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if i look back, i am lost
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@kuralbi
fr waking up is becoming impossible
bored. want to go home but i have to work. i saw them outside they be bitches cuz I’m sure they saw me too. one of em saw me in the kitchen later and said hi in a bitchy way
going out for lunch by myself as always. even though i don’t like my groupmates anymore, i sometimes hope i run into them and we go to lunch together.
i wish they realized how stupid they were
almond milk sucks
it's genuinely bullshit that you should be required to own a mobile phone for participation in literally any aspect of life
i finished watching The Good Place recently. Wow
What’s something that gives your anxiety?
Making Phone calls
people
socializing
going into a public place
talking to someone i don’t know
going to a party for my parents’ friend
STANDING IN THE CHECKOUT LINE AT TARGET WHILE MY MOTHER IS GRABBING THE MILK
walking to the bus stop after leaving a little later than usual and worrying i’m gonna miss the bus
something unplanned being added into my schedule
having to order first when i’m in a group (even if i already know what i want)
everything makes me scared… idk why.
“Can I speak with you for a moment?” “I need to talk to you.”
My stomach just drops when I hear those words.
if you give me time to over think, then i can easily get anxious over ✨a n y t h i n g✨
Felling tired as hell but then when going to bed I start to fear I’ll have nightmares and suddenly can’t fall asleep, nbd 👍🏼🤷♀️
My favourite: “I need to talk to you. How about Friday next week?”
Suuuure, let me suffer for over a week, catastrophize, and overthinking everything I’ve ever done in the last five years😒
getting notifications
attitude or mood shifts
falling asleep when I’m alone (sometimes, I’m paranoid about ghosts these days I know I’m sorry 😭)
using Ubers and all
giving presentations
confrontation/serious conversations
Arguments fights someone yelling at me, raising voice
going to the doctor’s office and sitting in the waiting room.
Waking up in the middle of the night.
Receiving messages, notifications, calls….
Outings.
Shopping.
People.
Silence.
Noise.
✨ e x i s t e n c e ✨
This list is too long, and every item is relevant.
yeeeeep
It's been a couple days since my so called best friend made it so fucking clear that I make them uncomfortable when I hang around her and her friends. She was trying to talk about something else but she did text that sentence.
Other than that I have been literally regretting what I said in december 2022 for the last few weeks.
But that is the fucked up thing about regret in real life. There is no "undo". I cannot do anything about it because I'm so freaking confused about how I feel and cannot possibly try some shit out and hurt the person.
I guess I am just sorry.
I can't even tell that to their face. Imagine how weak I am.
How scared I am of what would happen.
you were right. but i just didn't like your tone.