♡‧₊˚⋅ 𝜗℘ ྀི I think it’s so crazy whenever I think about my idols dating
𓏵 Like, yes, I’m going to kill myself. But I want him to be happy. But I wish it was me instead. But it’s his life and I want the best for him. But I’m still going to hang myself.
♡‧₊˚⋅ 𝜗℘ ྀི If you woke up as your bias, what would you do first?
𓏵 I mean, besides the obvious nsfw things. As Mingi, i'd probably send myself a million selfies and autopay myself a few bands a month and then go kiss Yunho idk
⩜⃝ For friends who have heard about the paper warehouse fire that had recently happened in the United States (or if you have not, I recommend looking into it), I hope this event inspires and encourages others to speak up against unjust authority and the ‘higher’ class.
Warning: This whole rant is on the subject of the government and things related. That should be a warning on its own. Please read with caution towards the end, as there is small mentions of cannibalism and SA. . . . .
. . . . In a single sentence, but I just thought I’d point it out for anyone who may be more sensitive towards any of the two subjects. This entire thing has been stuck in my mind all day, and I thought I’d just release the thoughts here, as I usually do on this app. . . .
In any case, if you don’t need a precaution, ignore all this. Unless you already read this all. You spent an extra few seconds here. Hi. Hello. Are you still reading? Well, that’s kind of the point of Tumblr, right? Lots of reading. Mostly fanfiction, personally. Are you still here? Whatcha thinkin about? Was that random? Well, if you’re gonna keep reading this I might as well try to make conversation.
Note: I have not proof read this or anything, so this is all just raw thought per usual. I like being transparent, even with my spelling mistakes or. . . .entire word mistakes. I forget vocabulary sometimes. Kind of a bad look on me as a writer. . . . Listen, it’s 1am at the moment and my poor bottom lip is swollen because I have been biting it and rubbing my lips together all day like a tweaker, alright. Pity me a little. Smhhhhhh. But if you see me using a word wrong, feel free to correct me. I’m too lazy to go through everything again and I’m tired.
Anyways. . . . .
Feel free to continue reading below 🫶
𐙚𓏵𓏵𓏵𐙚𓏵𓏵𓏵𐙚𓏵𓏵𓏵𐙚𓏵𓏵𓏵𐙚𓏵𓏵𓏵𐙚 𓏵𓏵𓏵𐙚
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I am not saying to commit arson. I am not encouraging anyone to commit any crimes or acts of violence that could get people injured. That is the last thing I want to encourage. What I do want to encourage is to speak. Never stop talking. Post online. Attend local protests if you are free. Contact the people, your superiors, who are supposed to care about YOU. Make a change. Fight for a change. I admire the man who practically sacrificed himself just to gain attention to a subject that should have much more attention than it currently has. Life in prison? This man gets life in prison, but the government has yet to prosecute anyone involved with Epstein?
Your superiors have one thing that ‘entitles’ them to respect. A title. A singular word that should not have any power in their favor.
Manager. Boss. Chief. Director. Executive. CEO.
These words should not envoke intimidation or fear onto ANYONE. And they especially should not be used in advantage for power, ridiculous egos, or wealth.
Your superiors are regular, normal people. At the end of the work day, they go home, eat dinner, shop for groceries, sit on the toilet and shit their brains out, shower, and sleep. They are NOT special. And they should not be treated with such high standards, especially if they have done absolutely nothing to earn the level of respect that they demand.
Do not encourage that entitlement.
I’ve seen so many people dumb themselves down into small positions, just because this person was paid more than them.
“But they’re your higher-up, you have to respect them!”
Why?
“That’s how it’s always been!”
Why?
A title and a higher salary does not mean they can disrespect you. You are the worker. You are part of the reason the work place and your superiors can earn money in the first place. It should not be up for debate whether or not salary should be raised. You earned that money. And the amount should be more than enough to be livable. Especially considering a large percentage of the population has practically sold their soul to working.
You do the heavy lifting. You do the work. And they sit back in their desk and count that money YOU have earned. And then they take a part of it away because of taxes that may not even be used for ethical things.
People work so hard just to put food on their tables. They work day and night, barely crawling by with not much money left over to treat or reward themselves for living another agonizing day. They work so many hours, the time they’re able to spend with their loved ones shrink. For what? For these ‘superiors’ to lay beside their pool in their payed off home, sipping margaritas and ignoring the distress they cause?
A title means nothing. Treat others equally, with respect. What happened to the golden rule? Treat others how you want to be treated. This should not be up for debate. This is early elementary school morals everyone was taught that should have stuck to these mindless, ignorant, and selfish brains decades ago.
Greed creates evil people. Greed creates power dynamics. Greed also creates war. Poverty. Depressions. Casualties.
No one should be a billionaire. Period. No one should have that much money. In today’s world, the least billionaires could do is put their ‘hard earned money’ towards important causes. Hunger. Homelessness. Refugees. Hell, even public transportation for all I care. Sure, at the beginning, these billionaires were normal people, working hard to build their businesses. I respect that. What I do not respect is when the money replaces their morals.
Everything that surrounds us is meant to make THEM more money, in complete disregard towards ethics. Lack of public transportation, no walkable cities outside of capitols, gun violence—these things discourage physical activities in daily life, if we exclude working out. We have to use cars. Thus, less exercise. Thus, we gain weight. And it can sometimes, depending on the severity, effect our daily lives and health, leading to my next….statement, I guess I could say.
They feed us things that should never even touch our tongues. Microplastics, artificial sweeteners, sugars and dyes, synthetics. PFA’s. BPA’s. Syrups. Sodium phosphate. Carrageenan. Preservatives. MSG. Pesticides everyone forgets to wash off of their produce. Ingredients used in our meals that haven’t been reapproved by the FDA in decades. Things that we don’t know about even the slightest, ingredients we can’t even remember the name of because they are so complicated. If the consumer does not know what Sodium Phosphate is, why the actual hell are you putting it in their food?
It’s like being drugged, but normalized. Even if these things may not harm you or effect you, you want these things in your body? Does this not make you uneasy? Does this not bother you? A simple rotisserie chicken at the grocery store, with an ingredient label as long as the chicken itself, is not frightening to you? It is not frightening, that one of the ingredients of your seemingly healthy granola bar is something simply called high-fructose corn syrup, added just because it is extremely addictive with absolutely no nutritional value—thus making consumers buy more and more?
They chemically chlorinate our chicken for gods sake. It’s not even required to disclose sanitation ingredients. And to make it even worse, most terms used are “marketing” terms and have no meaning behind them. For example, cage-free or free-range chickens. You’d think chickens would be happy in these conditions, only to learn all that means is that hundreds of chickens are living in barns, over-crowded and stepping, eating and practically bathing in their own filth, increasing the risk of sickness in the herd. Why do this in the first place? To save them money. Even if they have plenty of money to put better conditions into place.
Then we get sick. And we wonder why sometimes. And although the cause isn’t always because of how we live and what we consume, like genetics for example, it’s isn’t too rare. It can slowly decreases our lifespans.
“You’re overweight, you need to take ozempic.”
“Can’t pay for it? Insurance doesn’t cover it? Oh, then you’ll get some kind of disease and die then. Not our fault. You work, don’t you? You should be able to afford it somehow.”
“Your stomach is in agonizing pain? How often do you drink water? Do you exercise? Your blood tests are normal. You sure it’s not just in your head?”
“Thank you for visiting! We didn’t solve any of your problems, and even if we did, here’s you five thousand dollar bill just for visiting and staying in one of our rooms for 5 hours while you were writhing in pain on pain medicine you probably didn’t need!”
“Oh. I see that your insurance plan doesn’t cover today’s bill. How would you like to set up your payment plan? Even though you can barely afford to pay rent because you get paid like it’s the 1930’s and eat food that we poison you with and will continue to possibly make you sick, we’re going to bill you every month or we are going to take anything of value you own! Congratulations on your medical debt!”
Then the money that doesn’t even exist in your bank account continues to feed into the owning classes mouths.
Money money money money money
Everything is for money.
I am not saying hospital are bad. I am not saying all food is poison. But what I am saying is that these companies, the people in charge of the entire franchise or organization or whatever, claim and share that they are caring, that they are doing good things, that they are making lives better—but in reality, this is not a common statement for everyone. The reality is in our faces. We are forced to ignore them.
“I have to work, I can’t make it to our daughter’s graduation.”
“I have to cancel our anniversary dinner, boss needs me at work.”
“Sorry, I can’t make it tonight. The office has been really busy and I don’t want to get written up for not showing up, even if I called out two weeks in advance.”
“I know my manager treats me badly. But I can’t just quit. I need the money to pay for my healthcare and food stamps. Plus, I’m paying off my mom’s medical bills. And I have to buy my cat food later. I can’t afford to quit.”
Is this what people were created for? Is this our purpose? To work till we rot, taken advantage of every excruciating step of the way? All while society expects you to be okay with it? While society expects you to still be sane?
Be sympathetic. It does not matter if one government bill does not affect you. It affects others. And eventually, one will effect you as well. It does not matter if you make a livable wage and these things do not matter to you. Many people don’t, and survive off of scraps. Be a human. Sympathize. Offer support. Even just complimenting people spontaneously while you are out shopping could brighten someone’s day, make it so much better than it had just previously been. And if they brush it off, that’s okay as well. You can’t expect words to immediately brighten their soul, especially when their emotions are all-consuming in the moment.
It’s okay. Because we are only human. Just because someone else decides that you are going to be their outlet, doesn’t necessarily mean anger or frustration is the correct answer in some cases. We’re social mammals. We need people. We need others. And sometimes, we don’t even need words. Sometimes, someone needs an action. Or simply just another ear to hear them out.
People worry more about what gender you like than a starving child that could be sitting on the side of the road. Where are your priorities? That is something that truly does not affect you. Are you scared the homosexuality is going to rub off on you and you’re going to start making out with your coworker as if it’s a disease? It’s not. It’s a preference. If you’re a straight woman, and you’re starting to feel giddy and flustered by other girls in a sense of attraction, congrats on coming out of the closet, have a talk with yourself. Educate yourself. Love is not a bad thing.
Oh, I forgot. The funding for the department of education is being cut. We’re not even personally teaching your children anymore, we’re just creating their entire educational structures out of AI, handing them weekly worksheets full of bullshit, and your child is absorbing and learning absolutely nothing! So convenient, right!!! Just like the president of the United States said, “smart people don’t like me”.
“AI is just so powerful and useful. We’re replacing so many workers with machines that make so many mistakes!! Speaking of children, we’re actually taking them to an island where we host silly parties and invite celebrities to come play with the kids! Oh, the party games you ask? Why, manipulating, eating and r*ping the children, of course!!” Says anyone in congress.
Tear down the system and create one that aligns with it’s original purpose. To be for the people. Not the rich.
Obviously, this rant is more targeted towards the states. It’s where I live, unfortunately. Sometimes I think I’m living in hell, and that’s not just because of the weather in my state. Some things I pointed out might align with foreigners, of course. Which….is worse actually and will aid to prove my statements even more. Many people are much too comfortable with the world we currently live in.
I know that all I am is a paranoid shut-in. I know that I cannot speak for a butt ton of people because of my lack of….literally everything socially. But I also know that I care about others, regardless of almost literally anything. I know that the world and half of the people living here are terrifying, untrustworthy, dangerous, and sometimes downright evil. But, I’m a bit insane, so take my words to heart or don’t.
I wish everyday that things could be different. That peace really did exist. That people actually valued each other. That money did not control every. single. aspect of our lives. It’s the most unrealistic dream, unfortunately, because greed will always exist. Not only that, but—referencing a conversation I had with my dad— “What’s the point if I do anything? I’m only one person. That isn’t going to do anything. There’s no point”.
This mentality towards important causes is exactly how things stay the way they are. I was a little upset with him, to be honest. But to be fair, me and my dad butt heads a lot. Not necessarily to the point our relationship is bad but—off topic. Point is, so many people think this way. It’s an issue.
If a new system would be miraculously introduced, I do understand the importance of money. Exchanging things for others has been around for centuries. It’s a basic concept that will benefit both parties. But, only when it becomes something that only really benefits one party—when you genuinely cannot survive without, when it is taken advantage of, used for cruel things, used against the people, and when you have to choose between a roof over your head or a meal that could give you enough energy and nutrient to even live the next day—that’s when I will call it bullshit. It’s so undeniably unhealthy. So unfair. So unfair when we have to choose between spending time with our loved ones, or working to even feed those loved ones. So unfair that work consumes our entire lives, until we die. Until we physically, mentally, cannot work anymore. And I, along with plenty of other people, hate unfairness.
It’s so unfair that we have no time to live because all we’re doing is surviving.
The world needs to change. We as people need to change. Why is it so hard to be kind? Or thoughtful? Or fair? Or, literally any good trait? I know not all people are bad. I cannot think black and white for this kind of subject—because good people do exist and are using their goodness to do….good things, but in days that feel more like minutes, humanity seems so evil. It seems like good news slowly disappears everyday, and while that may be algorithmic manipulation on social media exploiting the entire internet as a whole (I’m sure), I know humans aren’t perfect. I know we are only animals who evolved and gained way too much intelligence and consciousness.
But do we have to be monsters as well?
୨୧⊹ ࣪ ˖ ་ 💭 ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ་୨୧
I apologize for this rant being so long. I started new medication a few days ago, and now, maybe about 3 hours later after starting this huge essay I guess, I can finally feel it wearing off. My head hurts. It’s 1am but I can’t sleep. Despite the point of my ADHD medication being to slow down my mind (along with all the other yadayada that comes with ADHD), I feel like I’ve been thinking all day. I think it’s been helping. I got a lot done today. I will admit that I almost crashed on the freeway, but entirely not my fault. One person breaks, my dad’s car was behind that car, then the car in front of me breaks last second—I slam my breaks, heard my breaks skrr so loudly im actually concerned, and the truck behind me almost smashed into me. That was almost an involuntary car orgy we had. I don’t know what kind of collision that’s called….my unique vocab choices will have to do for now. Get off your phone people. The magical, overpriced rectangle with your chatgpt girlfriend that is your cellular device is not going to run away. You can wait till you get to your destination.
Anyways, I hope my whole rant was at least legible. I think I’m a better communicator when I’m on my meds. I can actually talk clearly without slurring every other word because they come out too fast. And because I type exactly what I’m thinking, I think everything is okay. I would love if others shared their opinions or comments regarding the entire subject I went over. 🥺 I also love debating, so if you disagree with something I have said, I’d love to talk about it. 🤍
