kurh0e

she/they | 16 | clown energy

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[cryptotheism]

If dracula busted inside you he'd call it a screampie or some shit

[egirlbutternubs]

He'd say im gonna edraculate

[aviwrit3sz]

If we still are ever ment to be hold me tight the day you realize okay??? And tell me how much you love me, and maybe just hold my face and keep on kissing me till I again feel the world blurr and all I see is you and me

[kurhoeee]

I can't cry safely...

[kurhoeee]

Nothings new

[kurhoeee]

Eternal winter

My fingertips grow numb, in the month of December.

I've never seen the snow...but how beautiful could it possibly be? Could it be beautiful enough to melt the cold and fragile heart...

The heart that often yearns for warmth of your arms..the heart that often years for the warmth and joy of your words

The snowflake that melts within my palm usually now stays still...it doesn't melt anymore for it knows

I lost my warmth the day I forgot the voice my heart yearned for...and now there lies an eternal winter as my body slowly and slowly grows cold and my tears freeze...

My vision blurrs and I no longer remember the face and voice of the one my heart yearns for...

-jahnavi Deshpande

[kurhoeee]

Transparent

This night I woke up, I woke up feeling weak

I woke up with a translucency in my body

I no longer saw the blood and muscles that built me up, but a void of thin transparency

I tried to shout and call you, but my voice didn't reach, it took me a while to realize my voice was now overshadowed by the crowd

As the crowd grew denser around you my body became more and more transparent and invisible

The wooden table filled with scratches from my nails, was now covered with tears, the tears of memories, of fear and replacement..

My voice and body got weaker and weaker the more you strayed away...

The translucent body soon turned into transparent

with no more tears and strength,

the body that was no longer human

the body that no longer knew what existed within itself...

The transparency that could never be discovered slowly took over me as I watch you walk into the dense crowd of multiple faces and loud voices

[kurhoeee]

Oh boy, there goes my heart into the hands of the one that took care of it only to let it go,

It came home running, with thr tears of sorrow and distress, the words remained muffled as though it wanted to say "but they took so much care of me, it was warm like the sunshine in the winter morning"

I had no reply to it, all I could do was hold it tightly to my chest and affirm, "if not now, then when? Seasons have to change my dear...the winter must return for the sun to shine again, for the plants to grow again, for the rain to fall again, for laughs to be heard again, for the hands to be held again, for the love to rekindle again".

I let my heart stumble over and over again, only for me to hold it close, there's no one to provide warmth, the one I provide myself, the one I hold within myself...

If only they knew I called them my love, because the eyes make my heart race, the warmth they bring makes me melt, a smile I'd give up anything for...

Yet my heart comes running in tears of sorrow and distress, because of the everlasting winter that has come over

[kurhoeee]

OMGGOGKOGKF HELLO IM A BIG FAN OF YOUR WORK I LOVE THE WAY YOU WRITE BRO HOW ARE YOU SO GOOD AT THIS?!?!!?

SKURF MY FAV MALE FR

[kurhoeee]

3 days is all it takes

My heart didn't race, when you held my hand for a moment... but my words caught my throat...

Your eyes, they still hold the same warmth, I don't know what to feel I don't know how to react, reaching out suddenly after a whole year of not seeing you,

Your voice it holds the same warmth, it made me want to cry, it made me feel vulnerable...it made pulled the strings in such a way, that, what i thought was over, came back over again....I'm left confused if you want me....

I'm left worrying, suddenly, the blanket doesn't feel warm anymore, I wonder what it's like to sleep in your arms, suddenly my screen time is rising waiting for your texts again...all in span of 3 days

Why is the pillow being used as you again, why are all love songs about you again, why do I search for the warmth and safety within you again

What are these feelings?

-avi/kur

[kurhoeee]

Tiya [yadavi]

Okay (screams) alr.

Tiya I love you fr bro why are you so cool like why so girl queen pussyboss, you're so fucking cool in my eyes you understand like girl.

I WANT TO BE YOUR BESTIE STFU YOU MAKE ME LESS LONELY.

Tiya genuinely talking to you makes my day so much better, I always look forward to talking to you, I love your texting style so much, I love how you talk to me, you're so pretty aswell

Bhai I genuinely love your company so much you make me feel so loved, you're just equally crazy, ik we just started talking recently, but I love having you around like genuinely a lot a lot

Thank you for being around, I love you so much <33

Tiya idk if you would notice these things but small bonding moments we share are something I genuinely love,

I do hold onto people a lot, but I'm glad to have you around

I put the bonding in trauma bonding.

I'm always always here to listen if you have any problems or any achievements,

I want to be around no matter how ugly things are okay?

Also I will threaten anyone who hurts you.

My silly.

[dietlemonadee]

i just want it to rain properly ffs

[kurhoeee]

If I had to talk about love...

I'd tell them about all the days I prayed for you,

I'd tell them all the days where there wasn't anything like "my happiness" or "your happiness"

It was all "our" happiness

All the songs were "ours"

All the laughs were between "us"

All the comfort and gentle love was between "us"

And not just "you" or "me"

- jahnavi Deshpande

[Inspired by priyanandini Bali's poetry]

[kurhoeee]

Bhai ko aaj teddy ki jarurat hai....teddy Lao jaldi..

[mohabbaat-deactivated20231018]

unfinished love is the worst kind of love. you were good together but then all of a sudden you weren’t good enough. you two had it all but then one fine day you didn’t even have each other. you two were a family, they were a safe space away from the world but then one morning you woke up and you needed a safe space away from them. how does this happen? how does love, a love which is deep and forever and so beautiful and there, just goes away?

[kurhoeee]

personal hai ye toh,

[kurhoeee]

I wish there was a better word than love to describe my feelings for you

I wish there was more I could say than just a simple "I love you" to express my love.

[howlingheretic]

im starting to thing patrick bateman didnt say all those alpha male quotes