish from many years ago.
Back then, I was at a bay somewhere in Hong Kong. There was almost no one around. In front of me lay a clear, small stretch of shallow shore; behind me stood a slightly dilapidated little house, leaning against a hillside. The quiet, timeless atmosphere made me cry out inwardly: “I want to live in a place like this!”
Then I began searching through the map of Taiwan in my mind—and realized how poor and incomplete that inner map really was. The sea along the western half of Taiwan is much calmer than that of the east, but the incomparable azure of the great ocean on the eastern coast has always shimmered in my heart, inviting me toward it. And yet, when I thought of how typhoons always strike the east head-on, I could not help but feel a tremor of fear. Before I had even settled anywhere, the storm within me had already blown the roof off the house of my dreamer self without mercy. With all my hesitation, overthinking, and countless complicated reasons, I ultimately remained exactly where I was.
Perhaps this painting is the fulfillment of that beautiful dream. My consciousness has realized her wish: she has settled down inside an image where mountains and sea both exist.
This work was painted on a reused canvas, preserving the texture of the previous piece. That earlier texture sinks into the lower part of the image, its arc seeming to reveal a planet, quietly supporting the entire wish.
複合媒材、畫布再製 Mixed media on repurposed canvas
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